My Ex-husband Lecturer
Chapter 35 Flashback

Rian is not the type of person who can control his feelings for nothing. However, Rian thought that they needed to talk. Rian could not believe their ending would be like this.

What exactly is their problem? They never even fought except that night. And Rian felt it wasn't a fight.

What really happened to Raka? Does he really like Kirana? Why are they right – dating? Do they like each other? What now and even 3 years ago Kirana never loved Rian in the least? Even after all these storms.

Rian felt he had no other choice, Rian just wanted to talk to Kirana. Ask for an explanation from him. Rian who had parked his car in front of the house kirana was still fighting against him.

He wanted to come in and talk, but he couldn't just bring himself up in front of Mama. Since Rian returned to Indonesia, not a single bit did he tell Kirana's mother. Although they currently do not have any relationship, but as a person who had been a companion of his daughter, Mama should have been entitled to know Rian decided to return to Indonesia.

He was so confused that his hand had involuntarily pressed the dial 1 button. Dial 1 stored on his phone is still Kirana's mobile number. Rian had only realized it. Since he had never contacted Kirana again, Rian had no idea that even the arrangement had not been changed.

Unfortunately, the phone connection is not directly connected.

Kirana's phone is busy. Little disappointed. The thought that the girl might be talking to Raka comes back to haunt her.

But Rian did not give up. He called the girl back. Again – again busy.

‘Sh*t, is he talking to Raka?’, Rian hit the steering wheel of his car.

After a short pause, Rian chose to contact Kirana again. Again, he pressed Dial 1.

Honey, tonight doesn't seem like it's for her. No longer busy, Kirana's phone now can not be lifted.

It was cold that night, cold and heartbreaking. All the flavors mixed in his brain. Until when will it continue this way, slumped without a clear direction. If a part of his heart wants and can forget, he will be grateful. But his whole heart told him to keep the girl's name tightly closed in his heart.

For almost two years, Rian acted as if nothing had happened. But this time is different. Their interaction is more intense than before. For the first time they spent the whole day together.

For the first time, Kirana went to Rian's house after a long time. And for the first time, Rian watched others taste the ringing of the girl's lips.

Two years of watching him be silent - silence as if closing a meeting was still common for Rian. But, the reflection of yesterday's scene between Kirana and Raka made Rian unable to sleep. For the first time she was upset, homesick, angry, hopeful, and all those feelings gathered.

“Ehm... whose car parked this night – nights in front? Usually there is no. What is the front house guest?”, Kirana confused to see the car parked across from her front house.

While wiping – wipe his wet hair, he opened the balcony curtain and stood there while looking at the car. Instead Rian did not realize it, instead he immediately pressed the gas of his car and left.

“Kak Rian???”, Kirana only realized after seeing the back of the car, she was sure it was Rian's car.

There is a circular ornament on the back of the car.

‘What's he doing tonight – nights like this here?’, thought Kirana confused.

Although a little bit of joy and confused, but Kirana was grateful that the man did not choose to enter his house.

Since meeting and re-connecting with the man, Kirana was again unable to establish her heart. This stubborn 20-year-old girl was so innocent when faced with her problems a few years ago. His heart was very fragile and helpless before the man.

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Rian is seen parking his car in a luxury apartment. This was definitely not his residence. He parked his car and walked away full of anger. His neck was loosened so he could breathe. It feels so crowded.

“I can't accept your attitude more than this. I was wrong to think you are an adult, I forgot that you are just a child - children.”, said Rian in a high tone

“Kids - your son said? Trus what difference you, pas papa is still alive, what you do, you never understand the feeling of papa. You don't know dreams papa dreams. You even said all you did so far was nothing more than waste time.”, Kirana's emotions also ignited. 

“Trus what does it have to do with you. Snot boy who can even still walk to the mall with a guy is not clear pas papa again in the hospital. Cheap knows not heck.”, Rian can not stem his anger until he issued words that are actually not in line with his heart. 

