Heartrest
episode 8 I became too greedy

lessons from this episode

do not occasionally give yourself the opportunity to accept others, who basically do not have the right purpose to be present in our lives..

Winds..

Give my miss greetings to him..

my heart hurts when I remember it..

Rained out..

It was as if my unceasing tears2 were flowing about you..

loving you only makes me sick..

trying to forget you is too perit..

The liver..

As if it hurts like being stabbed so many times..

on the same wound..

until no more blood flowed..

This body, this,

It's like it's so weak it's powerless..

aimless..

no handles..

The ear..

As if unable to hear..

quiet and quiet without your presence on the side.

Seria..

Has lost its taste..

Not able to raise the taste sweet, bitter, even all the pain..

Rainbows.

The light is only a hope that does not appear despite a long wait..

Everything is just a wasted wait.

which I myself do not know its end..

my love for you is as if it were no good

aimless..

upon arrival at home I headed to the room and shower.then I also lay in his habit to sleep in the evening..

'bib-bib'

my cell phone rang indicating there was a short role.I also reached my phone with withered eyes.I saw there was a message on whatsapp.I was too sleepy and unable to open my eyes..I saw a message from Alfian..

'your brother got home?'

'brother dah'

I couldn't even type and then I called alfian, and he made that call..

"helo'

alfian's voice on the phone was heart-wrenching..

'thou has arrived'

'ha?'

ask alfian to the water..

'So chat asked I've come to kan! nak tido ni, sleepy'

I said in a loud voice..

'sister sleeps, brother sleeps next door can?'

alfian said..

I was just scratching my head that wasn't itchy..

'what's that sound, aren't you rake-head?haha'

alfian said again with a laugh..

'maybe, but in the dream la'

Alfian laughed again..

'ak ni, kesian sister, the dream days are not.'

he said he was joking and kept making me laugh..

'what..this night is live?'

I try to change the topic..

'I don't know anymore, look at that, right?'

alfian said with a somewhat spoiled tone..

'takpala..nah want to put dah nak tido..'

I said as I yawned and kept turning off the phone..

I put the phone on the nightstand and kept my eyes closed..

next I even cradled dreams, dreams with Alfian.Dreams that are uncertain and will not be real.Even thinking of you also makes me sick, releasing you even makes me sick, even make me sick, but I have to stop here to end all this..

that night I messaged Alfian..

'sister'

I started the conversation..

'ye kak's'

'why?'

'missing sister to?'

I just read her order and I suddenly cried..

You can't cry, you're a very badger.You can't be stupid Mia, you've got a husband..

my heart's words are celaru..

'we stop chat'

'no sorry mintak'

'there is no husband'

'not worth another man's chat'

'bye'

Alfian read my whatsapp order without replying.It even made me sick.That night, I cried all I could..

I shouldn't have opened up space in my life to other men, what do I expect?what was I thinking?I was even mistaken for my own wishes..