INSECURE, Love of the Past
A bright week

When I got home, I was interrogated. It seems that mama is very happy that I am close to Indra. But I felt uncomfortable with the mama question, because I did not know how Indra really felt. Does he love me as a lover or just a friend.

"Neng, was that Eneng's boyfriend? Handsome, kind, polite again. Mamah agreed to Eneng with the AA." Mom was very enthusiastic about talking about Indra.

"Ih mamah... Nope. It's just that it's not a girlfriend, it's so embarrassing to talk about it." I brushed off my mama's words just now.

"But that was aa kayak who love very much the same Eneng. Kirain mama is dating." Mama's words that look me in the eye with a glance. Because I always confide anything to mamah and never lie any matter.

"No, just a friend. Indra my best friend, just like Kia mah." I explained to Mamah that our relationship is only Friend.

"Yes already if it is only a friend, long time so love loh neng." Mom even teased me, making me feel ashamed of myself.

"Mamah ih.. Embarrassed.. Eneng to the room first yes mah, a lot of PR" Mamah even laughed to see me.

I went into the room too. I looked at my exercise books all I had filled in. ahh. Join me once, bete!! I lay my body on the bed, it felt so comfortable.

I stared at the ceiling of the room, thinking about the previous mamah and Indra's different attitude. Lately he has been a bit aggressive and has always said the same thing.

For now I don't know how I feel about Indra. To be sure I was getting comfortable close to him, he was a man who really appreciated me, a very kind and understanding man.

Oh yes Indra has arrived yet. I took my phone and saw a message coming in.

'I just got to Mar'

'Tomorrow I'll pick you up at 8 o'clock, see you later.'

I replied to an SMS from Indra.

'Yes, I wait for Dra.'

* POV Indra *

The day I was waiting for arrived as well. Today I will express my feelings for Maria. To be accepted or rejected I do not care what is important I will always be there for him no matter what his condition.

As I tidied my clothes, my mother came and asked.

"Be careful there. Take care of girls people don't get anything." Said the mother who reminded me to take care of Maria.

"Yes ma'am, definitely take care. Aa, it's so dear to her, ma'am." I looked up at my mother to convince her that I would take care of the woman I loved.

I'm not ashamed to tell my mother about Mary. Because you always understand how I feel and trust me that I won't play games or ruin the woman I love, and I'll keep your trust in me.

"Take a ride to dong A's house. Why was he never brought here?" The words of my mother who told me to bring Mary home.

"Not officially dating ma'am. If it's later played here. Aa's leaving now, ma'am. Assalamualaikum."

" Neylorda."

I say goodbye to Maria's mother and we're off on an angkot.

* POV Indra En****d

All the way I said nothing. Same thing with Indra. But why today Indra looks so nervous like there is a burden on his heart, did I ask first yes to him.

"You're why I'm so nervous, not as usual." I asked him to start a conversation with her..

"Oh, it's okay. I look like I'm nervous, right? Any time?" Said Indra who turned her face outside.

Tumben he did not look me in the eye and turned his face away, why?

"Yes, from earlier, the restless Kayak thought of something. What was? Dong's story is the same as mine." I forced her to tell me, but Indra just smiled.

He stroked the back of my hand, I let go of Indra's hand which was above mine. I'm ashamed that anyone saw it.

"Later on till I tell you." Indra closed her eyes and took a deep breath, like she was preparing something to talk.

I kept looking at her because her strange-looking attitude was not what she used to be. Today he is more quiet and not much drama. Normally he would keep teasing me and acting silly, but today he looks very serious. One thing that did not change from him, willing to be serious or silly his face remained handsome.

The good looks of Indra made the other passengers always glance at us both. Moreover, the women who continue to look at the handsome face of Indra. Was Indra not bothered huh with their amazed gazes?

"Dra, it's the people who saw you." I whispered to Indra who was in front of me.

"Let's go," she replied.

"Are you not worried?" Still whispering to him.

"Ordinary people have always believed in Mar."

I was silent to Indra's reply. And it seems that Indra is used to it and does not feel disturbed by people who always see it with a gaze of admiration.

Not long after we arrived at our destination. Indra bought a ticket at the counter while I waited for him in front of the entrance gate.

Before entering we get a warning from the guard of the place in between, do not litter carelessly, do not talk rude, do not troublemaking, do not do troublemaking, always pray and if something happens that is not desired report immediately to the officer in each post.

The post in question is the stalls that are up there. Usually every shop there is always one guard officer, can stop if we are tired or hungry. If there were no stalls along the way to Curug, it was certain no one would get to the top.

So this Curug is on top. Not the top, because if the top Curug I will not be able to. New to the first Curug has been boring, especially to the top Curug.

So in this place Curugnya there are 5, the distance of each Curug is very far. The path taken was many obstacles that can spur adrenaline. The steep road that is getting up is getting steeper and sinister, he said. Yes said the person who had been there and again took quite a long time.

We nodded to understand the officer's explanation. The adventure begins on this sunny Sunday.

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