Plaque...

Kirana slapped Rian's cheek hard. The words - they say - are completely unlearned.

“Ngasuh?”, Kirana's tears have spilled. He did not expect the first man who became the back of his life actually spewed cruel words to him.

“Yes, you think I've liked you all this time? You are too obsessed to hide Clara's letter from me.”, said Rian. 

“You really - really outrageous, brother. You can talk all of that to me. When have I ever liked you?”, Kirana can no longer stem the tears that spill. 

“OK, from tomorrow we divorce.”, Rian pulls Kirana out of the car and passes from the parking lot to his apartment. Leaving the girl herself sobbing in the parking lot. Silent, dark, and quiet.

Less than 3 years later, they meet again. That girl, she's at the school where she teaches. How could? As the recesses of his heart had improved, the girl appeared right before him.

“You can't go, not your academic advisor asking you here. You've dropped out of college how many times a month?” The girl was confused, she was so confused, even though the face she saw before her was the same as the face 3 years ago, but her gaze was different. His eyes are no longer what they used to be.

“I take care of some things off campus, Mr.”, replied Kirana in a flat tone. 

“Kalo there are important things to take care of, you should ask for permission, instead of playing unplug. If this happens once again, you cannot take the exam and are considered not to pass.”, said Rian. 

“Good sir. I understand”, The girl left by putting a pushy look on her face. That face, that face is still the same as before. It was the first time he met the girl he loved, the girl who had even made him think this life did not exist since that day.

Flashback finish

Rian, the – male took the elevator and headed to the 10th floor of this apartment building. The steps were quick and stopped at room 114. He pressed the bell. Long after, the door opened.

“What are you planning?”, They speak in French.

“Not your business? Why come night – night like this and disturb my sleep?”, the men he met were Raka.

“You, what are you doing with Kirana? Heh I can't believe you're dating her and she accepts. She is not the type of girl like that.”, Rian has now gripped Raka's shirt, making her corner to the wall.

“Despite everything, you are my lecturer. It's not like you treat your students like this. Come night uninvited and clutching someone's shirt. Remember Mr. Rian, this area has its CCTV. What if I report you to the police. ”, said Raka gave a warning until Rian wanted to loosen his grip.

“What's your goal to meet me?”, asked Raka in a cold tone.

“You know? He killed himself. The girl killed herself, the girl who loved you with all her heart, hoping that your – puraan to her bore sweet fruit. But instead you dumped him.”, continued Raka back. .

“What do you mean?”, Rian stared at Raka intensely, he did not understand the meaning of this child.

“Don't act and put on a pretentious face in front of me.”

“What do you mean? Clear talk.”, urged Rian.

“Clara, my sister was found suicidal in her apartment on the day of your departure to Indonesia. You know that?”, Raka turned around clutching Rian's collar.

“What? Clara?”, Rian surprised.

This is new information for him. He doesn't know about this at all. Indeed, after moving to Indonesia, Rian cut off all existing relations in France including all his acquaintances. He no longer kept their numbers and deactivated his phone.

“Basic bastard.”, Raka who could not contain her anger began to hit Rian until her lips were injured and bleeding.”

“Tell me this is a lie. You're tricking me right?”, said Rian can't do anything.

“What I got by tricking you. Whahuh? My mom's crazy, she's stressed. What do you think I came here for? To tell you all this and go? You not only ruined my family but my life. What kind of friend are you?”, shouted Raka back

Rian remained silent. He was glued for a moment on a sofa in the room. Then he moved out of the apartment and closed the door. There was the sound of – items slammed from inside before the door closed perfectly.

Rian was silent in his room. He quickly rushed from the apartment to his home. What the hell is going on? He's right – really don't understand. What harm? The girl killed herself? Is that girl gone? His brain was unable to think clearly, his nerves seemed to be cut off until he stood up was no longer strong. Slowly she was crying.