Not I'm the Choice
9

"Look at him he's really shameless, I heard his dad has a wife of two."

"really? Oh lord! Is his first wife silent?"

"My father knew his family, and said they were married because Amel's mother was pregnant first."

"Isn't he? Means Amel's bastard dong? But her mother was also kasian yes, surely her heart ached to see her husband remarry."

"But I heard she's a bad mother for killing her second wife's child."

"Also I heard the rumor that his first wife was a little crazy."

Amel went on without any intention of listening to the whispers of the useless people. He occupied himself in the seat of the stop.

This is why Amel hates his own mother, he is always bullied for his mother's reasons. She hates Hana, she even forgets all the services Hana did during her childhood up until now. Amel even had few friends because some of them went away on the grounds that Amel was born to the mother of a murderer, or even a prostitute. Amel hates it, he hates his mama.

"Your bowed face, makes me know that you're angry right now." Amel flinched, glanced towards the voice and then sighed.

"Now, drink." Cakra, the young man's name was a loyal friend Amel had, he thrust a bottle of drink and received Amel.

"Thank you."

"Is your relationship with your mother the same?"

"I don't even have the intention to fix it, she made me like this, she's a gaga– mom

"Don't you ever tell your mother that, she's gonna be so hurt to hear that. I heard from my mother, your mother is sick, right?"

"I don't know, but this morning she wasn't cooking as usual."

Cakra is the son of Fanny, Cakra lives in Indonesia with her grandmother while her parents are in Japan. His parents were busy working there, but Cakra did not blame him because he thought as long as his father and his mother were always there when he really needed.

"Your mother was a good person, I'm sure. My mother and my mother were friends for a long time and she always told me about your mother, she was a cheerful and very kind person and also gentle, maybe you just haven't noticed it yet."

Amel fell silent, looking blankly at the mineral water given Cakra. His gaze was distracted at the droplets of dew water that began to fall from above the sky, "I came home first, my invitation has come."

***

Tomorrow the final exam will begin and after that graduation will be done, he should focus on studying, at this time. Amel was staying up late to memorize all the lessons that tomorrow will definitely be in the test.

Because I feel thirsty. Amel went out of the room to the kitchen to get a drink. While drinking, Amel saw Hana's room sitting down while looking at a picture frame.

"I'm sorry if I'm a bad mother to you, Amel baby."

***

Hana was running without caring about the surrounding people, she ran without wearing footwear. His face was crying, his eyes showing a strong fear. Hana continued to run even several times hit the pedestrians, until finally stopped in front of the hospital building.

Last afternoon Hana had just finished cleaning the house and suddenly got a call from school that Amel collapsed and was taken to the hospital, without a second thought. Hana ran even forgot to wear footwear so that made her legs hurt, but the wound she did not feel at all.

"I want to meet Amelia's patient" Hana told the receptionist.

"The room is on the right side." Hana left immediately after getting the direction from the receptionist.

"Mama Amel's head is dizzy, hikss."

"No, Amel doesn't like to take medicine, bitter."

"Amel wants mam if there's a papa, want mam in papa's bribe."

Hana's tears were dripping endlessly as the image of Amel in pain first flashed across her head, Amel whining to her as her head felt dizzy, Amel who always asked her to sing when the little girl wanted to sleep and Amel who was always spoiled and wanted to be carried by her continued. Now that she heard that her son had fallen unconscious before even starting his exam, how did Hana not worry. During this week, the child is sleep deprived rarely eat, the worry is getting bigger.

Chequelek

The door opened and the person inside turned in unison towards the door which immediately looked at Hana with a strange look, but Hana chose indifferently because her focus is now only on her daughter who looks pale despite being aware of her stings. The infusion needle attached to the back of her hand made Hana grimace, remembering once that Amel was very afraid of injecting.

"Amel, are you okay? Oh my God, my mom is so worried about you." Hana walked closer making some friends Amel chose to retreat away.

Gently rubbing Amel's forehead, Hana again made a sound. "Had my mom told me not to stay up late and to push myself too hard to learn, look at you until you faint. Amel's mom is worried." Hana wiped her tears and smiled faintly looking at Amel, while Satria and Desi who were there just kept quiet and looked at each other.

"Amel, is that your mother?" one of Amel's blond girlfriends asked.

"Yes, I'm Amel's mother." said Hana with a smile, but seeing the expression of Amel's face made her smile instantly fade.

"Why did you come here?" amel asked with a face bent.

"Hem? Of course mama came, mama worried seka–

"I don't need that, nor do I have a mother like you. I just have Desi's mom and that's enough, I don't need any more."

Everyone inside was shocked to hear Amel's words, especially Hana. Even he fell silent, enduring the pain in his heart.

"Amel, don't talk like that, baby." scolded Desi who just got a crack.

"It's okay, Desi. Amel may just be tired, it's okay." said Hana a little bit of pangs at the end of his speech.

"I want you out of my sight, I'm sick of seeing you." growled Amel, staring hard at Hana.

Both of Amel's friends had finally come out of Amel's room because Satria had told them to, while Hana was still silently looking at Amel.

"Amel, is it really okay, son? Is there anything Amel feels?" hana asked, ignoring Amel's sarcasm.

"I told you to go, goddamn it!" amel's yelling made Hana flinch, Desi saw it immediately grab Amel's body and gently rubbed his shoulder.

"Amel, don't be. Calm yourself, baby."

Amel let out a long sigh and slowly threw it away, "I'm hungry."

"Eat this." Satria took the plastic food she ordered earlier and stored it on the nightstand beside the mattress occupied by Amel.

"Let mama feed ya, dear." Hana's hand was about to reach the food parcel.

Brakes

"I SAID GET OUT OF HERE, DAMN IT! ARE YOU DEAF?!"

Amel gasped as Amel pushed his body down to the floor.

"Amel!"

"What, huh?!"

"It's okay. Desi, don't yell at him. Amel is sick, please let you feed him eat yes, then Amel, mama go ya."

"Desi, I'll be out for a minute. " Hana offended a smile, then went out and disappeared from the three people.

Satria stopped her steps when she saw Hana sitting in an iron chair near Amel's room alone, Hana was seen crying while squeezing her clothes. Satria lowered her head down Hana's bloodied legs, silent for a while before Satria finally left.