The Tears Of Wedding
Chapter 15 Sowan to Kali Bening

Arriving in Kali Bening, Sekar looks nostalgic in every corner of Pesantren Cottage which is famous for its caretaker who is so simple and has many worshipers as well as santri. Sekar even looks sparkling when he shows a mango tree which is his favorite place with Zhafira, just sitting or babysitting Umi Siti's daughter.

"We used to sit there, but Zhafira was rarely visited by her mother. So if you or sambang father, I will invite him to eat with Mother's delivery. Ah so kangen Zhafira, do not expect the fate of someone yes, Mas." He said to me while staring at the proud tree under which there were many leaves falling.

The atmosphere of Lebaran as it is today, then the santri abdi ndalem only left a few who did not go home.

"The news is that your best friend even went back and forth from the country was rich from our homes to the weekend market." My comments that have indeed seen Sekar's best friend on a television screen owned by Mother.

"God shows that a person's fate can change as long as he is willing to mean it and be patient. Zhafira while at the cottage was so serious about studying and serving. Besides, she's smart, her son." Said Sekar while stepping towards his ndalem Umi Siti.

Seemed a santri man who was busy with a broomstick.he looked down and stopped sweeping when we passed. I remember when I was not going home on Eid al-Fitr. 6 years I went to Java, I never went home on holidays. Because of the cost factor, I also hope a blessing accompanies Bu Nyai and Abah Yai during the quiet cottage left behind home.

So now I also feel how I became a person who is quite spelled out the dream of the wives. That's what I often say to my neighbors when they say that Sekar is lucky to have a husband like me. Yes, if for some men will be hesitant or reluctant to help his wife at home. I'm not. Even making coffee I did not wait for my wife, she was too tired to take care of the house. So as much as possible I do what I can do, including cooking and washing. But the only thing I can't help is folding clothes. I don't know that one's homework is too boring. I prefer hanger to tidy up clothes if Sekar is busy in Umi Ayu Pesantren which is in the next village.

Arrive at ndalem Gus Furqon. It turns out he was in Kyai Rohim's ndalem. I also followed the footsteps of Sekar. Arriving at Kyai Rohim ndalem, Umi Siti looks to tidy up the jar and mineral water on the carpet at the residence of Umi Laila. Umi Siti seemed to rush to welcome us. I could see how Umi Siti was so pleased with the presence of Sekar.

"Goddessa... Vast... " Umi Siti.

I was quick to listen to Umi Siti. We also sat in the room. Umi Siti called a santri whom she asked to call Gus Furqon. We talked a few things soon.

"Umi and Abi just left for Jakarta, it was yesterday that many came as well. Zhafira also came here with her husband and also her mother-in-law." Umi Siti said as she invited us to enjoy some warm cakes and tea.

As Gus Furqon sat between us. I also thought of a way to ask Gus Furqon for advice. Because Sekar also long served as a ndalem Gus Furqon. I made sure that this time I would disguise my problem. So that I get a different point of view. If I said Sekar who had a problem with his fallopian tubes. This time no, I'll say that I'm the one with the problem.

"Yai.., kulo ajeng taken badhe sa bab. Kulo nyuwun kyai lan bu nyai." Say it with my head down.

{Kyai, I want to ask you one thing. I begged Kyai and Bu Nyai.} for guidance

My lyrics Sekar. I'm sure he'll be a little surprised to hear my statement. But I have to do this. I was confused as to who to ask for advice on this heart-restlessness.

"Pripun Yai, kangge nyikapi omah-omah ingkang mboten kunjung nggadhahi lare?" Ask me slowly.

{Why do you have a wedding that does not have children?}

Umi Siti asked us about how long we have not had children. I replied that it has been almost 8 years. Umi Siti looked hesitant. But I quickly answered before Sekar told me the same thing as I had before Gus Ali. To me, Gus Ali is not wrong. He is a teacher, he has knowledge and of course he has other views about marriage. In fact, he discussed the complete chapter of the article that allows the wife to allow her husband to remarry so that the second marriage of the husband is legal in the eyes of the law.

"I have a problem with Yai's fertility... I'm actually confused. I feel sorry for Sekar. But I don't want to divorce. I beg your guidance Yai, Miss Nyai." I said quickly. I can see Sekar glancing at me. I did the same thing.

