Not Struggled (R4)
BDJ 113: LET'S FINISH UP HERE
In Islam, the law of committing adultery is a great sin. Therefore, Allah Azza Wajalla has warned His people not to approach adultery even once, as stated in His firm in Al-isra verse 32 which reads, Wa laa taqrobuz - zinaaa innahuu kaana faahisyah, wa saaa - a sabiilaa. The meaning of the verse is, “and do not approach adultery; (zina) it is indeed a heinous deed, and a path that hunts.”
The Prophet Sallalahu Alaihi Wasallam also mentioned a poignant threat to the perpetrators of adultery. “Take from me, take from me, verily Allah has given them a way out (punishment) (pezina). Jejaka and the virgin who fornicates her law a hundred times and seclusion for one year. While the widower and widow of his law derah a hundred times and stoning,” hadith Muslim history.
And when a person has already committed adultery, then the woman is pregnant, then Allah Azza Wajalla will revoke his favor as a woman. Women who commit adultery, will be easily pregnant. Even in many cases, in one time to have sex, can immediately get pregnant. This is inversely proportional to couples who are officially married in the eyes of religion and the State. Then the question arises why women who get pregnant out of wedlock can easily hide their pregnancy? can you easily move like not a pregnant woman? Can you give birth normally? All that the answer is only one, which has been revoked favor and nature as a woman.
The nature of the woman there are three, namely pregnant, giving birth, and breastfeeding. In his third pose, there is a struggle that cannot be underestimated. It is this struggle that makes a woman special.
“Haha, the feeling from earlier is not finished - yes, the lecture.” Feeling uncomfortable with the topic that has been discussed since, Leon chose to turn off the radio broadcast that had made the atmosphere in the car awkward.
The journey from Jakarta to Bandung feels so slow, even though the Cipularang toll road is quite slow. The vehicle that carried them also drove quite fast.
“It's okay, after all it's a pretty good topic to discuss,” said the beautiful woman next to him who has since chosen to take a look out the window. “In the religion you profess, apparently the law concerning the honor of women is very concerned.”
Again Leon could only laugh crisply while scratching his nape. He also did not know why suddenly the radio broadcast that was airing a question and answer between the radio announcer and viewers at home, suddenly changed into a chat smelling of religion, religion, as the topic published is also a topic commonly discussed by Ustadz and ustadzah in the assembly of taklim.
As a result their journey is now so colored by awkwardness. Though initially the excitement coloring their trip home to Bandung. After staying for a few days at Radityan's residence, they were finally able to return home. Davian said the situation and conditions were safe and quite convincing. So, Lea can get out of Radityan's protection. Davian also gave assurances that nothing would happen, as long as he said it was safe.
“Leon,” call Lea.
“Iya, why? you need something?”
“You're a good man.”
From behind the wheel, Leon seemed to be frowning deeply. What does Leah mean? No wind, no rain, he said Leon was good.
“You are a good man, although from the outside people can be wrong in judging you. But, you actually have a soft and sincere heart.”
“Why suddenly discuss this topic?” ask Leon. As if having a good instinct, Leon adar if this conversation will end up unpleasant, so he chose to enter the rest area. It seems they need time to talk.
“You are too good for me, the woman who has been living in a world that is too free and disgusting.”
Leon hardened his jaw when he managed to bring the vehicle he drove into the rest area. “Actually what do you want to talk about?”
Lea turned her head, looking directly at Leon. “I want to apologize.”
“Sorry for what?”
“For everything,” concluded Lea. “For your wasted time during this time, also for the energy you spent to protect me.”
Leon was stunned to hear it. The noise that was present from outside the car, was not at all audible in his ears. Only Lea's voice was so clearly heard there.
“Gue does not understand. I sold all that because ...gue mau.”
“Every wish has a reason,” says Lea. He can still talk calmly, even though his interlocutors have started to fall apart. “And I was too afraid of not being able to meet the expectations that are the reason you do all that.”
“….”
“So...” Lea looked at Leon fixedly with a small smile on her back. “Let's finish up here.”
“Means?” Leon faced Lea completely. The seat belt has also been removed so that it is more flexible to move.
Finish what? their relationship has not started. Leon would like to say that. But, he still did not have enough guts.
“I decided to go back.”
“What's back? aren't we going back?”
Lea shook her head. “I'll be back, not us.”
“….”
Rubbing the surface of his stomach that began to bulge, Lea again said. “I want us to finish up here, Leon. I don't want to be the source of the pain you feel later on.”
“Gue who will be sick, you do not need to worry,” said Leon.
Lea shook her head. “So soon the presence of this baby will be known by his father, or maybe even already known by his father. I don't want you to interfere any further. Father of this baby is a troublesome person.”
Leah knew very well the habits of the father of the baby she was carrying. The man has a thin patience, so it can break at any time. Not to mention the fact that the man really does not like if what is his is touched, or noticed by others.
Lea is too afraid to bring the kind-hearted Leon into her toxic life. Leon deserves to fight for the fine women who are definitely a lot out there. It wasn't like Lea that it was still hard to find a way to get out of the devil's noose from the past.
“Thank you for coming and helping us through the tough times lately. Thanks to you, I don't feel lonely anymore in this country.”
Leon should have had a chance to force Lea. However, he does not want to be a selfish man by imposing his will. A lot of people have warned him. It would be difficult to expect a romance with someone who is not finished with his past.
“OK if that's what you want,” Leon said in the end. Then he re-enforced the body, facing forward, then reattached the seat belt. His face did not appear to be displaying any expression. “But I have one request.”
Leah remained in her position when answering Leon's words. “What is that request?”
“Let me always be by your side as long as you guys are still in this country.”
“Leon,” Ogre Lea. “Later you will get sicker..”.
“No going,” cetus Leon. “This is the path I chose. Whatever the risk, it's my responsibility. You're pretty sure. Consider this the last request of a childish man who falls in love with someone else's.”
Falling in love is hard. It's hard, complicated, and weird. However, he can choose when to stop loving, when the person he is waiting for can no longer be expected. But, it all comes back to the fact, that not forever love should have. Love is based on imbalance. Falling in love is like hurting yourself. Must be ready to get sick and fall on their own, as well as find their own cure.
Leon remembers the song Can I be Him by James Arthur. A song that is perfect for his current position.
Could I be the on you talk about in all your stories.
Can I be him?
I heard there was someone but I know he don’t desire you.
If you were mine I’d never let anyone hurt you, no, no.
(Can I be the person you talk about in each of your stories?
Can I be him?
I heard there was someone, but I knew he didn't deserve you.
If you were mine, I would never let anyone hurt you, no, no.)
“I love you, even though u're not mine (I love you, even though you are not mine),” muttered Leon after tens of minutes passed by in silence. The pregnant woman beside him also seemed to have fallen asleep from exhaustion.
However, who would have thought that the murmur could still be caught by the ears of the pregnant woman beside him.
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Response 09-11-22