Retaliation of the Sick Wife
Feel Guilty
“I'm sorry, Mas,” Kanaya said as soon as she arrived at her husband's room.
There was a feeling of guilt in his heart for not doing what Mother Hesti had just said. Indeed, there was currently an upheaval in his heart, but of course Kanaya had her own considerations.
“You do not need to apologize, Darling .. rest assured, Mommy said just now because it has its own considerations. It's okay,” Reply Bhishma.
Without taking long, Kanaya entered into the arms of her husband. Drenched her face with tears there into the chest of her husband's field. The woman sobbed.
“It feels like I'm an ungodly son-in-law and don't follow what my in-laws want. It's just, honestly .. I'm not ready to have a baby anymore. All the feelings in my heart were so turbulent. Losing Aksara makes me afraid to have children if I eventually have to go back to losing,” said Kanaya.
Yes, as a mother who lost her child can no longer be described how the pain and pain in her heart. No matter how many tears came out, no matter how many long nights he went through without being able to close his eyes, as if it was not enough to describe how painful he felt this time.
Kanaya was still lucky, even though she was so depressed, but she was able to hold on. If not, it is possible that Kanaya could have a mental disorder. Can no longer rise as she is today, and Kanaya admits that she can get to this stage because of her husband. Yes, Bhishma is such a wonderful man for Kanaya. The man, who kept on motivating Kanaya to rise, led Kanaya to complain more and rely on God alone. It is inconceivable how it would have been if not Bhishma had accompanied him.
“No Darling .. You also only express your feelings. Mother has her own view, you are the same. So, no problem. All the problems we can pass together, right?” sahut Bisma's.
“Iya, Mas .. thank you for always understanding me. Even when I am in pain, you always stand up and understand me. Even when I don't understand you, you stand beside me and understand me with all my shortcomings and weaknesses.”.
Kanaya realizes how her household has been covered in gray since the disappearance of Aksara. There are days when Kanaya dissolves into deep pain, there are days when the second household is no longer warm, there were days when his head felt so broken and his heart felt so claustrophobic, but surely all day Bhishma stood by Kanaya's side, with her. Accepting all of Kanaya's flaws and weaknesses.
Bisma shook her head slowly, “No problem Dear .. didn't I promise that I will always be by your side, accompanying you. I'll prove all that. By hand-in-hand, we will be able to get through all this. Just trust that pseudo will be beautiful in his time,” reply Bhishma.
“I'm sorry for this lack. Forgive me for being too late with my pain and this loss wound is making me ignore my obligation as a wife,” said Kanaya.
Kanaya is very self-conscious that the last few days, she has been quite ignorant. Kanaya was lucky because Bhishma was very patient to accompany her. Bhishma is not not not demanding, just demanding when the heart is so painful and upset, it feels even more to make his wife fall down in a hole so deep. Instead of suppressing Kanaya, Bisma chose to sacrifice herself and continue to accompany Kanaya.
“No Darling .. You never ignore. I realized that we still need a lot of time to organize our hearts and minds. No problem, I never mind at all. As long as you can always be with you, live the days by having each other like this, it is enough for me,” said Bisma.
Again Bhishma showed that the man was so patient, yes Bhishma had a heart as wide as the ocean. Being able to accept anything about Kanaya, even that man never complained. Bhishma always positioned himself to support his wife.
Kanaya was so sorry. For all that, Kanaya apologized to her husband right then and there. While there was time to apologize, Kanaya sincerely apologized to her husband.
“Iya Darling .. forgive me. This is all I can do. I still can't find our Script. However, I promise that I will find her soon,” Bhishma said solemnly.
“Iya Mas .. we will continue to search and get information about Aksara. Hopefully soon there will be a bright spot where our son is,” said Kanaya.
Bisma sighed, her hand moving to rub Kanaya's back. Yes, even if it was just her touch and embrace, Bisma really hoped that everything could relieve Kanaya, slightly reducing the tightness that was squeezing Kanaya.
“I hope, Aksara will be healthy and happy out there. If, later we could meet with Aksara, I really hope that Aksara will have a nature and character like you. You are a very kind man, so patient, and as if God bestows all the goodness in you,” Kanaya replied.
Having Bhishma as her husband was a gift to Kanaya. For this reason, Kanaya also hopes that her son will grow into a person who inherits all the good qualities and characters owned by her husband.
Slowly Bhishma smiled, “You praised me too much Darling.
“In my eyes, you remain the best, Mas,” Kanaya said quickly.
“I hope Aksara grows into a good person of course, sensitive to the people around him, and most importantly he can be a responsible man,” added Bisma.
“Amins. Hope so. Huhh, I always count the days that pass. Dreaming that Aksara came to me, scattered in my arms. Mas baby Aksara is no longer a baby, but it is big for sure now,” reply Kanaya.
“Iya Darling .. we both count days together. If not today means the day after tomorrow, if not broad yes means next week again, we will wait together. Okay?” Bisma.
“Iya Mas .. always wait for the best time and hope our characters will be found soon. Amin,” reply Kanaya.
Really hope to be a support system for each other. Experiments in life can come and change. However, husband and wife can fill each other, support, and continue to accompany each other. Thus, whatever was ahead, whatever transverse aral could continue to be overcome. Having a heart that is equally open, relying on God, and continuing to rely on prayer, just as Kanaya and Bhishma do today.