Losing Us
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“Mother is almost dead,” said Arsenio. Next door, Olin continued to whine, questioning Arsenio's decision to end it all completely.

It takes a lot of time and energy to get to this stage. To ultimately decide that something must be removed. Arsenio finally realized that he was just an ordinary human being full of limitations. There were many things that he could not handle on his own even though he had tried as hard as he could.

The man looked down, staring at the fingers of the hand that were clinging to each other noisily. Memories of bad tragedy that almost befell Mother last month made her body tremble. The heavy load on the back of the head also almost made him lose his balance.

“Remember the time I told you same Mother again on a business trip?” ask her with a soft voice. His head was still down, not having more strength to meet Olin who was already crying tears.

Although there was no answer after a while, Arsenio continued. “The plane that Mommy should be riding that day is lost contact. The news is also there tivi, you also must have seen that all parties concerned are still trying to find the whereabouts of the plane.” Imagining the sad cries of the victim's family who were anxiously waiting for news made Arsenio's chest hurt. It could not be imagined if Mother also became one of the passengers on the plane that day.

“Mother congratulations for being late to the airport.” Continue the man. Trying hard to hold back the tightness in order to finish the story.

Olin still did not respond, the girl was still busy crying.

So, Arsenio turned to check. The face of the woman he still loved was wet and red. His eyes were swollen, tears were still flowing even though it seemed that Olin was tired as well.

“That day was also the day that Mother confirmed once again to me to choose. You or Anara. And I have not given the answer at all because releasing you is never entered into the option that I have.”

“Then imagine what would happen if the real Mother became a victim and I had to lose her in a state I was still a disappointing child actually making me feel almost crazy, Olin. I know I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if it happened.” The funeral shadow flashed across Arsenio's head suddenly. Making shakes in his body more intense and control over the self decreases rapidly.

Arsenio took a hard breath, looked down again because it turned out to see Olin crying so much that it made her feel helpless. Anyway, everything has to be finished today. He must accept the fate of not being with someone he loves, in order to give love to the only person who will never leave him even if the whole world leaves; Mother.

“From everyone, you know best how much Mother means to me.” Lirih Arsenio's. It felt like he couldn't keep talking, but he forced himself. What starts must be completed well, cannot stop halfway.

Arsenio took a deep breath, then turned her head again towards Olin. Her crying had subsided a little, but she still refused to say anything.

“Lin,” call it. “With all humility, I beg you to stop. Release me. We can't be together anymore, somehow. Because in reality, I can't choose anyone other than Mommy.”

And for the last time, Arsenio hugged Olin. Letting the woman continue the rest of her cries in the arms. While enjoying the pain in his own chest. It felt so tight, but not a single tear managed to fall from Arsenio's eyelids. It's definitely not a good thing. Because the more his emotions can not get out, everything will be more difficult.

“Sorry. I'm sorry, Olin. Sorry for failing to make a promise to always be by your side.” And sorry, because already present in your life becomes a figure who has no choice but to let go of you in the end.

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Time moves, no matter how much he has to limp in. Wound after wound is created, filling every corner of the heart until it feels like there is no longer room to store happy.

For God's sake, Arsenio still loved him. There was not a single moment that he passed by not loving the woman. Olin is still in the lead, no matter how much time Arsenio spends with Anara.

But once again, Arsenio realized that not all love should end happily. He also realized that no matter how much he loved Olin, Mother remained the winner. Even if you have to lose an eye or a leg to keep you by his side, Arsenio will not mind accepting.

Losing Olin made Arsenio a nelangsa, but at least she could still see the girl from a distance, making sure she remained safe with all her efforts to protect her secretly. While losing Mother is a disaster that he does not know how to cope with it.

“Mother was here.” Arsenio raised her head. Anara had just placed a glass of water onto the dining table, inscribed before her. I don't know how long Arsenio's been sitting here after Olin's apartment, and I don't know when Anara saw her like this.

“Ngapain?” tanyakanya. The water he gave Anara drank a little, then returned to pay attention to her.

“Nganterin some items for the baby.” The answer. Feeling that something was left behind, the woman added. “Bunda had nanyain you, I said just you again out looking sweet martabak for me.”

Arsenio nodded, “Still working together. This is the last one, I will not go again meet Olin.” Said.

It seemed, the remark made Anara confused so that her eyebrows swooped sharply. “Means?”

“Gue has ended my relationship with Olin,” replied Arsenio. “From now on don't talk about divorce anymore. Focus on your pregnancy. I will also focus on my efforts to be a good husband and father.”

“Why? You don't have to make it this way if you just—“

“This is my decision,” sela Arsenio. “Please, just appreciate it and don't ask why. I know what's best for my life, Anara.”

“But Olin was hurt, you are too.”

“There will be more injured if I'm the same Olin do not part.” Rigorously. This time he hoped Anara would not ask much more. Because to be honest, it's not easy to maintain a low tone when Anara starts to suck.

“Gue tired, want to rest. Lo should also enter the room and go to sleep, pity the baby if too often invited to stay up.” Her speech. Then Arsenio got up and passed up into the room.

As his foot stepped, the man continued to try to convince himself that this was the best. The chapter of his life with Olin was over, it was time to turn the page to start writing in another chapter. With Anara, and their future son

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