The 18 Year Bride
Without Elijah, I'd miss

This is me, Damian Toma, a pessimistic adult man.I complete my own life, without any love, without any bond with anyone, I am not a man who can be romantic, my love may not be spoken, but implied and can be felt. Yes, Maybe.

wealth is not a guarantee for happiness, but my parents, misunderstood in pouring out affection.

a dry life of love and compassion, making me grow heartless, I know people say I'm a cold man like an iceberg, but do you have to break the iceberg to be loved? can't you conquer an iceberg without melting it?

am I being too bragging? love is only illusion and nonsense, the result of thoughts and desires of the heart that smolder poets. God creates feelings, and man calls one of them love.I think long ago, living alone was not too bad either.

I closed myself off to women, but everything changed when the little girl came. I didn't believe my feelings, that I was attracted to her the first time I saw her, I was too naive to admit that I wouldn't fall in love with her, I went through time but the more I moved away from what she looked like, the weirdest. he made me feel loved and alive my dead heart.

her name was Elijah, a beautiful woman who was so friendly, who gave me what I didn't have and got, who opened my eyes to the real world, the special woman who made my life more colorful, she who made me fall in love from eye to heart.

maybe I am a despicable man, at the age of 18 years, who is still in transition, he who still does not know love, I have indirectly destroyed his future. I'm guilty, it's wrong, but I'm more of a jerk if I let him freely find another man, whereas I've taken the precious ones out of his life.

Elijah I'm sorry I'm such a proud man, I'm arrogant because I'm sure I'll never fall in love with you. I don't know how to fight like a real man.I'm too pessimistic as the head of the family, until I have to take you back to the deadly hell.

unfortunately.now that I have lost her, she has gone far, returned to her most comfortable home.and finally we parted, which I never expected.

after that night, I remained at home continuing my long life with the family.while she was far away there. Even so, there was something I was after. Whatever it was, it was, all is nothing but for my love that has gone far...

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the first week without Elijah, I suffered countless grievous loneliness.I passed through the days like a wild horse that moved morning until night, like a bird separated from a flock flying alone in the vast sky. my life is almost no different from the office files that accumulate and continue to grow every day on my desk where I am contemplating in front of him; the difference is that I am full of illusions and wild thoughts that are painful and painful, not writings and reports.

silence buried me in a dark loneliness like madness in this atmosphere, where I was sitting daydreaming alone at the desk looking out the window watching the clouds march across the sky with the round moon poking out among the mega-mega, she was always present teasing me; she was always there teasing me; the moments we had created together, present and drowned like mirages.His smile and laughter were like white pearls that lit up glare in my mind,

but it vanished every time I wanted to touch it with my hand.Lonely it was a hell hotter than black fire and colder than ice.

but, I have to defeat my illusions and sorrows. Is this marriage really over, or can it still be repaired? perhaps yes probably not. Elijah must have been tired of all his duties, let him go to refresh himself.and I went back to the business world I had just wrestled with; working hard from morning to night to meet my targets, because there are sins that I have to pay for. I will not let pessimism and pressure come back to haunt me. So I work hard for it, he said, for my wife who is far away.

Suddenly the ringing of the cell phone dawned on me from daydreaming.an incoming call from my old friend Donny.It has been a long time since we moved, finally I can see again his name appears on my phone screen. I immediately lift up.

"Good, but also bad! you how?"

"When you're the boss of a big company! tomorrow I'm in town. I miss you. school's off, and you should know there's big news, Amanda resigned a month ago. maybe after knowing that you and Elijah have moved to the city. ah, but my main goal is not to tell me about it, I want to meet you and Elijah just let go of the miss."

"Meet me and Elijah?"

"Yes" he answered.

"Can't," I'm telling you. "It is not good to spread intimacy on single men who are almost weathered.wait you already have a partner first."

I Scorned to ridicule her, whereas in my heart, it was all mere subterfuge to cover up the ulcers in our recent marriage.

"Don't do that, I came with a girl."

"Daughter? Amanda?" my word.

"No, who wants to be with someone who loves others.Look at it, I show you that I'm not a rotten single man.I see you tomorrow! I'll send the location later."

"Well," I replied gruntingly while turning off the phone. Maybe later I'll look for excuses about Elijah tomorrow, I don't feel good if I have to refuse Donny's invitation. he's been so good to us all along, I think he was so excited to introduce his new girlfriend.which woman is lucky to get a man as good as him. Of course I have to come to chat.

I noticed the clock on the phone screen, it turned out to be 10 pm. Honestly my head was a little staggering and my eyes began to heavy.it seems I have to go home earlier than usual.

I was among the drivers home, when I got home I immediately went to the side yard just under the window of my room, something new; I kept a rabbit. the plant-eating beast I let live freely in the garden so that when I get tired after working in the office I can see it as a tired splatter, and he is welcome when I come home at night. he chews on grass, breaks flowers, pees on dirt and rocks.Oh, a beautiful and cute animal, vile and spoiled, with wide and tall ears and a shy-looking eye. it's like you're with my soul mate oh, let me be the grass you eat to the end to keep you alive.

Elijah, I'm sorry...

I miss you so much...