My Ex-husband Lecturer
Chapter 39 Nightmares

“We're divorced. I'll hand over all the proceedings tomorrow to the court. Maybe it will not be too difficult, because when papa registered our marriage is also not too difficult.”

“....”, still quiet from his direction.

“You don't have to come. I'm sure this process will take place very quickly. Don't worry.”

“Sister Rian,”, just that word came out of this girl's lips.

Rian's heart is so sick right now. Either think of Kirana's heart or just her heart that can't let go.

“You have sent me home. I told my mom everything. After all, our marriage is a covenant between your father and my father. Your father is also divorced from your mother. So we no longer need to do this loveless marriage.”, Rian does not know if he really means like the sentence he said just now.

“You're kidding right, right?”, Kirana is trying to make sure whether the man in front of her is joking or not.

“I'm tired. You go home now. I'll book you a cab. Mumpung day is not yet late.”, then Rian left the girl just like that in the parking lot of the apartment.

He called a taxi and made sure the taxi would come to pick him up. Rian did not even give time to just wait for the taxi to come, deliver Kirana into the taxi, and make sure the girl was safe.

Rian's in. But actually he's not right – is right in. Rian was still putting himself at Kirana's reach so that he could still pay attention to her without the girl knowing at all.

Rian saw Kirana speechless in that place for 1 hour. She cried. Rian had no idea what he was crying about.

‘Didn't he like me?’, so Rian thought to himself.

Yep. They didn't like each other all this time. Indeed, they were already more familiar and used to each other in this short relationship. But not LOVE, right? He never said that. Never felt that way. Same with Kirana.

Rian was sure of that. The girl only made it a new shelter after her father had an affair with another woman and divorced her mother. This agreement becomes a shield, right for Kirana to take refuge in him.

Something new that makes it comfortable. But not LOVE. It's definitely not that.

At least that was the conclusion that Rian had drawn in his mind.

The next day, Rian was ready to go to the airport. This time it is not France. Going back to that country will only make it harder.

Thinking about France, Rian recalled Clara's promise. He still remembered that the girl had the intention to send him a letter. But, until now not a single letter Rian received.

So, not to France. This time the flight was to London. Rian has some friends there. She is one of the biggest contributors to her library gallery in France. Maybe he would be very disappointed to hear that library just collapses.

Before long, Rian's phone rang. The girl contacted him. Rian could see it from where he was standing now. Although Rian had seen Kirana standing still in the same place with her broken cries, Rian still had no intention of picking up her phone.

Rian turned it off. I don't know where Kirana knew about her flight. But Rian still did not want to try to pick up the phone despite seeing his sincerity.

He did not want Kirana's gaze, embrace, and warm touch to make her melt and heavy to leave the country. Everything can't be fixed. It's not the same anymore.

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“Hi, Rian.”, greet his partner from a distance.

“Hi, Good Night Dan”, Rian also greeted warmly.

The man landed safely in London. Along with the arrival of the plane's wheel footing to the land of London, at that time also all the memories and past that burdened his shoulders he threw away.

“You arrived safely. Want me to directly deliver to your new apartment?”, asked Dan, the man who became one of the best friends and main donor of the novel for his library.

The library is now a forgotten asset.

“Of course. But I'm a little hungry.”, said Rian holding his stomach.

“Good. You will get what you want.”, Dan said with passion.

*************

“You are married?”, asked Dan who did hear the news from close friends Rian.

Although her marriage in Indonesia is closed, sometimes Rian tucked the news into every conversation with colleagues as a joke. As if he was very sure that his partner could not easily believe him. They also live abroad.

“Ehm..well.”, replied Rian flat.

“Wow. Congrats.”, And immediately cheerfully welcomed the news.

“Then, why are you here?”, asked Dan this time with a confused face.

“We just divorced yesterday.”, replied Rian in a tone no less flat with the previous one.

“Oh What???.. This is not like you. Well, looks like we should change the topic. How about the library?”, ask Dan back.

“I originally wanted me to pull all my novels from France. But it turns out that on the way I found someone I could trust. Such is. At least I'll have a place if I go back there.”

“France is your life right?”

“You still know me well.”

“I've heard about your papa from a friend. I'm sorry.”

“Thanks.”

They exchange stories a lot. Even more when they had reached a French restaurant not far from Dan's company. He is a designer and programmer.

It was nice to exchange ideas with him. His insights are open and he is not as rigid as most people. Rian and Dan have been friends since they were in school in France. He was the first person Rian knew in France, a fellow Foreign student.

“What's your plan?”

“I want to open the same library as the one in France. And continue my education. It's just still waiting.”

“Waiting?”

“Entahlah. I honestly just wanted to calm myself down. So much is happening at the same time. I like just got a golden egg, and arrived – suddenly broke and then lost.”

“You are still like you used to be?”

“Hm?”

“Happy using the parable.”

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2 Years later

“Oh thanks. You are right – is really helpful to me. Once again I say thank you.” said Rian to someone on his phone, he will just enjoy the heat of coffee when his phone then again rang and rang.

Too busy. Rian is seen sitting casually on the balcony of his library. It's still in the same place, London.

The library is unlike any library in France that has many visitors. The concept used is the same. Either because of the location, but even though he has done research to increase visitors in his library, all of it seems to be in vain –.