Survive Loving you
chapter 68

This morning once Abimayu had prepared at home, she wanted to leave quickly, because she was determined to meet Ana today at her parents' house.

These few days he held himself back from leaving, although his heart was struggling to see Ana immediately. She doesn't want to bother Ana with her coming, as she knows Ana is still grieving over her papa's departure.

"Umi, Abi go first! Umi pray for Abi." Abimayu said to Umi Aida when she wanted to leave.

"Umi always prays for you, son." Umi Aida said with sadness. He also now feels very happy, because he gets word from Abimayu that Ana has returned. She is eager to meet Ana, but her current condition does not allow her to leave. In these months, his body was not healthy.

"Can Ana forgive Abi, Umi?" abimayu asked because she was hesitating with him.

"If you want to apologize from him, you can't give up." Umi Aida gives spirit to Abimayu, she is also uncertain whether Ana can forgive Abimayu. But, at least Abimayu should keep trying.

Abimayu nodded her head, she also agreed with her umi's words, because all this time she kept trying to find Ana one of her goals was to apologize to Ana for what she had been doing all this time.

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Abimayu's car is already in front of Ana's parents' house at this time. He went downstairs and set his foot toward the door of Ana's parents' house.

"Assalamualaik." Abimayu gave his greetings before he entered. He also looked around the house, and the house looked very quiet.

"waalaikumsalam." a voice came from inside the house to greet his greetings, and it turned out to be his father-in-law's voice.

"Son Abi, come on in!" take Kiran to Abimayu. Kiran does not hate Abimayu, though she has learned that Abimayu has misunderstood Ana all along, as she also feels guilty towards Ana. They are wrong because as parents do not want to believe in their own children.

"Can I meet Ana, Ma?" tanya Abimayu immediately said her goal was to come this time.

"May, mama call Ana first, yes!" kiran said as she walked away leaving Abimayu in the living room.

On her seat Abimayu again felt restless, she was afraid that Ana would not want to meet him.

He also recalled that while at Sarah's house, it turned out that the woman he saw wearing the veil was his wife Ana. But at that time she always saw Ana turn her back, probably because she did not want to meet him. Almost all over the city he searched for Ana's whereabouts all along, but he didn't find her. It turns out Ana lived in a corner of the city all this time with Sarah who is still her family.

Abimayu heard the sound of footsteps, and his eyes immediately looked towards that voice.

Her heart became a little relieved as it turned out that Ana did not refuse to meet him.

"How are you doing Ana?" abimayu asked starting the conversation because Ana was only silent when she had sat down with him on the living room sofa.

"Good!" answer Ana briefly. He did not want to open his mouth to talk to Abimayu, but he also did not want to be a disrespectful person for not answering Abimayu's questions.

Abimayu heard the answer with a painful feeling, no more embedded call Mas that Ana had been using to call him.

"Mas came to apologize to you!" abimayu lagsung.

"Why apologize?" asked Ana in a slightly firm voice.

"There's nothing to forgive, because you're innocent." Ana seemed to justify that all this time the wrong is only her.

Abimayu felt her heart pierced by the words of Ana.

"As sorry, Ana." Abimayu repeated while looking at Ana's face covered in a veil. Although the face he could not see completely, but in his memory, it was never forgotten.

"There's nothing to forgive, because you're innocent. Don't be afraid, I won't interfere with your lives. I'm gonna back off, 'cause that's what you've been hoping for all along. I'll take care of our divorce papers, so that our relationship becomes clear." Ana said with certainty.

Abimayu was really hit with the words Ana. If it were to be honest, she wanted to see the attitude of the old Ana, who had always defended her, not with Ana now who easily said she would let go as she once wanted to. Now Ana has agreed to divorce him in a time when she wants to fix everything.

"Ana.." call Abimayu slowly. "Mas with Nayla... "

"Don't say anything! I don't want to hear it! I told you I wouldn't interfere with your lives, I'll make sure of that." Ana tries to stop Abimayu from mentioning her relationship with Nayla, as it makes her heart bleed again.

"We are not married!" abimayu said while bowing her head.

Ana was surprised to hear clearly Abimayu's words.

"Mas with Nayla is not getting married!" Abimayu repeated his words to clarify.

Ana was speechless and could not believe what she had just heard from Abimayu.

These few days he did not want to hear the story of Abimayu, because he did not want to feel the pain in his heart anymore. But now she was very surprised Abimayu said that she did not marry Nayla.

Ana was still silent and had not responded to Abimayu's words, and suddenly Fatimah appeared before her carrying a new food she wanted to show.

"Mother, this is Fatimah's new toy." Fatimah said cheerfully, and yet Ana answered, she had already run away. She just wanted to tell Ana about her toys.

"What is Fatimah our son?" abimayu's voice sounded back to speak.

Ana was still silent and did not want to tell Abimayu about Fatimah.

"Ana, Fatimah's our son, right?" Abimayu guessed for herself to answer her question. He could not bear to ask about Fatimah to Ana, because his heart was also very confident in that.

"Yes, I'm sorry that I gave birth to her. But don't worry, I won't hold him accountable, because I realize he exists because I've made a big mistake in someone's life." Ana said with pain from remembering Abimayu's first words to her.

"Yes, M...!"

"Don't be afraid, I'll take responsibility for what I've done, and I won't ask the person for any answer." Ana says back to convince Abimayu.

While Abimayu again felt hit with answers and statements given Ana. She doesn't know how else she'll fix everything with Ana, because there are too many wounds she's had in Ana's heart.