Sharing Love: The First Wife's Pilu Story
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The arrival of Bu Risma not only defended Sabrina in front of Mahesa who continued to corner her, but also made her more excited for the sake of her baby who will be present.  The crossroads of the world that he went through many years, and this is according to Sabrina the most severe test after losing both his parents and his honor, where he had to be mentally strong to face his surroundings alone. No support from the husband, the affection of all the closest people vanished because of the distance. But there is something even stranger after Miss Risma came home, Mahesa deliberately showed off her affection with Camelia in the living room. Seemingly dissatisfied to make Sabrina cry, now the man is testing his patience which has its limits. 

"Where are you going?" mahesa. 

Sabrina who had arrived at the doorway stopped her steps without even wanting to turn her head. Deliberately passed and did not want to be reprimanded, but instead, deliberately Mahesa said hello. 

"Front of Mas, in the heat" he answered briefly. Shake his hand.

Unable to see the husband and wife kiss in front of him, even though he is not loved, Mahesa should keep his feelings as an old wife. 

The sound of the thump of shoes and the floor was getting closer, Sabrina could only stay in place, waiting for the drama moreover that her husband and honey would make. 

"You jealous?" camelia's chirp was right in Sabrina's ear. 

Sabrina held back her tears that were about to break. Trying to stay strong in front of Camelia, though she is very fragile and wants to crumble. 

"No! because I know, Mahesa's love is only for you, I'm just hitchhiking here, and I don't have a right to it. So relax, I will not take Mahesa from you" Sabrina explained. 

Sabrina's heart felt pierced by a nail as it uttered. Although her lips spoke like that, in reality she felt very ill seeing her husband with another woman, hypocritical. Another word in the heart, yes, but what power. Sabrina was just a human being, and the covenant was really binding on her to not act. 

"Good, that means you are also ready to part from Mas Mahesa." he licked. 

What should I say, I don't want to be separated from Mahesa, I'm afraid my son will be scorned by people if he finds out he's an out-of-wedlock child.

This time Sabrina turned her back to look at Camelia fixedly. 

"Fool in the hand of God, so I cannot say, if Allah wills me to part with Mas Mahesa, it may be the best way. But if you don't, you have to accept, because we humans can only plan, but God determines."

After speaking Sabrina continued her steps towards Bi Asih who was in the back garden. Camelia came back in. With her face restraining her emotions the woman approached Mahesa. 

"Mas, __" whine Camelia. 

Mahesa put down the TV remote she was holding, then stared fixedly at the face of the woman she loved since college. 

"Didn't you hear Sabrina's words, she won't part from you. Don't you intend to divorce her?"

Mahesa's face was lethargic when she heard the word divorce. I don't know, even though he did not love Sabrina, his heart felt hard to separate, especially his mother who used to hate Sabrina now slowly began to accept the presence of the girl. 

There was a gaze that Camelia did not understand, Mahesa seemed hesitant to say, as if the question was something that her husband did not like. 

"Here you are in power, so don't worry, Sabrina won't be able to take your position. You and him are very different, so don't be afraid, I'm going to make him not feel at home here." Mahesa. 

The clock had shown at seven o'clock in the evening, but there was no sign of Mahesa coming out of her room, but the food was ready. Sabrina was waiting in the dining room.

"Is Mas Mahesa asleep?"  Sabrina stared occasionally at the second floor hoping her husband would show up. 

A day full of busy work and heart, Sabrina felt very hungry, but she did not want to be presumptuous and still waiting for the husband. 

Bi Asih who felt pity was approaching the sabrina who looked agitated. 

"If you're hungry, eat first."

"I'll wait for Mas Mahesa, Bi."

Just coming out, laughter sounded from the end of the stairs. It turned out that Mahesa and Camelia were looking very happy.

Sabrina moved from her seat to Mahesa and Camelia.

"Mas, dinner's ready. Do you want to eat now?" sabrina is friendly. 

Camelia looked at Sabrina with a cynical look. 

"Unfortunately Mas Mahesa does not want to eat with you. You should know yourself, you are carrying someone else's child and using the Mahesa mas as a mask. So don't be so confident, you're nothing more than trash."

Again only the insults that Sabrina received from her honey, and it seems this time Sabrina is not strong enough to face the reality of her life. 

After Mahesa and Camelia's backs passed, Sabrina looked for a place to lean. The woman spilled her tears that had already piled up on the fertilizer. 

"I am indeed useless, I present only give shame to mas Mahesa, I should have left this house. And I should be ready to bear the burden of my life without involving Mas Mahesa." Sabrina murmured. 

Sabrina had not closed her eyes last night. Her heart was so troubled considering Camelia's insults. Blindly leavened, finished the Fajr Prayer, Sabrina exited her room towards Mahesa's room. 

Without hesitation Sabrina knocked on the door of her husband's room which still looked dark. 

Three beats at last the door opened wide, Mahesa opened it. 

No question, Mahesa turned her face the other way. I don't want to look at Sabrina's pretty face.

"Mas, I want to stay alone" Sabrina said. 

After thinking hard, Sabrina wanted to leave Mahesa instead of continuing to be the ingredients of her honey. 

"Tell up." Mahesa replied briefly. 

"But I want to buy you a house to stay in, because I don't want to stay in a parlor."

Mahesa's heart was a little filled to hear Sabrina's words, but her love for Camelia was greater until the man brushed aside his feelings. 

"You're ready to leave this house, which means you're ready to bear the consequences."

Sabrina let out a long breath and exhaled slowly.

"I'm ready, and if we're not a match, I'm ready to divorce me."

"Well, I'll buy you a house."

Mahesa went back in and closed the door to her room again. Leaving Sabrina in front of her room. 

Between happiness mixed with pain, finally Sabrina began to step with her own goals. His fear began to fade and wanted to struggle alone to take care of his unborn son. 

For what I survived, while Mas Mahesa only looked at me one eye. May this be the best path for me and my son. Sabrina's heart.