Kan Kukejar Dreams
Almost every day

"Home and you finally," came a cynical voice from a middle-aged woman welcoming Nathan's return, and such a gesture was common to him from the young man.

"Yes. Am I not at all allowed to go home again?" nathan replied casually, to make the woman who turned out to be his mother growl angry.

"You seem to have begun to dare to show an attitude against you huh! Are you___

"Will not live in this house anymore? is that what Mama wants to say?" Nathan quickly cut off his mother's words, because he was already very pity with the sentence, so often thrown from the mouth of the mother.

"Oh, finally you already know too," the woman named Pure sneered cynically.

"How can I not memorize? almost every day mama said it and I've considered it my daily food" Nathan replied no less cynical.

"I want to go into the room first, Ma," Nathan was about to step past the pure body of his mother. But the man narrowed his steps, because his mother held him back.

"What did you do at school? how can you get such low grades? can't you be like your two brothers? what do you want to be later? want to stay in this family, okay?" again, her mother uttered a very hurtful speech. If the pain he felt when his teacher did a comparison between himself and his two brothers, was at level five, for his mother's speech of course it was more pain like being stabbed by a very sharp knife, he said, and when given a level, the pain reaches level 10.

Nathan clenched his hands together and turned to look at his mother. " Ma, can't Mama just once not compare I heard Angga's sister and Arsen's sister? I'm not them and I don't want to be like them, because I want to be myself. And as for the future, who can know with the future, even Kak Angga and Kak Arsen will not know with their future either. But, all I can assure you is, that I won't be a prankster in this family, Ma!" nathan said firmly and confidently.

"Currently, how can you be so sure? What can you do? all you can do is embarrass this family. Where have you ever made this family proud," Pure said in an increasingly cynical tone.

"I've done proud, Ma. Not just ever, but often. Almost every painting event that I participated in, I was always the first champion, but you never considered it a pride. Mama and Kak Angga always scorned me and said that winning in painting was completely useless. What are the benchmarks that become a pride for Mama only achieves in the academic field?" nathan tried to suppress his voice so as not to sound emotional.

"What is it to be proud of just a painting champion? it's totally useless. In big companies or in government agencies, your painting talent is not at all necessary. Understand you! basic children do not know themselves, are told instead to boast of things that are not worth to be proud of," said Murni cynically.

Nathan clenched his hand again, trying hard not to vent his anger, because after all the woman who was looking down on him was her own mother.

"What else is this, huh? did that fool do it again?" the voice of Angga, Nathan's first brother. The man is seen putting his briefcase on the table and loosening his tie. The man just got home from work. Yes, the man who is no less handsome than Nathan, has worked in a large company and has a high position which of course has a very large monthly income.

"Yes, as usual! his homeroom teacher, contacted Mama, informed him that the value of his repetition had no development at all." Murni replied with a smile to welcome the eldest child. A smile that Nathan never saw for her.

"What do you want to be? it's still a test, not yet a test. Why do you have such a slow brain? I don't know who you're impersonating. The late papa was smart and accomplished in his day, me and Arsen too. Well you? you really don't feel like a __" kid"

"Stop! Brother please don't compare me to the two of you anymore. I don't want to be like this either. My brain is not slow at all, but I am not like you two who from childhood have been given a private teacher, tutored to and fro. While me? starting small, I didn't get anything like that at all" Nathan said with red eyes. As much as possible, the young man tried not to cry, because he had promised in his heart to never cry again in front of his mother and two brothers.

"You know, why don't you find Mama a private tutor? that's because you don't want your money wasted on paying for the teacher, while your brain is slow on learning. Better money that mama use for mama's care," said Pure straightforwardly not care about the pain felt by Nathan heard his words.

"That's right! if it wasn't for papa's message to send you to school, I wouldn't have spent the money to pay for your tuition," Angga chimed in his mother's words, without thinking whether or not his words hurt Nathan's heart.

"My school money is not from my sister or my mother. But, that's Papa's money. Papa who made my education insurance until I became a student later," said Nathan strongly opposed the speech Angga his brother.

" Do you think I really want to have a big brother like you? if I can ask too, I really do not even want to be born in the middle of this family.a family that never appreciates the slightest effort," said Nathan who did not mention Angga brother at all again.

"Suckers! the child does not know himself. It's getting sassy you are it now? still eating in this house only you have dared to rebel," said Angga with a hardened jaw and a fiery tone of voice.

Nathan did not answer again, even though he actually wanted to argue with his eldest brother's speech. The man twisted his body and decided to leave his mother and brother

"Nathan! where you going?I'm not done talking!" Angga raised his voice furious at Nathan's attitude that did not respect him at all.

Nathan didn't make his brother's call. The teenager kept stepping into his room.

After being inside and directly locking the room from the inside, Nathan immediately poured his body, lying on the bed. The man's eyes glared at the ceiling of his room.

"Truely said Angga, why can I be different from them? the late papa was a smart man. Both my brothers too. Even my mom is smart, but why don't I? nathan with a sad face.

"Arghh,bodo very.better now I take a shower and go out looking for tranquility out there," Nathan got up and walked into the bathroom. The memory of Renata coming out tonight, suddenly disturbs his mind.

"It could be that Renata is good at academics, but it turns out that he can be stupid just because of love" Nathan condemned Renata's stupidity.

Not long ago, Nathan looked fresh and had also changed his clothes with casual clothes, Nathan came out of the room and decided to go for some air out there.

"Where are you going?" suddenly Arsen's second brother intercepts Nathan.

"I want to get some air outside, brother," Nathan replied casually.

"Emm, do you have any money?" ask Arsen again.

"If I say 'there', it means I'm lying, but I don't want to say nothing either, because I still have a little money left over" Nathan replied .

"Now, extra money for you. Be careful outside!" arsen said while putting some money into Nathan's pocket.

" Already! now you can go. Remember not to go home last night," continued Arse back

Arsen is Nathan's second brother. Arsen's attitude is not as rough as Angga, but men also can not be said to be gentle.

Tbc