We both looked down not daring to look at our teacher. I don't know even though we no longer go to the hotel, it feels like we are still his santri.

"For this child, we are not just ordinary people experiencing trials like this. Some prophets have also experienced. Prophet Luth had no sons, Prophet Abraham had no daughters. But as for Adam and the Prophet, he had sons and daughters. So we can see that God predestines the various conditions of parents because Allah is All-Knowing or Al-Alim. And Allah is All-Powerful or Al-Qadir. So even to us ordinary people God knows more and more the power of our destiny, it is to his lovers that God also predestines various different gifts." Gus Furqon.

"What if our efforts don't work until we don't have children until the end of our lives?" Ask me.

"Not having children in the world doesn't mean we can't have them in the afterlife. On QS. Az Zuhkruf verse 71 explains that one day Heaven will be all that we want heart and eternal." Umi Siti.

"Actually while waiting for our efforts to be a success, including the matter of heredity. We can spend our time in life. So don't focus on just one problem Kang. We can maximize our body and life by using it to establish a relationship with God that is worship. But do not forget to still give benefits horizontally to our environment. One of them is by fighting and giving benefits and benefits to others. For example, there are many useful activities. Engage yourself in useful activities. Then later our own problems will be solved by themselves Kang. I've proven it myself." Said Gus Furqon who is now one of the chairmen of the Organization at the District level.

I looked at what Gus Furqon said. All this time, more at home. If you leave the house. He will only teach with the study mothers. Then I just thought, I will ask sekar Active in the organization in the village and explore his potential. So that he would not be too busy thinking about getting married again.

"Don't be too upset Kang, Sayyidah Aisyah also has no children. But he can be so patient withholding his will, when he can not channel his maternal instinct because the Prophet is so clever and wise in addressing household polemics. So came the call of Umm Abdullah. Here is the role of a couple to be able to devote affection and support to one of our partners. Until marriage becomes fun, happy even without the presence of children." Umi Siti.

I remember that story. Yes, the origin story of why Sayyidah Aisyah has the nickname Umm Abdullah.. At that time Sayyidah Aisha asked the Prophet to make a nickname for him. He wants to be like his friends who have nicknames that use the name of one of the children. And at the time of Abdullah ibn Zubair or daughter of Asma bint Abu Bakr. Sayyidah Aisha brought Abdullah to the Prophet Muhammad. The Prophet then dabbled him or smeared Abdullah's palate with a date he had chewed.

Tahnik performed by the Prophet to Abdullah bin Zubair is a form of affection and blessing Abdullah. How not blessed, so that means he has inserted his saliva into Abdullah bin Zubair. Therefore Sayyidah Aisha was given a nickname by the Prophet with Umm Abdillah which means Abdullah's mother. Even in one other story Sayyidah Aisyah was given another name that is Muwaffaqah or Women who were given instructions.

‘I understand the implied meaning of the advice of Gus Furqon and Umi Siti. God willing I already understand what I will do in the future.’ My inner.

When Sekar and I leave for Yadi's residence, we will attend Yadi's graduation. Inside Bus Sekar asked me why I said that I had problems with heredity.

“Why lie?” Ask Sekar when we were on the bus.

“If you can hide your sadness for hearing my conversation with Gus Ali, then I can hide our problem, he said, so that you can think clearly not to ask me to marry again or obey the will of your father and mother. You can still get pregnant. And let Allah, the All-Knowing, know when you are given the opportunity to become pregnant. Look at Sayyidah Aisyah. Was he grieved all his life just for not being able to bear offspring? He is even part of the bearer of hadith, even many become references from other senior friends in the question of how to understand and do legal conclusions. Now we focus on what we can do in our age without the presence of a baby, in the religion of God. For family, society. Let Almighty God will all that is destined for us.” I was obviously with him.

I rested my head on his shoulder, I closed both eyes. I let him shed tears. I know, he needs to cry to widen his heart. Then I'll just be there for her to lean on. I closed my eyes and thought about adopting a child. But whose child. I don't know, now I just want Sekar not to come back to sue me to marry Arum or any woman.