He's My Beloved (Slowly Realized)
CHAPTER 33
The more days Arini tries to approach Zaki in various ways but Zaki still put hope on Sarah, so that someday his love will bloom for him. "Sar can we talk?", asked Zaki to Sarah, "please, what would you like to say?, replied Sarah casually while reading a book.
"when will I wait for your heart Sar? We're being betrothed, at least we should try to fill each other up. Try to be close and learn to love each other. Unlike this Sar, we drift away from each other, I chase after you but you are indifferent to me" Zaki said as if lost hope
Sarah closes her book and looks at Zaki's disappointed face, "i'm guilty of not having the guts to express my feelings for you at that time Sar, until you find Abi as your love, then I came back when your life was happy with Abi", continued Zaki with a trembling voice to hold back his tears from falling.
Sarah cries in Zaki's lap, apologizing for putting him in a position where all the blame rests on him. "it's not your fault Zak, it's my fault. I'm selfish not understanding your feelings, I'm only concerned with my ego," Sarah said in a broken voice. "i feel too guilty for the late Abi for wasting her love, and I'm sorry that my love for Abi only she could feel for a moment Zak. It was not worth the sacrifice of Abi who waited for my heart for many years" continued Sarah still with tears that were getting louder.
Zaki just kept quiet and hugged Sarah, as if he felt what Sarah was feeling right now, he understood what it would be like if his heart was pulled out like this.
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After the chat that night Sarah tries little by little to reopen her love for Zaki, as well as Zaki who begins to get used to not expecting Sarah too much, minimize the onset of pain and disappointment when one day Sarah can not take it back.
That morning Zaki picks up Sarah at his house, they go to college together. "Zak will go home first. I have a class in the afternoon smpe.", Sarah asked Zaki, "I'll wait for Sar, it's okay ", "don't Zak you wait until later," Sarah replied.
"yes it's up to you to Sar" Zaki replied, giving in. Arriving at Eve's parking lot and Maya is surprised to see Zaki with Sarah, "why can it be together?", asked Eve kepo
"thank you, Zak, for Eve" said Sarah, thanking Zaki. It's ok Sar", Zaki replies as he walks towards his faculty building.
Sarah looked at Zaki's slowly disappearing back before her, "if it was me or you had the guts to be honest about how we feel, maybe today I can join hands with you without having to lie like this in front of everyone". Mumbled Sarah.
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That afternoon after finishing college last hour, Zaki intends to go straight home but, suddenly Arini's car overtakes him quite fast making Zaki curious where he is going. Zaki follows Arini's car, it turns out that Arini arrived at a house that has a spacious yard and there are some parents who seem to be a nursing home Zaki parked his car outside the house.
"what's Arini doing in this nursing home?" ask Zaki confused. He began to enter slightly settling the precipitate and walked slowly into the house.
"who's looking for you?", said the voice of the woman with the bulging body in front of Zaki. "eh anu..aku.", Zaki replied nervously, "loh, Zak you?" greeting Arini makes Zaki's heart relieved because there is no need to find a reason why he is here.
"eh Anu Rin, I accidentally saw you turn here. So I was wondering if I'd finally follow you. I'm sorry", Zaki replied honestly. "oh, that's okay with Zak. Sit down, I'll make you a drink" Arini said a little nervously. "why is Arini going to a place like this?isn't he the son of a rich man? What exactly is Arini covered in?", Zaki murmured inwardly as he looked around the nursing home.