The Story Of Wedding Blues
Chapter 5 The Poor Duck

Chapter 5 - The Poor Duck

“Indeed why did you come out? You must be tired yeah ..?”  asked Grandma who also felt curious about the grandchild's decision why she could stop working and also worried about seeing the expression on her grandson's face did not look excited since.

“No, Nek.” replied Arin in a soft tone, he tried to remain indifferent to the people who continue to corner him.

“Paman nasehati you yes ... At the age of you now it is no longer the age used for fun. Look at Mama with your Father, they tell you to find the couple yes ... for your good.” he said.

Then the words made Arin grin funny to hear it. How can someone who does not even know what kind of life he lived until they easily judge him.

“Deh! In your opinion even smile, Dengerin loh!” he said that he realized that Arin was smiling as if he was underestimating him.

“Tau! That is, if people are stubborn! She's weird, Grandma. If you are told to argue, in love advice for good he even chose things that make his future gloomy. Tired of having kids like that! I am not ashamed of anything, I am old, unemployed, do not want to socialize. What to try!” say Mother.

It was painful to come out of his own mother's mouth in front of so many people. It feels like he is being shopped in front of many eyes, really destroyed his body and mind. His hands began to tremble, both eyes that began to redden from holding back tears.

“Tuh! Horrified your mama! He just wants the best for your life, so you can live a better life,” said uncle Yusuf.

“Hahaha .. ehfk .. haha ..!”

Arin started laughing in a strange tone to the point that everyone who heard her laughter felt confused by what was currently going on.

“Lah, really! Even laugh!!” said the uncle who seemed to be getting annoyed with Arin's disrespect.

Then Arin stopped laughing. His face immediately changed 180 degrees — expressionless making the atmosphere there become silent. Even Anna, who was sitting next to Arin, was confused by her brother's suddenly strange attitude, he behaved unlike the older brother he knew.

“What is my uncle? Does your uncle know what life I've been living all this time? Why does my uncle's mouth talk like I'm living just having fun? Did he see his life 24/7? No ‘kan ..?” asked Arin who finally revealed what he had been waiting for. It was like there was a great push from within him to have the courage to say it.

Everyone was silent as if becoming silent.

“Grandmother ..” said Arin while looking at her Grandmother who looked at her with a confused and also sad look.

“Iya ..”

“What eyes do I want to see the eyes of a living person?” ask Arin.

Grandma was silent to hear it, as were everyone there.

“Grandma .., why do so many people judge me? Though I have been hard-earned to survive at the end of the abyss so as not to fall, but why are more and more pushing me to fall? Grandma .. My soul actually died long ago. Here ...” while hitting his chest hard, “This is empty, which grandma saw I was just an empty peanut shell.” said Arin as she swallowed deeply her sad feelings so that the tears that had been reminisced in her eyes did not fall. His pride did not allow him to cry. Arin tried to survive.

“When I need someone, at least one .. one person will lend me a hand when I am on the edge of death. But what …? Nonexistent. Then why? Why ... When I started to find him and needed no one, many people came as if they cared about my life, those people are trying to give me advice for my good ..” Arin said as he looked at his uncle as a subtle satire of his words, then he turned his eyes back to Grandma who seemed to shed tears hearing his words.

“Not that sounds funny ‘kan, Nek …? I really do not understand the same people who just usually talk without thinking about the feelings of others just because hiding from behind the sentence, ‘This is all for your good ..,’ huff …” Arin sighs heavily — wipes her fallen tears for not being able to hold her back again.

“Even mom and dad don't know if his son ever tried to commit suicide. Mama never knew how hard her son tried to fulfill his will. I never knew that my daughter was traumatized by a man. Nek ..., does grandma know why until now I chose to survive?” tanya Arin — was silent for a while. 

“A—aku ... I was afraid, I was afraid that if I killed myself God would not accept me there. This world I don't care if I'm not accepted anywhere. But do not let me also not accepted in the paradise of Allah ..” said Arin who finally all his tears spilled so-so. Arin weeps in the midst of people who finally feel guilty for their actions that have cornered Arin. They could only duck and be silent.

His mother also cried because this was the first time he heard the voice of his daughter who had not been known if it turned out his son thought of the unexpected.

Grandma walks over to her still crying granddaughter — hugging her tightly. “Yes pardon .. poor grandmother's granddaughter .. You are my great granddaughter ... My granddaughter is the greatest, cry. Forgive grandma yes .. forgive grandma ..” she said.

An incident that was never expected by anyone made all could only be stunned to see a child who looked very indifferent turned out to save a lot of wounds. Everyone has problems and every problem cannot be compared. But as fellow human beings, not keeping words is the ethical basis that every human being should have.

After an emotionally draining incident. Finally Arin and Anna decided to return to Jakarta sooner. The blank gazes of his eyes staring at the bus window, Arin kept silent making Anna feel worried. He was still very surprised by his brother's confession. She thought her second sister was a very strong and hardworking woman. But he was wrong. Now he has seen the figure of Arin with all his weaknesses. Anna's feelings of guilt and sadness felt when looking at her brother who looked dreamy.