He's My Beloved (Slowly Realized)
CHAPTER 45

Pandu was silent and suddenly grabbed Sarah's right wrist "Sar, for once again I want to say I love you, I really really with my feelings for you. You want to be my girlfriend?" pandu said expectantly so that Sarah can accept her feelings. Sarah looked in Pandu's eyes, this time she felt that Pandu was really on her.

"forget me Ndu, go. Show your filial piety to your parents. Be successful and happy" replied Sarah to take off Pandu's grip.

This time Pandu resigned with Sarah's answer, "well Sar, I go. I'm sorry who has been harassing your life all this time", "I say goodbye Sar, thank you for this year for serving psychopaths like me. Take care of yourself and apologize to Zaki for not being able to take care of you", said Pandu while greeting Sarah's hand.

After that Pandu went to leave Sarah herself who now feels unreasonable, Sarah feels her feelings do not want Pandu to go, but what is the greater ego power Sarah so as to cover her feelings on Pandu. "why am I so sad to be left behind by Pandu? Isn't he who I'm not?" sarah's now unconscious murmur shed tears.

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Sarah was laying her body on the grass in the garden behind her house while looking at the moon that night, "it's beautiful tonight", murmured Sarah herself. He felt alone this time, he closed his eyes remembering what he had been through the last few years.It was not easy through it all, really, but in fact he can go through it to the point now.

"Relier? Why did he show up?" inner Sarah.

"honey, there's Zaki.. Want to see you" cried Nadia calling Sarah, "yes ma.. Sarah's in the back garden. Tell her to come in" answered Sarah half-screaming.

"why are you here?", "is there a problem with Arin?" cerocos Sarah to Zaki. "what are you?Go abroad. You know?", Sarah just nodded slowly. "the girl base.your ego is really high huh Sar?" zaki said, "you mean?" sarah replied glaring at Zaki. "you know, Scout the story to me while holding back tears, she said that you rejected her." continued Zaki.

"try to think calmly, do not let your ego control you. Look Pandu, he was willing to delay his departure which should be this year he left, but because he wants to try to melt your heart he postponed his departure" continued Zaki who is now getting emotional.

Sarah was surprised to hear Zaki say, "Sar, please still have time to think again. Don't let you mess up" Zaki said as he passed away leaving Sarah. "One more Sar, if the guy has arrived crying it means his feelings do not play".

Sarah is still upset by Zaki's remark that he has a high ego, Sarah silently stared at the dark sky that night she screamed in her heart feeling tight in her chest that did not know where the pain she felt that night. Whether because of his past with Abi, or because of Zaki's words, or because his high ego makes Pandu cry.

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The day before Pandu's departure, intend to meet Pandu to apologize for his attitude so far that he felt outrageous. "Sara?what's up?"answer Pandu by phone.

"i want to apologize for my mistakes all this time to you Ndu, I'm outrageous to you" said Sarah regretting her attitude all along. "forget Sar, you're not wrong, you're not wrong, I am the only one who does not know yourself chasing you. Udah yes I want packing, want to prepare to leave tomorrow morning" concluded Pandu ended the call.

DEG..."tomorrow?" murmured Sarah arrived very sad to hear that.