The 18 Year Bride
Certainty to Decision

Tears began to pool in my eyes.I bowed my head while occasionally looking again at the door or window, maybe behind there was a pair of eyes from the woman I adored. I so wish he would give me one more chance to fix everything. While the rain continues to harden, eyewitnesses to a history that has failed.

every time I remember the times we spent together, I felt like I was a fool - every word, every thought, every thought, every affection he gives but I take it as just a falsity because of my evil schemes to deceive my heart.

one thing is certain that is also disturbing, I thought, why should Elijah feel inferior? as great as that sharp words to damage his strong confidence.it is the same as making me worse, because in a variety of prejudices.

I was dissolved in the rain, until when he came in front of me. held up an umbrella to protect me from the cold of the water tonight.I was moved, as he led me into the house, I was moved, just like a white angel who came as if giving me a gift.

"Serious Damian still wants to be with me?" he said after giving warm tea. "Did mom and dad know that Damian came here? did you ask permission from them?"

"They don't need to know I'm here, Elijah. I'm an adult and now also a head of the household, I have the right to make my own decisions."

"No sir, I don't want the same thing to happen again.I can't go back to Mr. Damian, if they don't know."

"Elia, you and I love each other. I'll get out of the house too and we'll get back to living together without their knowledge."

"I'm going back to our marriage on condition, Mr. Damian came here to ask me again to my parents with my father and mother" she said, looking at me intently. "I want our marriage to be blessed, so that this kind of thing doesn't happen again."

with a heavy heart I slowly evaluated this complicated experience.Maybe this request from Elijah is quite difficult, even very difficult.but I also understand that we are too arrogant for him and his family. then I think such a condition is natural.Maybe to deal with it I have to take the bohemian ethos to keep my soul purity awake, despite the fact that it makes me limp and almost crazy.to be bohemian, to be, freeing myself from all the bonds that are actually empty.do I also have the right to choose my own way of life and love?

"I'll accept Elijah's terms, I'll bring my mom and dad here."

how should I decide?

I was silent for a long time, thinking about how hard it was to dig in the barren, dry and cracked land.it was so heavy, that it was as if I had to share this matter of life with the tea water that was before me.

"Thursday ahead" I said.

"Really?"

"Yes, I was back from a business trip that day."

"Please also give clarity to where and how we live our lives in the future. Should we still go with father and mother? if not, I hope Mr. Damian is able to take responsibility and make decisions independently, and also, regarding my own father's debts, if we get back together, if we get back together, is Mr Damian's father still going to collect our debt? I also need clarity on all that. Sorry if this might sound burdensome to you."

"I understand your anger, Elijah, after all I am the head of our household.This incident made me realize many things, evaluate myself, and fix it. Just pray. I am so grateful that God has given you as my companion."

"I will wait here patiently, on that day, may our lives be better" he said with a smile.

I tried to smile too.