Heartrest
episode 14 is not just a dream

lesson from this episode:

never forget every single thing or conversation, everything will turn on us whether it is good or bad..

The heart will feel calmer..

If you accept the fact that..

Something that belongs to us..

It's already set..

Something missing from us..

He was destined..

is this all destined for my life?

love someone other than my husband?

love him, love him,

until..

able to give everything..

does that mean love?

is this real love?

as usual, I woke up early and cleaned myself.that day was not like the usual taps a kak Nora and abah Yus not at home.. after the food was delivered I put it on the table..

'ting tong'

the bell rang and opened the door..

"hi akaa"

I looked at Alfian while holding the package with a smile..

I was just dumbfounded and intercepted at the door..

"can brother come in, this heavy"

he said while showing the package he was holding..

I just pulled over my body and let the alfian in and he put the painting on the edge of the television cabinet..

I just followed alfian from behind..

"dahaga la akak, can't sister want water"

alfian said with a smile..

I just nodded

"sit down.."

I slowly laughed..

Alfian anchored his back on the sofa in the living room..

I pulled out a drink and sat next to the alfian..

alfian breathed the water..

"is coffee water a sis?"

ask alfian..

"a.ah.coffee stick Ali"

my words made Alfian choke.I took a cup of coffee from Alfian's hand and put it on the table.and I took a tissue and put out Alfian's cute mouth..

Alfian held my right hand and looked into my eyes.My heart even thumped like it wanted to break..

"can kiss akak's sister?"

alfian said slowly while looking at my lips..

I approached Alfian's face and held his cheek using my left hand and whispered into his ear..

"kiss yeah?I want to be I's"

I said as I looked into Alfian's eyes and touched his lips and kissed him then he returned my kiss and embraced me. And I was weak and so drifted away in Alfian's arms..

waking up from sleep, I woke up from my bed and saw Alfian had gone home.I picked up my cell phone and saw that there was a simple order from him..

'sorry akak'

'brothers wrong'

'brother over the line'

'sister can't control himself'

'no'

'misah akak'

my reply..

after all this, should this be what was said?

I don't even know what else to think..

'not wrong'

'the bad brother'

I don't know what else I should write to send to Alfian..

'dan..'

'need to feel wrong'

consider all of this a dream'

'all that's wrong, we don't call it off'

I replied, and I threw my phone in bed..

I sit in my bed and cry..

'you're stupid mia'

'what do you expect?'

'You have a husband too!'

'want him to take responsibility?'

'divorced father?a widow?married to alfian?'

'haha'

I laughed to myself..

I was scratching my hair that did not itch and until it tangled..

'this is all wrong'

'no'

'this is all a dream'

'no'

'i can't make a mistake'

I got up and opened the drawer and took out a razor

'"hhh..."

"you should die Je Mia"

"haha"

I was crying and laughing..

"What's he doing?"

said Nora after approaching me, I didn't even notice that Nora's sister had entered the house..

I approached Nora's sister while holding a razor to slice my veins..

"Alphian.."

"he said it was all a dream"

"this is all wrong"

and I told him like that..

i cried..

"Mia wants to die, she doesn't want to live anymore"

my screams..

sister Nora held my cheek and hugged me while taking the razor from me..

"it's Mia's dream, it's a dream."

said sister Nora..

every time it happens like this, she always says consider everything a dream, I don't even know if it's a dream or reality.