My Beloved Perjaka
Rest is a struggle

Good morning Monday, the spirit of the slalu of the rupiah fighters, the school sisters, and the Abhimanyu who went to college. Spirit everyone, tell the world and yourself that there is still much to fight for and be happy about.

Spirit, don't be lazy. I'm the only one who can be lazy today because I'm still carefree.

"Tea is warm, Nyah."

I nodded and received the warm cup of tea that aunt gave me.

"Thank you, bi." I smiled, brought the cup's lips closer to my mouth and took a slow sip. The warm liquid flowed and warmed the inside of my body like the sunlight that now also warmed my body from the outside. It does not feel as sophisticated as the warm embrace that has been, but this is healthier. Better, good for the health of my body or my heart.

"Auntie not shaken?"

The middle-aged woman wearing a batik negligee shook her head while stalling the water hose. Aunt Marni is watering the new plants we bought a few days ago at the ornamental plant kiosk. Although not as expensive as the ornamental plants owned by papi first, the important mama and papa home page is not gerang let alone molt.

"Who was it yesterday, Nyah? Auntie didn't know and just saw. New temen?" asked aunt Marni after crouching, she plucked the weeds that were on the sidelines of the conblock.

"Still very young, the age of an aunt in her village, Nyah! Again the twinkling crazily, rah-hura."

I nodded, sipping tea again until it ran out. In my mind, I could not understand how Aunt Marni would respond if Abhimanyu was the guarantee of all her family's debts. Especially, if the man chose the last option, donate his sperm to me through the baby tube program.

Aunt Marni would have taken a thousand pieces of advice and thought I was sane. But I have to get pregnant, my last attempt was just that and show Narendra that I'm not barren. Thank you if anyone wants to marry me and cover my hedonistic living expenses. How happy my heart if it happens, even if there is no yes already ngincer Abhimanyu only.

"His name is Abhimanyu, bi. He's the one with the cool black bike that the workshop once delivered to here. I know him because I almost got hit by a drunken time, time out papi giving divorce papers that time."

"Continue because it's just now with Abhimanyu?" Aunt Marni looked at me, grinning. "Don't hideously fancied, exhausted in anterin meatballs yesterday with a smile of his own. Hayo, he's still a little girl Nyah, still snot not to be teased."

"I'm not naughty, how do you want to tempt Abi. There he's been tempted by me without me being tempted. Aren't you?" I covered my face as Aunt Marni chuckled.

"Nyonyah is flirtatious, don't do it. Kasian Abhimanyu will keep thinking the same nyonya."

"Good dong Bi if he keeps thinking. It was a sign that he put my name in some part of his mind because not everyone can be the most important among the special."

I stood up, my body was quite sweaty. Aunt Marni finished pulling the grass. After that he would sweep the entire house, taking out the trash while waiting for the vegetable merchant to pass.

I turned to find solitude in the house and was stunned in the family room while staring at the picture frame of mama and papa.

"About mom and dad agree that I'm not talking to Abhimanyu?"

Certainly not, the former class of papi Narendra just get blessing very difficult especially now. Teenagers, not yet employed, college is just getting started. Maybe if I was like Sisca, thoughts about the future of Abhimanyu I would not think about, or Abhimanyu who had thoughts like Sisca's gigolony could make all this easier. Basically we are both sane people so that crazy considerations sometimes appear to go away only usually more often appear in the heart.

I sighed, "May ya, ma, pa, Bella Abhimanyu even though Bella knows Bella who has more capital later. I'm sure, papa and sincere mama from Bella are happy? Aye right? Bella just needs that now."

I pursed my lips with teary eyes. "It all seems to change drastically, ma, pa." Then the rest of my morning that I was afraid to spend in my mom and dad's room. Relax, feel the thick comfort I miss.

•••

"Silence, nyonyah. Nyah, wake up."

Shocks after shocks I felt on my shoulder. Again, the latter was faster and reached my consciousness. I yawned and covered my face with both palms.

"I'm still sleepy auntie, don't bother. Hush... Hush... My dreams are bad, baby." I complained lazily. Just now feeling calm, aunt Marni is already disturbing.

"There is Abhimanyu outside. Waiting in the living room for half an hour!"

"You guys chatted?" ask after sitting down.

"Yes dong Nyah, later if not aunt temenin nyonyah nagging similar to the time of doctor Billy yesterday. One more aunt, so the aunt talked, aunt love lunch also even let it feel at home!" obviously aunt Marni, grimacing and looking back.

"Well, don't you want to come out?"

"Aunty you should have just come into this room instead of just waiting outside." I stood up, hurriedly tidying my hair and clothes. Even though it looked like I woke up, I was still confident coming out of my room.

For a moment I peeked at Abhimanyu from the television hole befet teak classic beloved papa. He looked diligently at his laptop while typing a possible college assignment.

I cleared my throat while leaning my body on the body of the befet.

"Why did you come here?" ketus.

I scapegoated and pretended to put on a face not caring about his presence. "It's not like you left yesterday when Auntie told me to stop by!"

"I'm just fulfilling Auntie's invitation better now, and I'm bringing her an apple aunt!" abhimanyu said, he gave a smile as he opened his backpack. One white crackle with content that glares at the eyes he stretched out. Red apples and green apples. Two seeds doang.

I held back a smile, I stepped foot, walked up to him to pick up two apples with different flavors. Sweet and wry. My life is great, maybe even Abhimanyu. Like the fret that is divided in the show of attention of apples.

"Next time don't bother, but thank you" I said standing next to Abhimanyu sitting on the carpet, "a moment." Abhimanyu nodded then lowered his gaze from my eyes.

I turned my body, towards the kitchen. I washed the apple and sliced it into eight pieces. I was sure I could try to treat my own pain without Abhimanyu, but in fact a simple bit of attention from the early semester's college kids was able to make me smile on my own. That's also the behavior of the teenager.

"Let's eat together." I put a plate of red and green apples near his laptop while throwing myself on the sofa. I looked at his back, wanting to rest my head there.

"Looking out?"

"Udah was." Abhimanyu turned his head as I bit his lower lip. "What about aunt?" He moved the apple to the couch.

"Udah is good." I smiled, "Your girl knows you didn't come to Auntie's house?"

"No!" Abhimanyu shook his head while feeding the green apple to his mouth. The crisp texture of the apple skin sounds cracks in the ears. "She's not my mom who's anything to get permission for."

"You must be afraid he thinks you're cheating, right?" then I covered her nose. Abhimanyu turned his head back, massaged his nose and went back to eating apples. He chews with water fretting face.

"Dare to answer?"

"Just dare! The definition of cheating depends on the individual. He wouldn't think I was cheating if I just stopped by here with aunty meatball and an apple. I didn't even commit sexual crimes, so I didn't cheat!" abhimanyu defended himself.

"OK you didn't commit a sexual crime, Abi. So you're safe, not cheating physically, just in your heart. Do you realize that?" I held onto his chin, Abhimanyu brushed my hand away slowly and looked back at his laptop. Abhimanyu sighed.

"I'm just a human being, Auntie. For him, or myself. But Aunt should also be aware, don't think this is special."

I ruffled her hair from behind. "You can't force me not to think you're special, Ian. If I want to, I'll do it and it's happening."

"Tant, no."

"No great meeting without a good time, Ian. Do you do your job or do I want to help you?" I took my body off the couch and sat on the carpet next to him.

"Rest is part of the fight, Auntie. So Aunt rest aja let me cepet sem–buuuhhh!" ledek Abhimanyu while shifting his sitting position.