INSECURE, Love of the Past
Suicide

That night, the disturbance Kayla experienced grew. He has resolved to do what the Almighty cannot forgive. He was sure to end his life this way.

He took all the sleeping pills he used to take when EHS attacked. Moments later, his head felt very dizzy and his heart was beating faster than usual. He was short of breath until he was finally unconscious.

His mother who was going to the kitchen to get water to drink, wanted to see for a moment the state of the child. Nahas, when the door was opened, Kayla was already lying on the floor and removing the foam from her mouth. On top of his hand were some sleeping pills scattered about.

His mother was hysterical and tried to ask all the residents of the house for help. His mother tried to check Kayla's pulse and it was still throbbing. Then check his breath, there is still his breath despite gasping for breath.

"Please, please.." Shouted Kayla's mother.

All the housekeepers came and tried to call the ambulance. His mother tried to contact Kayla's father who was still meeting at the office. When Kayla tries to kill herself by taking all her sleeping pills, Kayla's father goes home.

Arriving at the hospital, Kayla immediately received treatment from a doctor. And her mother waited outside praying that Kayla's life would be saved. Her mother paced back and forth agitated at the thought of her son's fate.

"How's Kayla Bu doing?" Kayla's father's voice broke her daydream.

"I don't know yah. Kayla's been treated by a doctor."

"Why is Kayla that strong? What is the cause. Looks like we're gonna have to figure out everything, ma'am."

"Yes, I agree. Now the most important thing is that Kayla can survive."

His parents were very worried about Kayla. And when the doctor came out, implied the sad face of the doctor who handled it. Kayla's mother's feelings became unsettled.

"How's Doc? Can my child be saved?"

The doctor took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry before mom and dad. We've done our best, but the lives of our fathers and mothers can't be saved."

"What??" Kayla's mother couldn't believe the doctor's words. He felt his head dizzy and suddenly..

Bruck.

His mother fainted and was unconscious.

***

POV Mom Kayla

My eyes ached when I opened my eyes. My eyes blurred, I rubbed my eyes many times. When everything was clear, I realized that Kayla..

"Well, Dad.. Kayla where is it."

My newly arrived husband ran to my room and tried to calm me down.

"Sincerely Ma'am, Kayla is no longer with us."

Tears wet my cheeks. I can't believe I'm going to lose my only princess. Wh why? Why are you doing this, son?

I'm still in shock about this. I don't even have a taste for food or other activities. I just daydream all day.

I finally decided to bury Kayla's body in Indonesia. I called my relatives there to prepare the tomb for Kayla. And I'm going back to Indonesia.

After Kayla's funeral, I don't have the spirit of life anymore. I will return to Paris to clean up our belongings and settle in Indonesia again. I decided to return to Indonesia on my own, while his father would follow if the task was done.

***

The next day I went back to Paris. Arriving there I went straight to Kayla's room to take care of clothes and other items that would be given to relatives and neighbors in need.

I opened her wardrobe and began to tidy up the still-good clothes into the suitcase and accidentally I found Kayla's diary that had fallen off. Out of curiosity, I was about to open it but the book was in the lock. I'm looking for the key but nothing.

I looked over to his study desk and still didn't see him. In every corner I look for the key. Tired of not seeing me, I laid my body on Kayla's bed. And I closed my eyes from exhaustion, tired of heart and mind.

I grabbed a pillow and accidentally touched a key. I picked it up immediately and I saw the key was small, it looked like it was Kayla's diary key.

I got out of my bed and opened Kayla's diary. I read one page at a time the book, page after page only told of his unrequited love by Ivan.

Yes, I know Kayla loves Ivan very much. Until Ivan decides to leave her, Kayla looks very sad but not for long she returns cheerful.

Upon reaching the middle page, I was surprised to read Kayla's writing. He tried to harm Mary. Who's Maria? Why does Kayla hate him so much?

Saturday, 10/04/2009

Today I will make Mary disappear from this world. I'm fed up with it and I'm going to take Indra at all costs. I still love Ivan, but he's so cold. Unlike the soft and warm senses. Maybe I can get his attention.

I had someone stalk them both, and I ordered him to run over Maria. Good luck.!!

Sunday, 11/04/2009

Loincloth..

Why did Indra get hit? Why Indra saved Maria. Failed all my plans.

What if Indra dies? And I'll be in jail for the rest of my life. I'm afraid, what should I do?

My body suddenly read that. I feel like I failed to be a parent, failed to educate my child. She became an evil girl and had no feelings.

Dear Kayla, why are you acting like that, son? Is that the only man in the world?

I don't know what to do. I have to contact who to see Ivan or Maria. Contacts just don't have. Ivan's number was inactive because we were no longer communicating with each other.

Once in Indonesia, I will meet friends from Kayla. I think Sandra and Ghea know what Kayla did.

I will apologize to Maria and Indra's family. Let's just hope Indra survives the accident so that I can calm down and not feel guilty anymore.

I ran to my husband's office, and I told him everything that happened to Kayla. My husband was devastated to hear that fact. My husband felt that it was his fault that overindulged Kayla whose every wish was always fulfilled easily.

So that when there are people who reject it, he does not accept it and becomes a person who is obsessed with achieving his wishes.

'It is not only you who failed to educate her, I as her mother have failed to educate our beautiful daughter.' Kayla's Mother

POV Mom Kayla End

...****************...