The Story Of Wedding Blues
Chapter 42

Counseling Sessions (2)

Back in the counseling room for the second meeting. This time, Arin started to feel better than before. Doctor Puspita is now sitting opposite him.

“Kayak, you look better than the first meeting. How do you feel more comfortable sitting there?” tanyakanya.

“Iya, Doc. I think it's better, now the pounding is starting to decrease. View …! My hands have not shaken anymore,” said Arin who looked calm.

“That's a good progress. I think you're more comfortable face to face with me, right?”.

“Kayak, Doc.”

“Jadi ... are you ready to tell me something about yourself?” tanyakanya.

“Iya. I will try it,” said Arin who then took a deep breath — then exhaled slowly. Arin tries to make himself completely relex until later he will not mispronounce the story he has prepared before coming.

Doctor Puspita seemed so patiently waiting for Arin who seemed to need time to prepare himself. It is the face of every patient. It's good luck that his patients can really open up to him so that he can find out the cause of the patient can experience the things that make him depressed.

“Doctor ..”

“Iya ..,”

“A few months ago I resigned from the company ..” Arin said.

“If I can know, why?”.

“I just felt everything became saturated and annoying. Honestly, I do not know since when the feeling of saturation appeared, only I it continues. I was really tired of one of the people there. Until I thought, why is he acting like that to me? Do you think he hates me? Butwhy? Why does he hate me, when his position is higher than mine?” said Arin who began to feel comfortable to talk as if he returned to the times he was telling. “And also .. I really hate both my parents and my sister ...,”.

“Why do you hate it?” tanyakanya.

Arin could only be silent because he did not know the answer to the question. The atmosphere became quiet between them. Arin is pensive in his mind and the Doctor tries to give Arin space.

“You don't have to force to be able to get an answer ...,” he said slowly made Arin start re-enforcing his head — staring. “Do you know, sometimes you can not answer a question from someone who makes you confused or depressed. Maybe you don't have the answer, but you're just worried about your opponent. I'll start to worry if I don't answer you'll think that even your opponents aren't necessarily thinking.”.

Arin just silently listened to the doctor Puspita speak.

“Yesterday you came with your friend right?” tanyakanya.

“Iya ..”.

“Can you tell me something about him?” tanyakanya.

“But why are you smiling ..?” tanyakanya.

“I was just thinking, why can I do that? That's really funny ‘kan, Doctor? Doctor doesn't disgust my wounds?” ask Arin.

“No. I don't feel disgusted,”

“Ah .. true as well, the doctor must have often seen wounds like this is not it?” said Arin.

“No.., what you said is true. If I've seen injuries like this many times, but ..everyone has different wounds and stories, so do you. So every time I meet people who have injuries my feelings also vary ..” he said.

Arin was silent again. Then a small smile on her lips. “Then I'm not alone, Doc?” ask Arin.

“Iya. You are not alone. In this world, many are still struggling and living a decent life together with those scars. What if we learned not to care about, whatever people say, whatever people ask, you can ignore it. Sometimes there are times when we can ignore something we want to avoid. Sometimes people who ask you may think like he doesn't care, he's just curious, or he's waiting. Just like I was asking, ‘Why do you hate your parents?’. Then I said, ‘You don't have to force it to get an answer,’. Which is in my mind. ‘Ah ... This person may indeed not know the answer, try to wait’. Likewise with people who are only curious about your situation. Maybe he just doesn't have another topic, if you refuse to answer it, maybe some time he's just confused, then afterwards he'll forget what he said to you.” said the Doctor slowly made Arin stunned to hear it.

“So .. try not to care too much about the talk of people who just pass in your life. Don't make your words a weapon for yourself. It's a difficult task, but you're one step closer to loving yourself. So stay the spirit.” he said.

“Do doctors have friends who accept doctors as is?” ask Arin.

“Of course there are. Friends like that. Although I am a doctor who is indeed tasked to listen to others, I am also a human who has complaints, wounds and weaknesses. But thanks to their support I was able to become the figure you see today .., that also applies to you. Emm .. how we have session for today, hopefully in the next meeting you can start to behave to be selfish compared to others, can you?” tanyakanya.

“Iya. I'll try it. Thank you for today, doctor.” Arin said as she moved from her seat.

“Iya. Thank you back. You are careful on the road yeah ..”.

“Iya .. excuse me ..” said Arin who then walked out of the room.

***

Pressing her home password button — stepped into the apartment which then she was immediately greeted by Haru who turned out to have gone home first.

“Udah home?” asked Haru who was seen wearing an apron.

“Iya. What are you again?” ask Arin.

“Dishwasher first,” replied Haru.

“Ah .. Yes I forgot to do the dishes. Let me continue ..” said Arin who rushed to walk to the kitchen, but Haru immediately prevented it.