Heaven on lara
Chapter 23. Worn

The day passed and Zoya felt that she was far away from Zada. You can count your fingers how many times your husband went into the room and slept with you. As of two weeks ago, it was probably only four times that Zada had come to his room.

Zoya felt her heart feel empty. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with the lights kept out. Zoya wants to immerse what has befallen her. So many questions popped into his head.

Is his decision to return right? Is Zoya sure she can survive inside this house? Is Zoya feeling jealous every day? That was the question that came to his mind.

Zoya's hand came down to stroke her stomach. Her pregnant state did not make Zada devote all her attention. Without feeling, a single point of tears fell down his hand that was stroking the stomach.

Zoya breathed tired. With courage, Zoya steps up and visits her husband's room. Zoya will never know what happened to her husband at night if Zoya does not see it for herself.

The affection and closeness seen in front of her eyes is actually enough to give a picture of what has happened to her husband and Ghaida. However, Zoya wants to make sure once again that her guess is indeed true.

When she got to the door, Zoya turned the doorknob. When the door opened, Zoya's eyes widened in disbelief when she saw her husband making out with Ghaida.

"Massa."

"Hmmm."

Zoya shuts her mouth so she doesn't scream and interferes with the activities of the two humans who are exchanging saliva. Isakan stifled successfully escapes when Zoya sees with her own eyes, her husband has fallen in the charm of Ghaida.

Zoya retreated and put her body against the wall. Having not closed the door yet, Zoya could hear Ghaida's moans enjoying her husband's touch. Zoya grew sobbing and covered her ears so as not to hear the curse.

Her tears had fallen repeatedly unstoppable. His legs felt helpless. The reality he had just seen had shaken his mind and heart. With the rest of her strength, Zoya returned to her room without closing the door.

Once inside the room, Zoya locks the door and collapses onto the floor. Zoya banged on her chest which felt so tight and painful. Zoya was crying so much. "Stupid you, Zoya! You fooler! You are the dumbest man in the world!" Zoya grumbled to curse herself on the sidelines of her crying.

"Why do you believe in a husband like him? How can anyone not fall in love if they live under the same roof? Even if your husband says no love, it's just the beginning! As time went on, he would definitely be hooked as well!" Zoya still blames herself.

Yeah, who else could Zoya blame if not herself. None of this would have happened if Zoya had not left her home just yet. Nothing will happen if Zoya takes care of Zada. Zoya hit her own head because suddenly her head felt a very painful dizziness.

"Mas, why would you do this to me? What wrong? Why didn't you ever tell me I wasn't like this and that?"

"Yes Allah ... I can no longer ... I can't afford it. You better take my life so I don't see my husband happy with his honey,"

Zoya is like an uncontrollable madman. The heart that was broken yesterday must be broken again. Zoya roared and hit herself. Zoya has lost her husband.

The dream of building a household sakinah, mawaddah, warrohmah is just a matter of discourse. Her husband has gone too far for Zoya to reach. The look of love and sweet words from Zada turned out to be just a joke. In fact, Zada wished her love.

The love that Zoya always fertilizes for her husband to grow even more is inversely proportional to Zada who buries love for him.

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The morning returns when Zoya has not yet fallen asleep. Yeah, Zoya can't sleep all night. She spent her sleep crying over her love story. Looking at the light coming through the gap of the curtains, Zoya moved from her seat. He's still sitting on the floor like he was last night.

Zoya goes to the bathroom to clean up. He decided he had to end it all. It was enough that Zoya felt the pain.

Not long after, Zoya returns with a fresher body. Although his swollen eyes did not manage to be disguised. Zoya doesn't care. He rushed to wear his robe. After that, she wears her quadrilateral veil.

There was no makeup on his face. Zoya also does not want to beautify herself. It all seemed futile because it would not attract Zada's attention. Zoya still felt a lightheadedness in her head.

As Zoya gazes at herself at the mirror reflection, Zoya can see the pale face of her. Zoya let out a tired sigh and grabbed her briefcase. She wanted to go to the flower shop to vent all her sadness.

Zoya went down the stairs cautiously as her gaze seemed to rotate as she looked down. Once downstairs, Zoya can see Zada and Ghaida having breakfast at the same table and facing each other.

Zoya could see the smiles of both of them so brightly. Different from her pathetic looking self. Zoya shook her head. He should focus on his decision. "Mass?" Zoya calls Zada without any intention of getting close.

"Why Zoya?" ask Zada without looking at Zoya. Zoya smiled wryly. 'So quickly did you erase your love for me, Mom? Really, I'm sorry to have loved you too deeply and big. Then, the other day where did your loving gaze go, Mas?' monologue Zoya with a wounded heart.

"Later in the afternoon I'll talk to you. It's about my future, "Sounds cold and firm. Zada looked up at Zoya's serious voice.

"You mean?" zada asked and moved from his seat. Zoya stared at Zada flatly. "Why are you, Zoya? Is your face pale?" ask Zada worried.

Zoya glanced at Zada who was walking closer to her. Ignoring the question, Zoya walks out of the house. "Wait for me later, Mas. I'm gonna talk about our relationship,"

After Zoya says it, Zada stops her steps to get closer to Zoya who is already in the doorway. Zada felt that something bad would happen after this. "What is our relationship, Zoya?" zada asked a little screamed as Zoya got further away.

Zoya stops her steps. He was reluctant to look back and chose to look ahead. He refused to look to the past and chose to look to the future.

Zoya clenched both her palms. "About our long-standing relationship,"