My Ex-husband Lecturer
Chapter 85 Release from Guilt

“Ghe, where are you going?”, Radit asked after Ghea with half a run.

Ghea did not immediately look back and instead accelerated his pace. He was acting like he didn't hear Radit. The distance between them is not too far. Ghea quickly immediately sped up to take the headset in her right jeans pocket and put it to her ear.

Luckily, he was wearing a hoodie jacket so that his entire head was covered. Radit wouldn't know if he put the headset on. The problem is, Ghea did not have time to connect the headset to his phone.

Within a short time, Radit had already patted his shoulder.

“Ghea, geez I've called - call you from earlier. You do not hear?”, asked Radit while ngos - ngos-an.

Although he is known as one of the popular guys on campus and former BEM Chairman, Radit is not a typical sportsman. He could easily ngos - ngosan just by running small like earlier.

“Oh?”, it's time for Ghea to continue acting pure while removing the headset she had placed in her ear.

“Oh? Pantesan from earlier use a headset. That's why I don't listen. Though I've called - call you rich man possessed from earlier. Where are you going?”, asked Radit again repeating the question.

Ghea slightly scrunched his forehead. They were not in a relationship or closeness that made Ghea consider it natural to question Radit just now. Why does he know where he's going. Yeah, well, if it wasn't for Radit to want to know where Kirana is. During these two days, he did not get the desired answer.

“Lo can't be so dong. Raka you tell me and I don't. What's the difference?”, asked Radit who was able to re-arrange his breath well.

Ghea again scrunched her forehead. First, Raka and Radit were clearly different. Despite her status, but in the eyes of people, Raka is indeed Kirana's boyfriend. Second, when did Ghea tell Raka?

“Lo do not pretend - pretend bego so dong. I haven't seen Kirana in two days. Today, I haven't seen Raka all day. So, where are the two of you if you are not together.”, Radit said.

“Gue also does not know Kirana where.”, said Ghea while continuing his steps.

Radit followed Ghea's steps while continuing to ask her.

“You may not know. A Ghea? Even if you weren't Kirana's deception, I'm sure you'd still know. What is it on this campus that escapes your smell? Now, plis tell me. I don't want to be weird either. I'm just worried. Kirana's not sick, is she?” Radit asked.

Bingo.

Radit guessed right. Now, the two of them had arrived at the car park. In front of Ghea's car. Radit is still trying to stop Ghea from telling her.

Huh..

Ghea sighed for a while before starting her sentence.

“Appointments yes. You ain't gonna be weird. I know you like Kirana. But not the way either. Who will want if you make sure it is rich in stalkers like this.”, said Ghea warned.

Radit immediately swallowed his saliva because of the words Ghea right pierced his heart.

“Hm. yes.. Yeah, I'm not going to talk that way. After all, do you trust Raka more? You also know lately a lot of rumors that say Raka often to the nightclub? He's not really a guy for Kirana. What if he had a bad influence on Kirana? What if Kirana was invited to the club as well? How's it? Lo don't want it?”, Radit tried to corner Ghea with his opinion.

Ghea nodded - nodding.

“Iyaa. But, any girl except the ex-lo, of course, will ngibrit also if you make it as brutal as this.”, said Ghea.

“OK .. okay.. So, Kirana where? Her house? Why didn't he go to college? Pain or?”, asked Radit again asking a lot of questions. Looks like a free word - said Ghea just now.

He was going to continue his sentence. But Radit cut it off.

“Hah? Wh why? What pain? Severe ga?”, Radit did not stop raining a lot of questions.

“Aduhhh syut syut. Can ga, one by one nanya.”, said Ghea.

“Iya, yes already.. We are walking.”, said Radit casually.

He even walked to the door of Ghea's other car and gave a meaningful gaze asking Ghea to immediately unlock his car.

“Hah?”, Ghea directly speechless see that one guy.

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“If you want to be angry, get angry aja.”, said Rian approached.

“But later. If you have recovered.”, he said holding down the infusion pole that almost fell because Kirana threw the pillows that were there towards Rian.

Kirana looked at him intensely with the aura of anger she had. Rian took it well. His facial expression was flat and there was no meaningful response from him. After making sure the pole and the infusion hose were in good condition - fine, Rian took back the pillow - and placed it back on the mattress.

As Rian placed the final pillow behind Kirana's back to lean on, the girl hit him. Rian.

“You don't have to waste energy. You're still sick. We'll be in lunch soon. Sister will definitely come to deliver the food. You do not want them to see a scene like this.”, said Rian pulled a chair and sat there.

He also put down his bag.

“Ngapain here? Yesterday - yesterday who said to take care of each other's affairs? Yesterday who said to keep the attitude and stop looking into the past. Mr Rian?”, Kirana said with a sarcastic gaze and tone.

“Nothing has changed. I came here purely to look at you.”, replied Rian.

“Ngeselin.”, Kirana replied.

“You're okay? Why is it so late to eat?”, asked Rian.

“Sorry, it's none of your business. Thanks for the visit.”, replied Kirana then lay her body down and covered it with a blanket.

“Ran, yesterday for the first time I talked to my mom again. Hehm, mama says I don't need to call him ‘mama’ anymore because our family has no relationship anymore. At that moment I realized. When I made that decision, I didn't think it was just about the two of us at all. But also our family.”, Rian chose to keep talking. No matter Kirana heard it or not.

“At first I decided to never return to Indonesia. Memories of papa, memories of you and our marriage. I guess I have to pay for all my guilt to Clara. But, when the dean asked me to return to fill the lecturer vacancies on campus, I was in a dilemma. Despite fighting with my own opinion, I finally accepted it. It is impossible to meet Kirana, there is no way the world can be that narrow, the campus is also quite far from your home and it seems as long as we are married I have never heard you want this campus. But, our meeting back then made me happy at once guilty.”, explained Rian.

“At that time I thought, maybe by being in the same environment as you, I could soon forget you. But, I didn't realize that in the end I was also avoiding you. Until finally the situation makes us meet again and be close. I realized, it's not as easy as I thought. No, it's not all that easy. I'm not not interested in you, Ran. But, every time you pulled me, that moment also my guilt towards Clara pulled me back.”, said Rian.

“Without me knowing, I put you in a difficult position. While it is not entirely your fault.”, said Rian.

“That's not Rian's fault either. I know, I'm not supposed to hide those letters. But, I know maybe I'll sound selfish saying this to brother. But, after I remember - remember the contents of the letter - the letter, will everything be different from now? If Brother Rian receives the letters, Clara does not make the same decision?”, Kirana opens the blanket, but she still does not want to face Rian.

“Hm. Clara may have already put that decision as the final decision. That's why he chose to send me a letter instead of directly contacting me.”