Not I'm the Choice
5

For months Hana had missed, Desi's stomach had now begun to bulge. And Satria is increasingly concerned with Desi, even when Hana was pregnant with Amel. Satria had never been so attentive to him, making envy and jealousy sometimes appear in him.

Stupidly, who should get Satria's full attention? He was not the Desi that Satria loved so much.

Hana always found the two who were making out and it always made her chest throbbing pain, it was very painful. One roof with a wife whose husband loves.

Hana sat down to look at the peaceful face of Amel's sleep after crying because she wanted to go with Satria but the man refused, Hana's hand raised to stroke Amel's head gently.

"I'm sorry mom, son. Mama can't be a good mother to Amel. If Amel has grown up later, Amel must be a successful person yes, mama will always pray for the best for you."

Unknowingly her tears were falling, why was her life so miserable? His son did not even get affection from his father, from birth until now. Hana doesn't care if Satria hates her, but Hana can't if Satria hates her child.

***

Finally we reached the last ladder. Hana sighed, putting her mop into the basin. His hands raised rubbed the sweat that poured around his face and neck, cleaning the house alone was indeed very tiring.

"Hana." hearing her name being called, the woman turned her head up, where there was Desi smiling towards her.

With a smile still imprinted on his lips, Desi came down the stairs enthusiastically. "Hana, my baby was berge– arkhh!"

"Sat!"

Brakes

"Desi, jesus!" Hana was increasingly panicked, when she saw blood flowing from Desi's thigh.

"We have to go to the hospital, now." Hana tries to help Desi wake up. However, it always failed because Desi's body that kept writhing whimpered in pain.

"H-hana Pain. I-I'm not strong, it's s-sick as a-arghh."

"You can, Desi. I'll bring-in

"DESI!"

Hana's words came to a halt as the sound of shouting boomed through the house, Satria walked in haste. His face looked very panicked when he saw Desi's blood-soaked body, not to mention hearing the agonizing groans of the woman he loved.

"What are you doing, damn it!" Satria growled and thoughtless immediately kicked Hana's stomach until the body collided with the iron ladder handle.

Satria immediately grabbed Desi's weak body in her arms, "Please hold on for a while, I'll take you to the hospital as soon as possible" he said softly before finally standing up.

Before actually going to take Desi to the hospital, Satria stared intently at Hana and said. "If anything happens to Desi and my son, you will feel the consequences." afterwards, Satria actually left Hana with a lump of pain and guilt to Desi.

Satria was even so worried about Desi, it was only natural. Because Desi is his love child, for three years married to Satria, never once did the man display a sense of concern for her. Even Satria never asked how she was, yes maybe Hana was wrong because she had become the third person between Satria and Desi.

Hana looked down, staring at the blood of Desi splattered under the floor. Then immediately in the mop until clean.

At eleven o'clock in the night, Hana was completely unable to sleep due to thinking about Desi's current state. She was very worried about the pregnant woman, even though Desi was the second wife of her husband. But Hana knew that Desi was such a good woman, she even often confided in Hana, she was such a cheerful woman. It's like having friends when Desi is here.

Although sometimes Hana likes to envy Desi because she is the only woman for Satria to love.

"HANA!"

Hana gasped in surprise when she heard the thunderous scream, she immediately came out of the room towards the living room where there was Satria who stood with a flat face so sharp glazed on her, she immediately came out from the room to the living room, made Hana tremble in fear in her place.

"Knight." call Hana, but there's no response from the owner.

"Knight, what about Desi? I'm very worried–

Plaques

Hana flinched as one slap she got from Satria all of a sudden, she held the next to her cheek in a quiver.

"Stop the charade, damn it. I'm sick of seeing it!"

Satria pulls Hana's hair violently and corners her against the wall, and suffocating her makes it difficult for Hana to breathe. The woman's hand tried to release Satria's strangulation on her neck. But his efforts are only in vain, because there is Satria even more strengthen the giggles.

"Because of you, I lost my son. Goddamnit!"

Hana widened her eyes not believing Satria's words, "B-no. I didn't do it."

