The Tears Of Wedding
Chapter 6 My Love is Only For Sekar (POV Thunder)

Tomorrow you can go home, if the condition has really improved. I postponed my return. So that you all will be with Father tomorrow. But today I was surprised by the presence of Arum. My childhood friend came with her mother. Arum and I were friends from childhood. You could say that they owe you. Long ago when Arum's father would run for Lurah village, the father who gave capital by selling two bandots or two male goats owned by the Father.

I saw the girl smiling at me. I returned his smile too. I quickly got out when he greeted me. I don't want you to return to express your wishes.

"How are you?" Ask Arum to me.

My lips were confused to answer the greeting of the girl. I saw the glances and the eyes of Father and Mother towards me. Quickly I answer.

"Alhamdulillah good... You alone? Long time no see." Answer me.

We sat on a mat on the side of the gurney. But I had to sigh slowly because you directly discussed his wishes to Arum. Moreover, mother, Mother's gesture is so friendly to Sekar.

"It's Rum first, Mom. Thank you for bothering." Say mother.

He leaned on the pillow. Expressing intention.

"Mom Sofi, this I just want to ask about the will of the deceased. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend you, son Arum. But, if you see until now you are still alone. Is not all a sign that the will of your late father, to marry you to Thunder, is a barrier to your soul mate, son?" Ask Arum and Bu Sofi.

I'm getting restless. If only I could be like any other child. Shouting or staring at you. Nope, no. I wasn't taught that way back when I was in the boarding house. I was only able to thump with a tone of voice low enough to remind my parents. That I should obey but not for those who violate the Shari'a. Polygamy is allowed in Islam. But no, I am self-aware, I am the Messenger of Allah in the last days. Economically, scientifically speaking, good-lookingly, morally, I have not been able to practice polygamy.

"Sir.... I'm already married. I can't marry Arum. My economic condition is with one wife only, you know yourself." Remember me with a glare. I hope you don't come back dreaming that I'll marry Arum.

But Sofi's reply made me feel frustrated.

"Loh, if only the economic constraints. Don't worry about Thunder. Arum already has a steady income. Wong he already has a steady income. Mom thought about this a long time ago, too. When anyone wants to get serious with Arum, it will suddenly be canceled. Is it because of Arum's father's will." Said Ms. Sofi.

My lyrics Arum. He just bowed. But the nod of his head made me choose to leave the room.

"Yes Rum?" Bu Sofi asked as she nudged Arum's arm with her hand.

The nod from Arum confused me. How can, a girl is well established, beautiful to marry me who is only a farmer and ordinary of all things.Back I was made inexhaustible, sofi's mother again uttered a sentence that seemed to be the representative of Arum.

"It is important that you marry legally in the eyes of religion and the Government. That's tok. I think your wife doesn't mind. Wong I met yesterday at the school. He looks like Nriman's the one." Said Bu Sofi while hugging Arum.

I've broken my hair many times. The mouth from earlier felt sour. It feels more sour. My head also hurts in the forehead. I decided to go out with the excuse of wanting to smoke.

"Sorry Mom, I'll excuse you first" I say hello to everyone.

But my chatty Mother, quickly held back my steps.

"Loh, you are that. Disrespectful. That's Bu Sofi again having a serious conversation. You just go." Mother said to me with her eyes enlarged.

"Sorry Mom, if Arum is ready in honey. I can't practice polygamy. I haven't been able to both dzohir and Bathin. I don't want to hurt my wife. I love my wife, sorry Miss Le. Hope Arum can get a better man than me." Answer me politely.

But the Father who did not like my answer immediately gave a statement that revealed the disgrace of my household. In front of others.

"Is it because of love that you can have offspring? I'm sure you have that problem. The proof is, your mother often sees her buying a lot of sprouts every day. If you don't want polygamy, just divorce Sekar." Say Father.

I closed my eyes, my chest was so tight. I also left the room.

"Thunder wants to smoke first sir... Let's get Lek, Rum." Pamit.

I went to the front of the hospital. I'm looking for a special area for cigarettes. I picked one of the big trees for me to sit under. I really want to be angry with Mom and Dad. Lucky there is no fire. Ah, Sekar's. My wife is the wife of Sholehah today. I remember how Sekar and I reconciled for three nights when I came home to rest and get a change of clothes, I had to sleep in the mosque three nights. Because Sekar kept urging me to fulfill your request. I know, he feels inferior. I know he feels desperate. I pulled the corner of my lips.

I imagined the night when Sekar called me on my cell phone because I was still sleeping on the terrace of the mosque. Some time ago I was so upset that he asked me to marry Arum or polygamy. Do not know if my love as a human for him is intact, if divided it with Mother and father. That night my phone rang. I never ignored his calls.

"Mas, still angry?" Ask him to me.

"Anged no, but lazy mas arguing with you. If you still think you have to be polygamous, you don't want to. It is better to be cold on the terrace of the mosque than to have to argue with the wife. I'm afraid of emotions, I don't want to be like yesterday. Cook snatched you." Answer me.

"I'm sorry mas... I just don't feel like I'm the best for you." Answer irent.

I can hear his breath.

"Dark.... You know, you're the best for me. And God chose you for me. I'm for you. Now and tomorrow, no matter what. Whether or not we are children. We can both achieve the pleasure of God by worshiping together. We are not in this world asked to bow down to God. So enjoy, love what God has given us." Obviously I leaned my head against the pole in the mosque.

"But, Ma'am Arum is prettier than me, Mas... " Remain again.

I closed the call from him at that time. I rushed home. I can't let her cry alone. She's the flower of my life, the lamp of my life. How I let the Flowers in my life cry and feel inferior. I was half running. I entered from the kitchen door that is usually not in the lock now if it is still afternoon like this.

He greeted me at the door of the room. True to my guess, he was already covered in tears..

"Dear dear, beautiful it is not in the view of how much he liked many people, admired many people, praised by many people ,but the real beauty is seen from how capable he is of specializing himself only for one person, namely his Halal lover. And that's you. That's you Sekar Ayu Gumiwang. My wife." I said as I hugged her body tightly.

He put his hands around my waist. That night we cried together because we both felt that we needed the power of love to wade through the storm, and now the big waves were hitting the bottom of our household.

Lucky I went over first, so I more stock patiently face this weird situation. I looked more at the hadith of Abu Darda' which gave me the option to choose whether to obey my parents or to choose Sekar. I chose to remain with Sekar and will not be polygamous, it is appropriate in the hadith is the most noble choice and I feel no need to feel obliged because it is ruled by father and mother. The doctor said we still have a chance to have offspring. Although some married people have a purpose to have children, but I am more into Worship.

For me how can I who this little creature organizes and urges the owner of this life to realize my dream, forcing him to give life as I want. Maybe with the difficult trials of me and Sekar have offspring because God is trying to lift our degrees. I will remain patient with all the shortcomings and advantages of Sekar. There are many ways to get blessings and heaven if indeed God is more willing we have no offspring, the benefit of age. That's what I'm gonna do with the flowers of my life, Sekar.