Heartrest
episode 16 tangled

lesson from this episode:

something wrong at its origin, will remain a mistake and realize in reality the matter will not change..

that evening I slept in his usual sleep. After waking up, my head ached and when I stood up I seemed to want to black.I walked slowly and held my makeup table chair and sat in the chair..

I looked at the spindles in front of me.today 25 months.I did not come any more months, even I forgot the last date I came month.I opened the drawer and took the pregnancy test kit..

I headed to the toilet with my head in a dizzy state and the result was positive..

even I was too tangled to think and kept Alfian's message..

'hi'

'sister'

my message was not answered, not even read at all..

then I was unhappy and then I called him and he answered the phone call..

"helo"

it said..

"hi.sister"

i slowly said..

"yea.akakak what else?"

ask alfian in a rather high tone..

hearing her voice like that, I even felt like I wanted to cry..

"sister.."

my voice is like being stuck..

"why call, that's it yourself who says no need to connect"

said Alfian again with a firm tone.

"that means nothing like that.."

i slowly said..

"dahla, brother sick of la..kusut tau no?"

he said it again like sticking with me..

"I'm pregnant"

suddenly the words came out of my mouth..

"so?"

his voice seemed to laugh..

"didn't you say that's a little sister's kid?"

"maha.."

Alfian laughed like he was mocking me..

"dahla don't make jokes, once can ja get pregnant?"

I was silent, my mouth was locked..

"dahla akak. ni jokes are not funny, please do not make this kind of, the younger brother has started to hate, first the hatred of humans.."

alfian's words made me even more tangled..

alfian was silent with my words..

"why silence?say so.."

he just shut up..

"what have you considered it all this time?it's.."

my voice was stuck and I took a deep breath..

"i serve u because I'm bored,ok.lebas ni i will not bother u again, sewn please do not appear in front of i.."

I keep turning off the phone..

I held the phone, headed for my alfian rendition..

"one"

"two"

"three"

"four"

"five"

"haha"

I can only laugh when alfian doesn't call me back..

I threw my lipphone at the makeup table and was hit by a mirror..

I walked towards the makeup table and looked at the cracked mirror..

I rejected everything on that table..

"prangg"

"yahhhhh"

my screams..

"you're stupid Mia, where do you put your pride, you're like shit"

I took the broken mirror glass..

"you should die Ja Mia"

"if I die, this child in the stomach dies too"

I said in a laugh while crying..

then I slit my wrist and I retreated and sat in the bed looking at the blood..

"why Alfian?"

"this is u's child?"

"why do I like this?"

"no Mia, you're a fool.."

"he doesn't love you either.."

"you have no self-respect"

I'm like a crazy person.talking to yourself, fighting words with yourself..

I saw blood dripping, setitis after setitis.My life was like nothing, just like blood dripping..