Honours
14. The deepest.
Diani saw Bang Panji's reaction. Now he was well aware that Bang Panji loved Nasha very much away from the way Bang Panji loved her. Diani smiled with a thousand meanings.
"Nasha.. come with Papa son..!!" Papa Cemar was so devastated to see the state of Nasha.
"Please don't discuss this now Pa, the important state of Nasha first..!!" Bang Panji drove at high speed after the car carried by Om Aris.
The POV Bang Panji.
Nasha started to be conscious and moaning in pain while Diani started to weaken without a sound. I was driving my car so hard, only the fear I had in mind.
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My two wives have already entered the IGD and I am accompanying them. My heart was getting tested when on my right Nasha whimpered in pain while Diani started to weaken.
"The father of Diani's mother's husband?" ask the doctor after checking on Diani
"Yes doc"
"Sir, Diani's mother's disease has been very advanced as well as the amniotic in Diani's mother's womb has shrunk, we have to take surgery" the doctor explained to me.
"Do your best, Doc"
Not finished my anxiety, Nasha groaned in pain. Breathing snorted. Only my name called him. I really can't bear to see it.
"Bang Panji's.. Baang Panjii" my heart is devastated by today's events. I held Nasha's hand, I kissed her forehead.
"Yes, baby, I'm here" I can't hold back my tears.
"Pak Panji Nasha's mother's husband too?" the nurse asked me with a face of disbelief
"Yes. how?"
"Sir.. Nasha's mother has opened 4. So your baby will be born today" said the nurse.
Like being struck by lightning my chest felt tight, my mind floated. Why is this what happened to me.
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I walked beside Nasha's gurney while Diani walked into the operating room without me and I entered the delivery room next to the operating room with Nasha.
The midwives and doctors have given stimulant drugs so that the delivery of Nasha more smoothly. The doctor looked very busy and I faintly heard my baby's heartbeat weaken. I see Nasha is also getting weaker.
"Bang.. it hurts so much" Rintihan Nasha really cut my heart. "Nasha isn't strong Bang..!!"
"Don't say so dear.I'm sorry you made you like this"
"Baang Panjiiii" Nasha's voice made me waver. Baby born. The doctor accepted it but my baby didn't cry. What's wrong with my baby. The doctor tried to gently rub my baby's back, blowing air through my baby's tiny lips but my little baby...
"Sorry Mr. Panji. the baby...."
My little baby is gone. Baby from the womb of my beloved wife Nasha.
I'm slumping helplessly. What should I tell Nasha later. I also couldn't resist my feelings.
The doctor came up to me to show me my little baby boy. I held her, I looked her in the face. The little whiz I really wanted from Nasha. I said do'a I looked back at her little face.
Papa is holding you right now, baby. Papa is waiting for your presence. My dad misses you all the time. Someday we will definitely meet you, dear.wait, papa and mama are there..!!
I kiss her full of soft cheeks, white smile, clean, petite without sin. His face is similar to mine. I touched my son's body on Nasha's unconscious face, a tear dripping down Nasha's cheek as if she felt this bitter farewell. I gave my baby to the nurse again, honestly my heart is still not strong to accept this ordeal.
I was sitting in a chair, next to Nasha who was still getting medical attention. I looked down in tears and expressed my feelings before Nasha woke up and saw me like this, so weak helpless.
"I'm not strong, baby, I can't watch you get hurt knowing our son is no more"
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Nasha was moved to the ward. I waited for Diani in front of the operating room. The emergency light was dead, a while later the doctor came out but the doctor I saw earlier was not the doctor who handled Diani.
"Doctor, where's Diani??"
"Sorry Mr Panji, isn't it Mr Panji who let you go after labor????? we've got a signature from the father" said the doctor like a lightning bolt that hit my heart, I just lost my son, now I don't know what happened until Diani left me. I haven't asked him about my family's anger with him.
Bang Lightning came to calm me down, but my heart was still very hard hit. I was speechless, speechless, like a stupid buffalo.
I closed my eyes, I touched my chest.. I'll see if I'm this sick to receive any ordeal from you. It hurts so much to accept the fact that the Diani I love has lied to me, the one who filled my life, You are indeed the woman who once filled the space of my heart.. let you better get away from me, my life and my marriage.. Now in my heart you're just a beautiful shadow that's enough to get here.. I'm sorry Diani because I love and love your best friend Nasha. Surely my soul and body are hard to say, but after you have left, I am sure.. Nasha is my life right now.
I cried regretting ever knowing Diani in my life.
Thank you for the love you give and also thank you for loving me so deeply that it was either real or a mere falsehood. I'm sorry I can't reply, but in my prayer I don't want to see you again, in the world or in the hereafter.
Wipe my tears from my incredible heartache. Tears for our farewells forever.. Diani my ex-wife.
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