The 18 Year Bride
Leaving my prison, picking Asa up

Saturday, even two days have I locked myself in the room. For forty-eight hours there was not a single smile on my face.I repeatedly called my father to come back and accompany me to pick up Elijah, but nil.

The food cooked on the table I barely touched except for one or two mouthfuls. Some of my colleagues and secretaries in the office called to ask me for news, because I did not go to work and from behind the door I could hear the voice of Aunt Hera calling me to deliver a meal, I answered as necessary. One or two of the office staff also came to see me to ask for my autograph on the report but I refused to accept it and had either aunt Hera or Rinna say I was sick. 

“Dad, i ... I mean can you come home early? I want you to stand by me and hope for your blessing." I said slowly, holding my phone to my father who was far away, almost in a day more than four times I call my father for the same purpose and of course with the same response.

I looked blankly at the twisting stars in the dark sky tonight. I'm sure my voice is ringing rather than percentage in my father's business trip and I know my father actually knew my will when my name was on his screen, only choosing to ignore me.

"Dad …"

"No. I don't want to come. I'm ashamed. Where'd you put my dad's face?" replied dad sniffled but in a helpless tone.

I was silent. I've said the same thing repeatedly to him, ashamed. Ever since I came to this house with two big suitcases and one tote bag, never once did my father not say that word. He was embarrassed to have a son-in-law from a family far below his economic level, she felt Elijah did not deserve to be part of the Toma family and insisted on not following my words to accept marriage, as well as bless our love. He was ashamed to be spoken to by his friends and family about my house which he considered a disgrace, which would be considered his failure as well.

Since I was a child, I have realized that my family is not a family that ‘harmonis’. My parents did have a long-lasting marriage and rarely fought but also rarely spoke straightforwardly and naturally. We were a family that looked very beautiful to outsiders, disciplined, organized, beautiful and well-dressed children, and I realized we were indeed set to look good on the outside, from the physical, from the physical, from things that others can see and judge, but from within, from heart and soul, we are totally ignored. Both of my parents' families are like that, all filled with lies and formality, until I don't know what it's like.

"Have you heard Dad's words?" suddenly my voice went up. I was shocked and aware of my daydream. "Shame, shame to know no. Your late mother's name will be smeared in the family!"

"Dad, do you know what family really means? do you know how the bond and relationship between husband and wife, father and son, mother and child? dad is too rigid and formal if you want to blend in and not always hard, you might feel what I feel right now. I'm sorry dad, I'm not going to divorce Elijah!" I said more calmly and frankly it was almost frustrating to have to explain for some thousand times.

"She's just a bride to take care of you for a while, not really as your wife.One day you will get used to it, love is not something that is eternal Damian! all of it will disappear just like the stuff you bought, will vanish or fade away over time."

"Of course I wouldn't be surprised by Dad's answer! that's why the father rejected the child in Rinna's birth because the father does not live the relationship and bond between father and son. There is no love, therefore the father's life is grim and formal. next Thursday I give permission to leave father, my message is to take care of Rinna and her child.want their man or woman remain your child as well."

I couldn't help but grow angry and disappointed that the race wanted to get out and immediately go back into my room. It hurts so much to be treated like a puppet and my own parents are the mastermind. I had enough to doubt myself for decades, and now it was the first time Elijah and I set foot in this house. At that time I felt exactly as my father said, I always asked if it was my fault, my fault where, and I tried hard to improve myself.

"I'll be out of here any minute, probably never gonna be able to keep an eye on you always, but I hope that you take care of my sister. if you can't be a good parent, at least you're a loving mother.If you can't accept the child, at least she has a mother who doesn't do the same. change your mindset, don't let the evil treatment of others make you a hard person." I said coldly to Rinna and waited for her reaction. A few minutes passed without any reaction, I then dragged my suitcase and got out of the house. With blurry eyes drenched in unexpected disappointment, I dialed Donny's phone number to help usher me into the village.

This is the last time I set foot in my father's house, no matter what happens I won't come back unless in some way when he approves of my relationship, it doesn't just come. After this I will face all bravely and I will not back down to fight for my Marriage with Elijah even though the conditions of it cannot be fulfilled, I came without parents, I came without parents, because they could make their children just a mere exhibition material. 

I don't know how long I've been walking, my feet hurt and the cold air pierced my chest even though I was wearing a thick jacket. I decided to wait for Donny and Vania at the bus stop. While sitting, I was released from a very heavy load and the air around me felt so comfortable. I took a deep breath, as if inhaling all the power of the universe and exhaled slowly, giving a wide relief within my chest. Yes, I am a free man and no one can take away my freedom. There's nothing more.  Donny's car came in half an hour later. With a smile I greeted the two of them and they were a little confused. I got in the car, closed the door and drove off, left my prison, picked up hope. 

arriving in front of the House of Elijah, I walked while returning to bring him a white lily. Apparently in front there Elijah was waiting for me with his parents.I approached with heavy steps, and, I don't know how disappointed he was because I couldn't qualify him, but behind Donny patted me on the shoulder to strengthen; "Don't be nervous, it's important to try first."

"Welcome, sir. also Mr. Donny, and sister Vania, right?" welcome him as always.

"Right," Vania replied as she reached out. It seemed that they were fine, even though their first meeting was not okay.

"Where are Mom and Dad, sir?"

I was silent as a statue.

"El-lia I'm sorry, I haven't been able to qualify from you yet but, I hope my arrival without this old man doesn't diminish your judgment to return to me, Elijah. I love you so much."

"Sir... Dad and mom still can't accept me huh? I know we love each other, but the old man's blessing is also important, and how can we get that blessing if Mr. Damian's parents are reluctant to come along?"

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yuhuuu.... author longs, soon we say goodbye to a' dami yuuukkkk (´∩`。).