Honours
21. Memories about you.

"O Allah..is that really the deck??" Bang Panji hugged Nasha. His heart was very happy because Nasha was willing to accept himself back.

Sitting next to Nasha.. Bang Gesang is smoking. His face was flat as if nothing had happened.

Before long Bang Gesang stood up without looking at the faces of the two. "I'll go to the toilet first..!!"

Bang Panji smilingly gave his thumbs up to Bang Gesang. Only the tail of Nasha's eyes continued to watch Bang Gesang's back pass away.

"Well, can Nasha still stay with Papa? Nasha also wants us not to make physical contact first" Nasha said.

For a moment Bang Panji fell silent. His mind wondered why Nasha refused physical contact with him.

What's wrong with you deck? So long as the distance between us so far does not necessarily make longing in your heart? Two and a half years passed making miss Abang to you like no receding sea water. No other woman's name doesn't even 'meet' another woman even though the wave of longing shakes my mind.

"Well, there will be no physical contact until your heart is completely ready" Bang Panji replied. "But let Brother treat you like Brother's wife like you used to do"

"Yes Bang"

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Along the way back home, there was no conversation between Bang Gesang and Nasha. It was as if all were really just working professionals.

"Nasha wants to hang out first"

"It's already night. Where are you going?" Ask Bang Gesang.

"Nasha wants to see the scenery on the hill Cemara" replied Nasha.

Bang Gesang looked at his watch and then turned towards the place where Nasha asked.

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The POV Bang Gesang.

I don't know what happened to Nasha today. All I know since last night's conversation, suddenly he's been quieter.

I don't want to be bigheaded or guess whatever's going on right now. My positive thoughts say Nasha is adapting to Panji's return in her life. The man who had been making a great heartbreak in Nasha's life.

More than two years ago I saw Nasha severely depressed, losing a child and losing her husband who had suddenly divorced her.

Flashback Bang Hatch.

After that night, I met him again. The girl who at that time got harassment from a member because her best friend had sold her. The girl who is also my best friend's sister.

"I want you to keep Nasha from the outside environment that might harm her. Nasha will resume her education that had been cut off" ordered Dan Khobar at that time.

"Sheap..!!"

I looked at the beauty of my former partner's wife. What was?? Why do you want a woman as gentle as Nasha? What harm?. That's all that swirled around in my mind.

I saw his face, no happy hue from his face.

"Wira, this is Nasha's whole new identity. I hope there is no trace that her brash ex-husband can trace. I know Nasha's husband is your best friend too. But do not mix up work and personal matters. From today I hand over Nasha's guarding business to you..!!"

"Each commander..!!" I answered without knowing who Nasha's real husband was.

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"Sir Wira.. Nom's mother fainted in the bathroom..!! Aunty is not strong sir..!!" Shouted auntie calling me who was coffeeing in the post with some other members.

I don't know how many times Nasha fainted. Ever since I took this assignment, I've seen Nasha pass out too often.

"I went there bi. Thank you" I immediately ran into my lord's daughter's room.

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My heart was not calm, my feelings were uncomfortable, I was agitated at the thought of Nasha, pacing myself in front of the room waiting for the aunt who was replacing Nasha's clothes.

Before long the door opened. "Have you sir, did auntie just call the doctor?"

"Let me talk to Nasha first. If you call a psychiatrist again, Nasha's situation will get worse because she was treated differently" I replied and then went into the room and closed it.

Nasha curled up bending her body, her gaze blank, she just bit her nails. I took a sitting position next to him.

"Sir, do you know the meaning of sincerity?" I pointed Nasha's face to look at me. Not that I'm a smart ass, but there is a side of my mind that is hit so hard that I can't stand to just keep quiet seeing this. "If your heart feels very sick and crowded in the chest, complain to the Creator. He gave you this test which means that the power has chosen you with him.

"Nasha is sincerely married to him, but she just threw Nasha away. Is it because Nasha can't bear a child for her"

I squeeze the bed sheet on Nasha's bed. I don't know if what I'm doing is right or not, but...

"Do you want to pray with your brother?" My toot.

Nasha just looked me in the eye and she didn't reject me.

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After the prayer we both bowed to each other. I grabbed the Qur'an on its nightstand. "You want to read it to you, brother?"

Nasha nodded.

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"Old is Bang?"

"No" answered. From that night I slowly saw her smile grow. Smile from the face of Mayu the Nasha. It's pretty.it's not like an angel.

I averted my gaze, trying to shake off the mischievous thoughts as I looked at the daughter of the great commander whom I had held high regard for all this time. I must be self-aware, I am only the adopted son of an unarmed farmer far away at the end of the village across the island. I don't know who my parents are, where I'm from and why I was dumped. It's not appropriate for me to harbor feelings for a woman as beautiful as Nasha Shabilla Larasati.

Nasha started to continue college with passion. Every day I look after him as I do myself. He's my diamond.

"Nasha wants to go to the practicum garden deh Bang, after that Nasha wants to go to the supermarket" he said.

I just nodded, there was never a chance I would refuse to want it. I let him cheer up, forget all the pain in his heart until Nasha graduated to be a good agricultural scholar.

"Let's hurry up Bang, Nasha wants to see the incredible Nasha plant. Today there's a result."

Nasha was very cheerful. This was his joy with me, but this was the first time I saw his beautiful smile and I was happy.

"What do you plant the deck?" I tried to be enthusiastic about hearing his spirit.

"Cass Bang" he answered waiting for my reaction.

I gulped down my salivary rough, I thought Nasha would call it orchids, strawberries or anything else that would be sweetly harvested. I was confused, but I was comforted by his innocence as well. I applauded his hard work. "Waaah.. Thank God it works on deck. Hopefully the big cassava deck" my do'a is sincere.

"Yes Bang, Nasha is satisfied that the cassava is big."

Suddenly my mouth was silent as if locked hearing Nasha's reply. A flash of naughty thoughts darted through my head.

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