Hana shook her head, rejecting all the accusations Satria had leveled at her. He is not a murderer, Hana is not cruel to kill a child who does not have sin with cruelty.

"Killer! Just die, die!" yelled Satria along with that she pushed Hana's body until it hit the glass table late in her head making fresh blood flow profusely.

Satria pushed Hana's body down the floor, and again pulled the woman's hair while continuously kicking Hana's stomach nonstop.

"Father!" Satria stopped her depraved actions, glancing at Amel who was standing at the end of the sofa.

"Why hit mommy bloody like that?" Amel again made a sound, he looked confusedly at Hana who was already helpless.

"N-no, Amel why are you here? Come on baby we're in the room, you're sleeping again." said Satria softly, bringing Amel to the room.

"Why hit mom? Bad mama huh?"

"Amel was a child, yet he understood the affairs of the great man. Amel went on to sleep, papa temenin."

Amel could only nod, though he was still confused by the incident he had just seen. Satria rubbed Amel's hair, his eyes closed thinking about the condition of Desi who is now in the hospital. Also Hana who was left in the guest room with a body full of wounds.

***

Hana woke up from her sleep, errant her meaning from her stupor. Hana had not even had time to treat her injuries, the clock had shown at four in the morning, immediately Hana went to her room to clean herself and treat the wounds all over her body.

Hana fell silent again when she recalled Satria's remark last night that Desi had lost her son, Desi must have been devastated. Did Hana visit him? But, Satria let him go?

But, Hana still recklessly went to see the state of Desi with Amel who also went with her, both of them went to use a taxi. No matter what Satria will get angry or even hit him.

"Mama Desi."

Amel ran small towards Desi who was being fed by Satria, he quickly shifted his gaze when Satria looked at him sharply.

"Mama Desi has given birth to baby grandpa? Why is her stomach so gini?" Desi was speechless when she heard Amel's question, she gave a small glance at Satria beside her.

"Dear apel, the baby's dedek has been taken by God because God is too affectionate with the baby's grandpa."

Amel was silent for a moment to hear Satria's words, "Means god does not love Amel dong? Amel was not taken by God like a baby's grandpa."

"That's not what it means, dear, God also loves the same Amel. That's why Amel became a smart and strong boy. Because God loves Amel." now Desi recalls, he stroked Amel's long hair with love.

Afterwards, Desi glanced at Hana who was still standing on the doorstep. "Hana, come on in."

Hana who had been silent before looked at the family, again began to realize.

"Satria came out for a while and took Amel to play, and I wanted to talk to Hana." Satria let out a long sigh, she glanced briefly at Hana then carried Amel.

"I'm out first." before actually leaving, Satria took the time to kiss Desi's old forehead dear.

Hana quickly turned her face away, her lips smiling faintly. He had never once been treated like that by Satria.

"Desi, I'm sorry." Now in that room there's only Hana and Desi right now.

Desi shook her head, "It's not your fault, I'm the one who ran and wasn't careful, I'm sorry because of me you have to get all this." desi's hand was raised to stroke Hana's forehead with a wound.

"It's okay, I deserve this. I'm also the one who can't take care of you, but Satria has already entrusted you to me, I'm sorry Desi." Hana looked down full of regret.

"He went before he saw the world, God loved him so much. Though yesterday I was just happy to feel his kick and now he's gone and left me." Desi lowered her head, her tears were now pouring down.

"I understand it must be very painful, I'm also a mother. You can make your complaints to me, I'll always hear them." Hana stroked Desi's shoulders gently, giving her a bit of strength.

"Thank you, Hana, even when I was the third person in your household. You stay good to me, God made you out of what? Why are you so nice?" Desi looked at Hana with a smile that carved her lips.

"There's no good man in the world, if anything it's not good but he's a patient man."

"I envy you, Hana. You are so strong with all the problems and injuries you get, you even accept them and never give up, if I were you I might have killed myself for a long time." Hana could only smile a little at hearing that.

Without both of them realizing, that from earlier there was someone who heard all the talk of the two.