I ACCEPT YOUR WIDOW

I ACCEPT YOUR WIDOW
103. THAT WORD IS PRAYER

" Yes... "



" I've told you how many times Kris.I'm not a killer. You already know what happened.. It was an accident .Why do you still think of me as a murderer? And again don't you remember how we struggled to get this kid . How many years do I have to take that medicine every day for the sake of this child.. You want to kill him? He's our son ..fruit of our love.."



" He's Guntoro's grandson. His blood flowed in his body. That's what I can't


accept ! " Kristy started to make a sound.


" Your father hates me... He made my life miserable... Humiliating me as if I were a despicable human being of no value at all. Why should I give birth to her offspring? "



" For God's sake, Chris...You can hate my Papa . Could hate. But what's wrong with this kid. He's innocent. He cannot choose who he is born from. So use your common sense, Kris..Use heart.. He's your son.. How could you kill him. Then how is it different from you to Papa? My father is not a good man but he will not kill his own flesh and blood "



I'm really not willing for Kris to abort our son. The boy I've been craving for a long time. Which I have been in presence for so long. My biological son. My flesh blood.



" I'm sorry..." That's just one word that's coming out of Kristy's mouth.



" You're cruel, Kris..You're ruthless.." I spoke with trembling lips and glazed eyes.



I am a strong man, but my heart is fragile. I easily shed tears when my heart is sad . I'm easily touched. Maybe because since childhood lack of affection so easily carried away feelings.



Especially for such a big thing like this, I really can't lie to myself. I'm very sad. The child I dream of will be eliminated by his own birth mother. I really am not willing



" Kill me Kris...Kill me and my son." I said weakly with a puddle of water rushing from my eyes.



Kristy could not hold back her tears. And we finally shed our sorrow together. We cry over our misfortune. Weep over our sad story. Crying our baby .



I will dry all the springs in my eyes for our little baby who will soon be no more in this world.



" Mrs Kristy.. The doctor was waiting in the practice room "A nurse came and reminded the implementation of the process of aborting her womb.



" I ..yeah.." Kristy answered and wiped her tears.



" Don't Kris. please don't... " I'm still trying to prevent him from aborting him.



" Sorry.. " Kris' rock-hard heart remained firm on his decision. He remains in his decision.



He took my hand and walked away .



' Why would he not listen to me...Kris.. Where is your heart ..Heart as a Mother..'



My household was destroyed...


Parting with Kristy...Split with Dafa and Dafi... And also my real son... What else is left... Everything was completely destroyed.it felt that this was too cruel.. I lost everything I loved...


I am a useless human being. Can't protect my family. Can't take care of him. Everyone leave me..



What's the point of having a lot of possessions but living an unhappy life...Even though the world I already have but it's useless...Treasure cannot buy happiness..



What else am I living for...?


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" ris... "



Kristy stopped when she heard me call her.



" Thank you for everything.. All this time you have given me so much happiness, You Dafa Dafi you are the sun in my empty life...I will never forget you all forever..You are the people I love the most...You are my spirit.the amplifier of my life...Thank you for all those wonderful memories...May you always be happy..."



I said goodbye to Kristy. I don't want to let it go. Maybe my relationship with Kristy was short. Short of our unplanned wedding.



Although only for a moment but I have felt the real happiness with them. I'll remember that forever.




Is not the highest level of love the.. And this is the time .. I must let them go...



Families that cannot be united, high EGO, Violence of heart ...Let this be the color of my story..



And I promise..This is really my promise...



I WILL NOT ...



NEVER WILL



FALL IN LOVE



TO ANYONE ELSE



' You're the only owner of my heart, Kristy...You're my last love....'



" Mas Yoga... " Kristy started shedding tears again.



'You're crying.but hurting me... You're a heartless woman, Kris....And as a parting gift..You'll remember this forever too Kris...'



" My son is not alone...I will accompany my son... Me and him will go after Raka "I said as I walked away.



Kristy was surprised to hear that. He opened his mouth wide when he heard my words.



" The Yoga.. Mommy..." I ignored his call and kept going.



' If you can still kill our son, then you're not Kris' man...'



YEA...I bluffed him..I threatened. I did that so that he would cancel his intention to abort our son.



Parting with him is hard, and coercing together is hard. But I don't want her to abort the baby..I don't want him to be a real killer. Especially to our own baby....


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I walked to the parking lot. I leave everything to God. I hope HE can make Kristy change her decision and keep our son.



I drive my car anywhere. I don't want to work today. I want refreshing to take away my fatigue.



I reached into my shirt pocket and found Kristy's wedding ring and a photo of our baby ultrasound.



"May your mom change her mind, baby.. Papa wants you to stay alive." I said with a smile on the photo of our fetus.



The diamond ring accidentally slipped out of my hand and fell under the seat next to me. While driving with one hand, I tried to take the ring back.



The ring I took. But fateful as I refocused on the steering wheel and looked at the road. My car was pretty fast to the left. I tried to control it but my car was stuck to the shoulder of the road hit the steel fence shoulder of the road so that my car overturned at high speed.



' Oh my God... Why are you so cruel to me... I didn't really say it...I just threatened Kristy so she wouldn't abort our baby... But why did this happen.. YOU really made my words happen... Am I really going to catch up with Raka...'



I can't move . All I saw was the reverse view and the blood-red color that started flowing out of nowhere. All I felt was pain all over my body...


My eyes began to fade and fade. Until I could see and feel nothing more. Everything was dark without light.


' Did I really go after Raka.... L'm... Dead ?'