My Beloved
chapter 33

*2 months later*

currently deva and jesika go to a tour that has just opened, many good places to take pictures,,,, of course they do not miss the moment ,they also took some photos....

coincidentally, there was an event and there was an entertainment stage as well, so Jesika decided to go on stage

"i'm going to go on stage and sing a song that I specifically dedicate to you dev,, later you will also come up, and sing a song for me"

"waduh, I've never been on stage before, Jes, let alone have to sing., fake gini voice,, no, no PEDE me, you're a yes,,,"

"hmm if you don't want to, I also won't want to if so" said Jesika scowled and it makes deva want to not have to budge and follow what Jesika wants,,,jesika cheered Lalau and stepped forward to the stage

one thing the weakness of deva,,, he cannot resist even the desire of the Jesika, as long as it does not violate religious law.

"assalamualaikum,,, good afternoon everyone sorry if my voice interferes with your entertainment, I just want to express my feelings through the song that I will sing at this time,,," said the stale Jesika ,then the music started

"honestly I can't afford.

even though it is disturbing..

your smile is gone in my eyes..

i've realized..

I love you...

you are not the first in my heart

But my love is best for you, my,,

although I am not a star in the sky, but my love is the best

honestly, I can't...

to get away from you..

though my heart hesitates,,,,, the,,,,

you're not by my side every time...

I realized ... I love you

you are not the first in my heart

but my love is best for you

I am not a star in the sky

but my love is the best....

the song was finished and all applauded ,, now it's deva's turn to take the stage but this time the deva demanded Jesika's hand to come up also to the stage ..deva did not want to be alone.....

deva was stale before it started.after it was finished, music was started..

hands ask how tomorrow...

I don't want to guess this feeling...

all I know is that I love you today..

all I know is that I love you today

let it all pass...

live as it is

flowers bloom, even though drought hits

flowers bloom even though drought strikes

not that I want to be sure,,,

convince your heart

I am the destiny you are waiting for

I want you to feel at ease

let it be beside me

because I love you so much

I will prove the love in your heart

one sense of happiness

I pinned you down as my life companion

promise me love, be with me....

the song ended,,, all clapping, Deva thanked him and got off the stage without letting go of his hand,,,then they were given souvenirs as a sign of gratitude because they had participated in the event,,,and of course deva and jesika accept it with joy because their intention is to sing not for the sake of souvenirs but indeed they want to express their feelings to each other through the song they sing...

it did not feel the time towards the afternoon now they decided to go home because of the considerable distance so they decided to go home early....

at 17:00 they arrived but Jesika asked deva not to go home because there are important things that must be said.....

after praying magrib..jesika invites deva out, walk,,,, apparently Jesika brings to a park close to home,, he wants to convey something outside his home....

"dev, there's something I want to say to you ,,,,

earlier I was sorry if what I was about to say hurt you maybe even you would hate me.,,,,

"jesika's words began to glaze over, then deva was staring at him intensely in a state of anxiety

"does this have anything to do with diaz??"guess deva and Jesika also disturbed his head.deva also sighed and prepared to listen to what will be said by Jesika maybe the time of their marriage has been determined,,,, and so on,,,because their relationship is good there is no problem at all.....

"dev,, actually I hesitate, to continue my relationship with diaz, but I myself can't back out of this relationship,,,,, do you want me to be a dev widow??jesika is doubtful

"so your wedding has been decided??why didn't you tell me about this, Jes??

and why do you think of being a widow??

if you don't want to marry her, then you decide, don't wait for you to get married once it's divorced.." said deva wonder.

"not yet dev, there is absolutely no chat about there,, this I just want to say aja ,uneg-uneg that I feel ..or you do not want yes ,marry me who is already a widow later" said Jesika glazed

"hmm jes understands,,,, this is not a matter of status,,, marriage is not a game, you decide to get married but you also want a divorce, do you think it will be easy for you to live?, it is not that simple....marriage not only unites the two people but unites the two families,, you can not decide marriage with just the word"DUTUS "then it will end so anyway,, not like that jes,,,,, no,,,many things must go through to really get divorced,,, that's also if your husband agrees, if not still you can't get divorced" said deva

"i know dev,,, but I can't back out of this relationship, I'm too afraid to break this,," prustated Jesika said

"what are you afraid of, Jes?don't you love her???and if you choose him, I'm sincere, jes" said deva relaxed when in his heart turbulent want to shout to vent the pain and tightness in his chest

"honestly my love has been lost for him the last 2 years dev. I was forced to continue this relationship dev,,,, actually, I. I was too afraid that he would leave me,,,,"said Jesika who now had her cheeks wet with tears

" hm you're weird, jes, you don't love him but you don't want him to leave you,,,,,,, you don't want him to,,,,

why do you have to lie to yourself,?

besides you won't lose him because he's your fiancee and may be your life partner later" said deva who is now starting to ignite emotions, because of jealousy

"i don't want to marry diaz dev, I hate him, I hate him so much, I even want to kill him, but I'm not given the courage to" said Jesika who now vent the anger that Jesika has endured so far, Deva was just silent waiting for the next word that Jesika will convey

"you know dev, he's a jerk, he's evil, I think, he's good all this time, he's loyal but it turns out he's got to do the things I hate, I hate him dev,,,,,, I know ,,,,I hate it so much"jerke jesika with tears and occasionally hit the chest of the deva who is now in his presence.and deva was still silent, did not respond ,he remained standing tall and ready to withstand the next Jesika attack.....

"he really had the heart of dev, 3 years we were dating he was very very caring for me, do not touch me, to just hold hands just he did not dare, but that day. he dared to do a very heinous thing to me,, he had taken away the treasure I had been guarding all this time,,,,dev,,,,,"yelled Jesika while pulling the collar of deva as if the deva she saw was diaz

" I HATE DIAZ, I HATE HIM SO MUCH, I EVEN WANT TO KILL HIM, IF HE LEAVES ME, MAYBE I'D BETTER SELL MYSELF BECAUSE I'M NO LONGER THE VIRGIN DEV"

broke the cry of Jesika, he continued to rebel and vent the anger that was in his heart, while his own deva still felt calm and remained standing upright, he said,while holding the chest blow that was done by Jesika,,