Honours
72. And in the end.
This is the first time doctors have allowed Bang Gesang to hold her baby. The twin boys. Bang Gesang carried Brigas first and Bang Gesang's hands trembled holding him.
Bang Gesang again could not see the baby But Bang Panji convinced Bang Gesang to touch his tiny baby.
POV Bang Gesang.
"This is your son from Nasha." said Bang Panji continues to encourage my heart and at that time I immediately carried it out. I watched his face. I was amazed when I came back to see my son's face. His face is similar to mine
A nurse came to wake me up, the nurse said Nasha was screaming hysterically. I immediately handed my son to the nurse and ran to meet Nasha and Panji to catch up with me.
"Honey.. Brother's here"
"Are they right Nasha Bang's son, please.. Nasha didn't want to see them like that" Nasha shook my arm. My mind went nowhere, I was confused.
"Well..are they really Nasha's children? answer Bang??" Nasha's getting hysterical is freaking me out
"Whose son is it again? Obviously they are both our children" I replied while giving the code to take my son. Before long Panji brought one of my babies to me. I handed it to Nasha.
"Let's carry the deck..!! This is your son" I tried hard to persuade Nasha and Nasha to close her eyes, hug and kiss my son. My reflexes closed my eyes not strong enough to see it. My chest hurts so much seeing this sight. But really this kid is my son and Nasha. The boy I was waiting for after I lost my heart.
I saw Nasha's hand begin to tremble, I took my son and put him back in the baby box.
POV Bang Gesang.
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Bang Gesang sees Nasha learning to breastfeed Baby Setha. Setha is very comfortable in the arms of Nasha.
Bang Gesang approached the two of them and rubbed Nasha's long hair. His heart ached to see Setha in Nasha's arms. He knew his wife had not fully accepted the circumstances of his two sons.
Setha had finished breastfeeding and Nasha put her to bed.
"Darling, say something" Bang Gesang said as Nasha was a little rude to her son.
"Bang Lightning.please call the doctor, I am worried about the state of Nasha" said Bang Gesang because at that time no one could be asked for help other than Nasha's brother.
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Brigas cried loudly from hunger and thirst. Setha followed with her tears. Bang Gesang tried to calm him down but his two sons did need his mother
"Darling.thirsty children, you carry yes..!!" bang Gesang Bujuk. The longer Brigas' cries get more depressing. Bang Gesang could not bear to see the baby
"Pity our dear son, he needs you"
Nasha covered her ears and cried not wanting to hear anything. Bang Gesang who brought Brigas closer to him was also rejected.
"Nasha doesn't want them to bang. They're not our children. Nasha scared..!!!" shout Nasha.
Bang Lightning carried Brigas to calm his nephew as much as possible. Bang Gesang had lowered his head helplessly in his cries and clasped Nasha's hand tightly and hugged her even though Nasha refused, Bang Gesang still hugged her.
"You need your brother now. You know your heart hurts, but there is no way we can refuse our own flesh and blood. Brigas and Setha are our dear children. You must accept sincerely because those who are born from your womb are expressions of affection for you"
Nasha is crying yet to accept this reality, it is still very difficult for her to have to accept the fact that her baby is not like other cute and adorable babies. Setha's voice was heard again. Bang Gesang took off his embrace and tried to bring Setha closer to her mother again.
"Look dear, his face is similar to Brother, his fussy cries are very similar to yours" Bang Gesang persuaded.
Nasha was still upset, with so hurt feeling trying to see Setha slowly, Bang Gesang knew very well Nasha was trying to strengthen herself to face reality.
The POV Bang Gesang.
Nasha trembled at Setha. The little sinless baby.
"Nasha can't Bang" her sobs also hurt my heart
Looking into Nasha's eyes, I hinted that she could do it. However, Brigas and Setha are his sons.
Nasha receives Setha. My little baby started to shut up and looked for her mother's warmth. Nasha started breastfeeding Setha with tears flowing. I'm crying for my wife and son. Let Nasha see me like this. Right now I feel the same pain as him. Until some time finally Setha can fall asleep soundly, I tried to bring Brigas closer so that Nasha would suckle him too.
"It hurts so much Bang received all this" Nasha as reluctantly squeezed the clothes on her chest.
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The doctor arrived late because he was stuck on the road.
"Sir Wira, the father's wife can still be said to be good, it's just that there is depression because of the problem that you told me about" the doctor explained. I deliberately took an outside doctor to deal with Nasha considering Nasha was not just a labor trauma.
"What should I do Doc?"
"I will prescribe medication and if there is time, refreshing with the family is one good way to ease the burden of the father's wife's feelings" the doctor explained
"Okay doc, as soon as possible I'll try"
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Nasha had gone to sleep after the doctor examined her. I saw Brigas and Setha also sleeping soundly.
"Papa sure your mom loves you very much. Mama just needs time to get her heart set. Papa promised not to let you and mom grieve after what we've been through dear" I kissed my two sons while holding back the pain in my heart.
I quickly walked into the bathroom. I turned on the shower and flushed my body. I leaned my back against the wall, slumped and cried, shedding all the weight of my feelings.
POV Bang Gesang.
Nasha woke up from her sleep and saw that Bang Gesang was not there beside her. I heard the sound of water flowing from the bathroom. Nasha walked slowly to see it. Nasha was surprised to see Bang Gesang sitting under the shower. Bang Gesang's blue lips signified Bang Gesang sitting in the bathroom for so long. Nasha turned off the water tap.
"Why wake up, baby?" ask Bang Gesang.
"Nasha wants to be with Abang" replied Nasha trying to hold back feeling as if nothing had happened.
"Please promise not to be like that again! I love you and the kids"
"Nasha promises Bang, because Nasha also loves Brother.........."
Silent for a moment, Bang Gesang's eyes looked at Nasha's eyes. "Also Brigas and Setha" Bang Gesang hugged Nasha tightly and showered her with a kiss.
"You're the angel who's always here..!!" Bang Gesang put Nasha's hand on his chest.
Nasha smiled happily and was relieved to see that Bang Gesang was fine and vice versa.
"Bang, Nasha is cold" Nasha said spoiledly.
Bang Gesang took off his clothes and wrapped a towel around his waist and lifted Nasha who was wet to the wardrobe.
Bang Gesang took the clothes and put them on. Nasha changed her clothes because she was wet when Bang hugged her earlier.
Bang Gesang and Nasha got into one blanket and they slept together until the morning leaving the floor wet from the droplets of both.
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Bang Gesang woke up from his sleep and saw Nasha breastfeeding while inviting Brigas to joke. A few moments Bang Gesang watched them. There was a sense of peace seeing the two angels laughing happily. It was seen that Setha had slept soundly indicating that his son was full.
Bang Gesang approached Nasha and Brigas.
"Papa's son is full?"
"It's papa" The spoiled voice of Nasha warmed Bang Gesang's heart.
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