My Beloved
chapter 45

early in the morning deva has gone to work, without saying hello to Jesika and sometimes deva likes to avoid jesika .jd it is quite difficult Jesika to really talk to deva

all Jesika could do was cry in solitude, regret the deeds he had done, now he no longer cared about the parcel,she no longer needed it after all she was married and her husband really accepted her for what she was....

"i'm really stupid,, why can I do something that really makes deva disappointed, what if she sues for divorce?.enggk,,,,,, what if she sues for divorce,,,I don't want to and I will never part with deva, I have to solve this problem immediately, I don't want to keep fighting cold war with deva, I miss everything she did to me" jesika muttered in the middle of her cry

* at 16:00

deva arrived home, as usual Jesika always welcome deva near the door, this time the Jesika really put on a very sad face, without saying, jesika directly hugged the deva body tightly, very tightly... lucky this time deva let him and even returned her embrace tightly anyway,,,.

they were immersed in a long silence as if the embrace channeled all the longing that had been held for a few days....

"forgive me, ma'am".that is all that can be said from the mouth of Jesika, Deva only tightened his embrace without answering a word

lucky in the house there were only the two of them, the mother was definitely outside being gathered with her study mothers,,,

slowly the embrace loosened and they looked at each other, and, and their lips drew near to each other, and now they clenched their lips very greedily, and, of course, the Jesika now took control,, and, of course, they did,,,because this is what Jesika wants, can be back making out with deva,,,

because with a romance then the problem of any size will be quickly resolved, especially deva including the type of person who is easily aroused,,,,

jesika is very afraid of the anger of deva this time, because deva silences him, because actually deva type of angry person, and always issued what he wants to express ,,although actually Jesika does not like the deva temperament but apparently it has become a lack of deva and Jesika can accept it,, in contrast to the deva anger this time,,,

she literally silenced a thousand languages that Jesika feared, Deva sued jesika's divorce and left her .....

"sayank, I'm sorry, I know I was wrong, I'm gonna give you a chance, I'm not gonna repeat it and I'm not gonna be in touch with diaz, either, I'm,,,even I've blocked his number".

"we go to the room yuk, we talk in the room to make it better, but before that, I want to go to the water first to wash my face"

"follow,,,," said Jesika spoiled and still attached to the body of deva

*

"i'm sorry, I met diaz on reoni yesterday, then he greeted me and promised to give me the package, of course I'm happy to hear it because that's what I want right now. on the condition that I have to see her the next day, but somehow I can't tell you, there's a fear of my own, you'll get angry and prevent me from meeting her .."jesika took a breath to continue the story while waiting for a response from deva , but it seems deva has not given any response

"at last I went to see him, we made a deal in the town square, why, when I met him, I still had a relationship with him,so I didn't dare to open my phone just to tell you, which I felt was just fear and guilt that I couldn't face,,,,,, that,,,,my speech seemed locked to tell you, even my body seemed to be fighting me to be close to you,,, my mind was only in the dias and dias at that time, but my heart always remembered you,,,"

"did he do something to you?"that's the first thing you want to know, because if until diaz does something, especially physical contact, maybe deva will really take off the jesika

"no,, diaz did not touch me at all, he just asked me to accompany his shopping needs and we watch like a couple in general" said Jesika firmly, Deva was able to breathe a sigh of relief this time,,because he doesn't have to do what he doesn't want

"3 days I accompanied him, during those 3 days he always reasoned that his package missed, so that for 3 days I did not get what I wanted,,, so that,,no matter why I could not refuse the desire diaz at that time, I apologize dev, I beg you please do not let me down again, I can not afford if you silence me....

I'm better prepared if you get angry, yell at me, berate me, but it can make our relationship better,, than you silence me, like this, this is torture enough to make me die slowly...I'm sorry,, please don't let me go anymore"

"hmm I don't know,,, so upset and in pain as if there were no words I could say for a few days, every time I saw your face, just the anger, the disappointment I felt,so I chose to avoid it so that I would not say a word I should not say when I was angry.....

"are you still mad at me right now?"

"if I can be honest, I'm still very angry with you, but my love drowns out my anger,,,

my disappointment was defeated by my longing, I couldn't help but greet you, I wanted to berate you but I was afraid it would hurt you even more,so I choose to shut up so you don't feel hurt like me"

"you are wrong, my, precisely this residence of yours is a death sentence for me, you know my weakness is you, the thing I dislike the most and do not want is that you silence me,if you can choose , when you are angry you will nag and reveal Everything you want to say rather than you keep quiet like this,, forgive me"

"i'm sorry, too, I don't know that my residence makes you feel more hurt and almost desperate, I'm sorry, I love you" said deva while kissing the forehead of old Jesika

they embraced each other tightly and clasped their lips and ended up in a hot struggle in the twilight,, as if to shed all the yearning, disappointment, sorrow and relief for each other