The 18 Year Bride
I Want to Open My Heart, too

The wind whipped my neck. Cool and cool. I drank some more delicious and fresh coffee. The old newspapers I have dropped already, the ones that contain only illusions about reality, not reality itself. I turned on a cigarette to calm myself down, and I sucked the smoke hard, I got more excited. My eyes glared far, far away to where a girl who gave me peace was.

He sat sweet and looked very earthy, wearing simple clothes but looking very fast and attractive. She smiled at me and immediately shook my hand as I was about to go to work. Then suddenly when I cried, he pulled my body, until my head was docked to his chest. And as I continued to grieve, he drowned my face in his power.

When I enjoyed the pleasure of his embrace, from a distance the sound of chicken crowing shocked me. Finally finished my dream history, a dream that contains memories of last night. God fucking.

“Elia?”

I can't believe that's the name I first mentioned when I woke up.

I got up and walked around the house while holding back the sleepiness in my head as if there was a tiny planet that weighed the same as the earth. All of my energy was absorbed by his powerful gravitational force. The first place I went to was the left side yard of the house, but there was no Elijah there, only wet clothes and fresh sun.

“Elia!” I said look for him,

One by one I checked the room to find Elijah. I finally heard her singing from the kitchen.

Your voice in town is orange

I'm really bored and lonely without you

If I say I'm lonely, you'll definitely laugh at me

I'll check it again and again, what's left.

Shining without fading, Like the sky after rain.

I remember your smile, remembering it made me smile

I'm sure the two of us will still be innocent kids like we used to be

Looking at every tomorrow as we go through a changing season.

His voice was very soft different as he spoke in his agile style. I was relieved when I saw that she was cooking, but she was still here.

“Elia?”

“Loh, Mr Damian?”

Her singing stopped for a moment after I called her name, she turned to me with a surprised look, so cute.

“Why come here? Better rest a little more.”

“Sleeping alone it feels.. boring.” I said, looking away.

“Sir Damian feels lonely sleeping alone?”

Bam

Shit, I'm slipping. I guess he misunderstood what I said, or I made the wrong sentence? My words just now seem very perverted, and describe me as a pervert teacher.

“Sir Damian is here!”

Elijah approached me and with an unexpected move, he touched my cheek so that my body lowered its position. My feeling was palpitating as Elijah put his forehead on my forehead.

“Good, it looks like the fever has gone down.”

I looked at him, a sincere treatment behind his real purity. He led me to the dining table, “In the kitchen the weather was cold,” then he put a coat hanging on a hanger near the living room, onto my body. “Wear this and sit here, until I finish preparing breakfast, huh sir? The porridge is soon so, so there is no need to force yourself to be in the kitchen.”

I looked at him again, as he went back to the cooking table. She was going to school, but she chose to cook and take care of me. He did not complain in the slightest, as a pessimistic adult man, I felt ashamed to be his teacher.

“Sir Damian is not too hungry yet, right?”

Suddenly his passionate voice grabbed my heart back, so my daydream of him instantly broke.

“School, Elijah don't you want to go to school? It's almost too late if you haven't prepared at all.”

“No problem Mr. Damian, I've left a letter to Ummi for permission not to enter school today.”

“Do not! Your education is important, soon the final exam.”

He looked at me and smiled knotfully, “One day only, no problem. Mr. Damian's health is more important, I have to take care of Mr. Damian until he recovers because I have promised to serve my husband.”

The reach of my eyes disappeared from all around, all there is now is the figure of Elijah. Cheerful student who became my wife, “Elia, when going and going home from school tomorrow and so on, let's go together!” I said with a burning spirit.

Why am I saying this? did I forget how risky it would be if there was someone at school who caught us going and coming home together. I don't think I'm gonna care about anyone anymore. My memory got bad all of a sudden. Or should I pull my words again? Elijah deserved it too. He has fought until here and proved all his determination to love and be devoted, so it doesn't matter if I open my heart a little for him.

“Thank you very much Mr. Damian,”

His brown glazed eyes were more and more clear, he smiled shaking my soul. He looked at me as if to signal his happiness, if I had met you first rather than my pessimism and disappointment, I might have opened my heart more quickly to the presence of Elijah; if you and I weren't teachers and schoolgirls at school, maybe I wouldn't keep your distance from you outside, maybe we could try spending some time together, and gave room to get to know each other, but dear, right now I can only catch her presence full of energy, letting myself start to drift off and follow every word of her wild heart.

“Pak Damian.”

“What?”

“Can we go back to sleep together tonight?”

He has always been good at playing my newly risen soul out of his desire to shut himself up, Elijah is like a master of the control of my soul and my feelings, but, I do not reject him.

“I always warn you to be careful when saying anything related to your role as a wife, do you not have any fear of men?”

“Sir Damian is my husband, so I won't be afraid to tell you that. Mr. Damian himself told me to take care of my body until I graduated. Until then comes, I'm sure we'll both be fine.”

“Barusan Pak Damian said that sleeping alone is boring, I want to accompany the solitude of Mr. Damian, even to sleep though. Since I am a wife,” she paused for a moment hanging up her words. “Just relax, I will always be by your side.”

Destroyed my self-defense, his words rattled my whole soul and heart. Being an eighteen-year-old wife to me, her own teacher. He was able to give space and a backrest to my loser self. I also want to open Elijah's heart.