Heartrest
episode 21 I'm not the best (finished)

the lesson from this episode :

do everything in this life with your own desires, care about the words and views of the surrounding community.do everything you want and be happy..

this sea water, at one point in time, I felt as if it was calling me..

'mia, come here.all your problems will be solved'

at that time I felt really tangled and fibrous.I think myself as if dirty.and everyone will think so.I am a wife but I am pregnant with another boy..I was so despicable to look at the surrounding community..

"mother"

my son Alfian called me and made me aware of the daydream..

I lowered my head and stiffened his cheek, he just smiled and held my hand..

I took his name after Alfian, so that I would not forget my mistake..

and yet..

I never get upset sometimes..

my whole life..

I'll never be upset..

with things I've done..

but..

i'm upset..

with everything..

and things..

which I can't make..

couldn't make..

can't make..

on the contrary, if given a choice..

to give up time and time..

I won't be upset to recognize Alfian either.

to me..

he was the most beautiful thing in my life..

and i'm..

happy even for a moment..

I remember and remember this verse..

'together you're sick, too,

leave you sick, please,

without you being sick..

but I chose to go..

and I'm free now..

to do everything..

even though I'm not happy, though,

but I did not suffer..

for me that's enough..

I clutched my son's hand and turned to go home..

'dup dap dup'

I was only able to lower my face from Alfian..

"sir"

he made a sound when he approached me..

I want to cry and hug her and talk about how much I miss her..

"sister look a little flat"

he said it again and I was just him..

"mom, Alfian wants ice cream"

said my son alfian while pulling my hand...

"Alphian?"

alfian said as he looked towards my son Alfian..

"this is our son?"

alfian said while looking at my face..

"Alphian"

my ex-husband Adrian called my son Alfian, and he ran towards him...

"father of Alfian nak aiskrim"

his words are clear considering my son Alfian has reached 4 years..

and I just glanced at Alfian for a quick glance and went towards my ex-husband..

in Alfian's eyes..

maybe I'm still with Adrian but now only live the title of ex-husband..

I'm sorry Alfian..

you deserve to get

a better woman..

I'm not the best for you..

may you meet a good woman..

and can accept everything..

your advantages and disadvantages..

not like me..

cheating woman..

foreground..

i'm certain..

we will not be happy..

then I chose not to

with anyone..

enough with my son..

that was enough..

let everything just be history and I will no longer be a weak woman and only expect others..and will not be a stupid woman and easily follow the index of others without thinking of her own will. next I press to become a strong woman who can be independent..