Sharing Love: The First Wife's Pilu Story
Looking for Aya

Randu is still at war with his brain. Many times he rejected a sense of regret in his heart. Aya's departure turned out to change the atmosphere of the house a hundred percent. The crumbly voice now he could not hear, only memories were left behind, after Mahesa Dan Sabrina returned home, Randu continued to be alone, contemplating what was happening.

Bored in the room, Randu finally came out of his room. 

Just a few hours Aya left the house, Randu was confused to hear his two children whining to each other, if Raisya asked to be accompanied by play, David who just woke up from his nap was already excited when the milk did not come. Bi Nori, the housekeeper tried to persuade Raisya, but it was only in vain because Raisya wanted to be with his father. 

"For a moment, son."

Randu looked nervous as David's crying voice grew louder. 

Bi Nori lifted David's body from his crib and calmed him down, to no avail. David did not let down his voice. 

"Bi, this is David's milk." Randu offered a bottle of milk to his second son, after which he approached Raisya who had already washed his lips. 

"Others what, honey?" ask Randu gently. 

Very simply, Raisya pointed at some of his puppets who had not yet put on clothes and asked Randu to help him. 

With painstakingly Randu fulfills Raisya's request even though it is occasionally wrong, but Randu still tries to be the best for his daughter.

Randu looked at Raisya who from earlier did not display his sweet smile. 

"Raisya why the hell?" ask Randu.

"Mama Aya," Raisya answered briefly.

Like adults, Raisya only harbors a sense of uneasiness that settles. 

Randu put away all of Raisya's toys and raised his tiny body carrying it into his lap. 

"Did Isya love Mama Aya?" asked Randu in a soft voice. 

The boy nodded without a sound. 

"Will I see Mama Aya again?" ask Randu for the second time. 

Bi Nori who was not far from Randu only smiled when he heard Randu's words.

"You, Dad." So happy Raisya jumped and hugged Randu tightly. 

"If Aden is indeed in love with Non Aya, it is better for Aden to speak honestly, rather than late, and Aden regrets," said Bi Nori. 

"Bi, I already have two children. Do I still deserve Aya?" ask Randu.

Bi Nori sat in front of Randu with David still moaning. "That could judge it was only Aden and Non Aya. How was Aden's heart when Non Aya left?" Bi Nori asked probing, although his heart had already guessed the answer, but Bi Nori wanted to listen directly to the answer from Randu. 

I have to be honest, maybe with this I'll know what to do.

"Actually I don't want him to leave here, Bi. But I also have no right to prevent it, she has her own future, and neither do I." 

"That means Aden likes Non Aya. It's just that Aden is too naive to admit it" Bi Nori's great-grandson without a trite ado. 

Randu stroked the nape of his neck, he blushed in embarrassment at Bi Nori's speech. 

"Quick! Now Aden phone non Aya,"Bi Nori's request.

"Isya same aunt first yes, later I return." 

Randu got up and walked towards Raisya's room, it seemed like it was a very comfortable place to talk.

Randu opened his phone screen and contacted Aya just like Bi Nori wanted.

Connected, but there is no answer, until Randu repeated it many times and the result is the same, there is no answer from across there. Finally, Sandu sent a short message. 

"Are you mad at me, Ay. Why don't you pick up the phone?" The more frustrated, his brain has begun to cloud with various pressures. Guilt began to fill him. 

As Randu put his phone on the nightstand, he saw something familiar in his eyes. A debit card belonging to Aya that he gave a few days ago. 

"It belongs to Aya. Why could it be here? Maybe he took the money?" 

Randu again grabbed his phone and checked Aya's card, it was not as expected, even the money he transferred was still intact, it means Aya did not take a penny from him. 

Now Randu only realized, that the trigger for Aya's departure was not because of his salary or child, but as Mahesa said, if Aya also needs attention from him, not just a friend or caregiver, but more. 

Randu rushed out of his room to Bi Nori who was in David's room. 

"Bi, take care of Raisya and David! I'm out for a minute."

Before passing Randu hugged Raisya who was lying next to his sister. 

"May it work."

Randu immediately entered the car, now his determination was round to meet Aya and bring her back. 

"I have to get Aya. He can't leave me and the kids." 

Randu drove out his car, his chest started to rumble violently, wanting to blow everything away, Bi Nori's words continued to run through his brain, and perhaps rightly so, what he currently feels is an unconscious love just like that. 

On the way there was nothing she thought of but Aya, the woman who had been present for so long in her life, yet had always been ignored.

Ay, this time I won't let you go again. I'm sorry for hurting you.

Randu parked his car in the courtyard of Aya's house, from far away Randu stared at the tightly closed door of the house. He tidied up his appearance and got out of his car, although he did not pocket anything, Randu was ready to reveal his heart.

Randu knocked on the door of Aya's house that looked lonely, no one passed there, seeing the state of the floor is very dirty and dusty, Randu felt if the house was not occupied for long. 

"Don't Aya not come back here, then where?" 

Fear hit again, still vividly remembered when Aya disappeared like swallowed by the earth, Randu stared at the screen of his phone with a pushy gaze.

Aya, don't tell me that you're going away from me like you used to.

Randu tried to think clearly, throwing away the restlessness.

Randu again contacted Aya, and this time he widened his eyes when the voice of the operator greeted, it means that Aya's number can not be contacted anymore.  Randu checks the message sent, and it turns out that Aya has not read it, and it makes Randu more agitated. 

Now he feels extinct, his only hope is extinct, there are only regrets that may be endless. 

Randu landed his body on the wooden chair on the terrace. His view was empty, as if it were the cause of his suffering. 

When he was desperate, Cici's name suddenly flashed in his brain. 

"I have to call Cici, she must know where Aya is" he murmured.

Without waiting for time, Randu contacted Aya's best friend named Cici, the mother of Alvino. 

Dada Randu was relieved, in a matter of seconds Cici picked up her phone, from across there was a noise, in sure Cici was in a public place. 

"Halo Ci, it's me Raisya's father. Do you know where Aya is now?" ask Randu without a stale base. He even forgot to say hello. 

"Sorry, I don't know. Doesn't Aya work at your house. He never called me either" replied Cici from across the street.

Instantly the phone in Randu's hand fell.