My Beloved Perjaka
The kemayu ft Abhimanyu

"You can keep me, inside your heart, and holiding me close until our eyes meet." I repeated Abhimanyu's sentence in front of Alexa Liu accompanied by live music in a public house. Midnight after I seduced Alexa Liu to accompany this heartbreak.

"Seriously?" Alexa Liu charged in disbelief. His eyes widened slightly from usual as if he was responding to Abhimanyu's words just like I was.

I sipped some grape juice instead of red wine when I found it hard to compare these difficult days. Am I a fool or is Abhimanyu a deceitful teenager?

The wind from the air conditioning blew lazily between the tempestuous gurgles of the atmosphere, inversely proportional to my mood. Who am I to complain to if not in places like this.

"He said it like his family couldn't pay his debts. It means what Alexa tried, did she tell me to be single. Keep hoping and praying he can't pay for it all and we live together after days gone by? Really? Geez, is Abhimanyu as crazy as I am?" cerocosku while leaning the body on the back of the sofa.

I can't stop thinking, the teenager can-can express sentences as bad and romantic. He gives attention not certainty. Without ever realizing Abhimanyu hurt himself, his lover, and me. However, was he being a coward who fell in love and diverted it all with attention only. I moaned, fed up with my own heart.

Alexa Liu sipped her soft drink. He tasted the taste then sighed while grasping his cold glass.

"I don't think Abhimanyu is entirely wrong, Bella. Abhimanyu is now only doing what he thinks, he is not running away from his family's debts. He knows all you want for the money you give him. On the one hand, he has limits. She's a tall teenager who has sickly bokap, her mother is not a biological mother, but there are boundaries between them. Now, what can a boy of his age do? Attention, that's all she can do Bella. Easy, even if Abi is sincere about doing that, the wrong one means you are Bella!"

Alexa Liu shook my head until I looked up.

"Why me?" I was irritated while tidying my hair.

"Because you're divorced stupid, wherever the person who runs out needs attention and Abhimanyu you make a victim!" alexa Liu shouted while dabbling my cheeks.

I grimaced while shaking his hand.

"He came at the right time, Alexa. I just used the opportunity to snare him. It's good to get fresh and nimble seeds, that's why."

Back again I felt Alexa Liu's hand shake my head.

"Luckily Abhimanyu is still sane enough not to do that, stupid. Fortunately, how not. If you are pregnant with her child, what might be the burden of her life is not added? You're so stupid Bella, you know." Alexa Liu protested while shaking her head.

I let out a breath. Pregnant just yet, even registering a baby tube program is not, the critical thoughts and criticisms of Alexa Liu are everywhere.

"Udah, he refused. Now it's best if you give me some advice lest you meet Abhimanyu, Alex. He's a jail-kick. Came not picked up home not delivered. Nongol that's it, where the support gives attention, that's what makes me frown." I finished my grape juice while packing my things on the table.

"You still want to be here?" Alexa Liu nodded, "Okay I'll be up until 12 p.m." I raised my hand, waving at the bartender who happened to be passing by at a distance of two meters from my desk.

"Two slofs of red wine." I said with a smile.

Alexa Liu immediately canceled my order. "Two strawberry ice cream!" He glanced nosily while pinching my cheek.

"Es cream at night just make fat, stupid. Want to make it hard for me to get a soul mate again?" I changed his head. Alexa Liu laughed until her eyes disappeared.

And the two ice cream bowls came ten minutes later when Alexa and I were busy replying to messages in the group chat gang. Several gang members would follow to enliven my broken mood.

Under the dim light. I looked at three slops of strawberry ice cream, one fresh strawberry, and a pretty decent melted chocolate to provide solace in these disco-lit nights.

I enjoy a bowl of ice cream while watching the live music that has since flowed between the jokes and laughter that shimmered in this public house.

•••

Half-twelve o'clock at night. The atmosphere was getting more lively, disco lights that had only moved around the entertainment stage now spread to the dance floor and the entire room. I cut my lips when Sisca, Jovita, and Regina came with a bottle of liquor in their hands.

"I don't need that yeah gangs, I just need my favorite brondong to come and ngajak I marry." I cried, receiving kisses right cheek and left cheek from them alternately.

"Brondong darling? You got an elo, Bella? Know dong." said Sisca. He who rejects the old by continuing to do botox injections and pull a thread pulls an empty chair from the next table.

I immediately smothered Alexa Liu's mouth as she was about to reply.

"I will never know you, Sisca.... Sweetie, she..flocked.me!" i dramatize.

Sisca laughed because I did not panic when pulled to the front of the stage. Struggling with other visitors when someone I call my favorite in droves is here, bring a guitar. Sitting sweet in a high chair.

"Abimanyu, we dong!" sisca. I who heard her calling my imaginary lover immediately looked at her sharply.

"Do you know Abhimanyu, Sis? Wait-wait-wait, he's not one of your gigolom right?" blow me with choked breath.

The wooden gang immediately laughed while embracing me left right. Sisca on the right, Alexa Liu on the left.

"She doesn't want to be my gig, dear Bella. I've often bargained but refused, he said he was just freelance singing and not interested in being a savings aunt-tante berduit kayak us!" sisca replied casually.

"Freelance? Sing?" I looked at Abhimanyu in disbelief, he looked at me no less, and as my mind was guessing since when Abhimanyu became a freelance singer at a nightclub like this his voice as sweet as cotton candy infiltrated my ears.

"Good night. It's great to see you again on Friday night raining outside. Cold?" abhimanyu asked, smiling perfectly when he heard Abi's hug, hug me. Where are all the women who scream like that.

I'm blinking lips. A lot of the tempting turned out. Bella Ellis's temptation is not working. Many dressed more sexy and brave than me. She might not be tempted by my widow, half sexy too.

Abhimanyu grasped the mic while securing his seat. He smiled looking around.

"I will embrace you with my voice, may it warm your cold night."

Ih, I want to vanish from the front of this stage. I can't hear him sing. I couldn't, I was afraid his voice would wet me, strain my nerves and become opium in the name of longing.

I closed my ears quickly as the guitar lines began to sound, but Alexa Liu immediately put away all my hands.

"Listen to her sing!" whispered fierce.

The acoustic guitar chirps are chirping, rhythmic, anesthetizing who I am who hears until it is imprinted only on Abhimanyu and the song performed.

...Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul...

...And it's the only thing that I know, know...

...I swear it will get easier...

...Remember that with every piece of yes...

...Hmm, and it's the only thing we take with us when we die...

...And if you hurt me...

...That's okay, baby, only words bleed...

...Inside these pages, you just hold me...

...And I won't ever let you go...

...Wait for me to come home...

...Ed Sheeran - Photograph...