TIME (For A Taste )
CHAPTRE 119

Thank you for being faithful.

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MALIA

Don't want to think about Reiji when I'm with Irsyad. But she did, after getting a chat message from Reiji, I kept thinking about her.

For the past five days Reiji and I have been like a pair of strangers living together.

Will my relationship with Reiji continue like this?....

Making Reiji bear the commotion in our household.

Maybe I am selfish by thinking about my own happiness, but I really want to enjoy happiness for me which I am now feeling.

I don't want to be in this situation.

But again – again fate as if toying with me.

Before I had to bury in my dreams with the man I loved in silence and marry Reiji.

Then, after the marriage happened, fate brought Irsyad back.

Not only did I come back, but Irsyad brought with it what I wanted to get out of it all those years ago.

Confession of his love for me.

Of course, it's too late.

But it still makes me a gamelan.

I don't want to hurt Reiji, but I don't want to be away from Irsyad now either.

And because of those two things both my eyes piled up.

“What’s wrong Lia (What's Lia)?...”

Irsyad extended her hand to me.

“I’m okay (I ga pa – pa)---“

I said when Irsyad's outstretched hand rubbed my wet eyes.

And he looked at me with concern. “You're right – really unhappy with your marriage. Is it Lia?...”

“Well.... I’m trying (i'm trying )..”.

I answered Irsyad's question by forcing my smile.

“I think it will be difficult if you live with someone you don't love, Li.”

And Irsyad's words made my wish come back to Reiji.

The words that made me feel ambiguous, whether I already loved Reiji or not.

“I love him, Sister....” I said, because that's what I obviously felt for Reiji.

“Li...”.

“Kak,” I said at the same time when Irsyad was about to talk.

“Ya?..”

“It looks like our watch plan today was canceled aja yes?”

Irsyad did not answer.

And it seems to be asking.

“I want to go home...” I said.

“Let me take you?...”

Irsyad.

I shook my head while smiling.

“I'll bring a car Sis...”

Irsyad smiled too.

“Iya I know...” Say Irsyad then. “Let me take your car, later I can come back here again to take my car.”

Irsyad's offer made me a little stunned, thinking why would he bother so?.... Does Irsyad want to make up for his guilt and regret for coming late for me?.

I shook my head again.

“No need, Brother ... I can do it myself.”

I gave my rejection a subtle way to Irsyad.

“Please ....” but Irsyad was strong with his desire to drive me and put a pleading gaze on me, besides he seemed concerned.

Then, my head nodded and Irsyad smiled while gently rubbing there.

I and Irsyad were silent on the way to my apartment. I also stared at the road from behind the windshield on my left side.

I'm kind of wondering how to take a stand with my marriage to Reiji. Irsyad remained calm driving next door, not a word.

It was as if Irsyad understood that my heart was riled and gambled, and I needed space to think. And with time paused during that trip, I remembered Reiji.

All of a sudden, I want to go home and meet Reiji.

Want to talk heart to heart, without emotion, and say all my heart to her.

Maybe I'll get a solution from him. From Reiji, my husband.

I felt a soft rub in my head. And at that moment, I quickly brushed off the urge to speak from heart to heart with Reiji.

And then a quick desire came....

I, all of a sudden, want only Irsyad beside me.

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“Yang ....” call Reiji on the sidelines I'm eating his homemade spaghetti at the dinner table in our apartment.

The spaghetti that Reiji made was actually quite appetizing, as I saw a lot of ground meat mixed with the sauce.

And indeed I admit the taste is equivalent to the taste of spaghetti in an Italian restaurant well recommended in the Kemang area.

I should have felt that way.

Yeah, should.

If I love her.

But unfortunately I don't love Reiji yet.

I don't know.

How I feel about Reiji I don't know.

I've been trying to love Reiji with this marriage, but maybe it's because my heart is still shackled by the past, so I find it hard.

And I don't blame Reiji, if he can't win my heart.

I really appreciate his efforts for that.

But my heart, I could not control it, I could not force to love quickly the man I loved as a brother and now became my husband.

I tried, but I felt it was in the end a waste. Perhaps love cannot be tried - other than it cannot be forced.

Maybe it wasn't supposed to be my marriage and Reiji before I actually buried my past with Irsyad.

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“Ya? ...” I immediately replied, when I heard Reiji calling me on our side to eat, sitting opposite.

“Where did you stop by before you came home?...” asked Reiji, where the question made me nervous instantly.

Does Reiji know if I went with Irsyad? ....

Or, did Reiji see Irsyad drive me to the apartment?

Although Irsyad only drove up to the entrance of the apartment gate, then he got out of my car, after telling me to get in without waiting for him to get transportation to pick up his car he was staying in the Mall parking lot where we had agreed.

“Why? ...”

I asked Reiji back, covering up my nervousness.

“Ga anything. It's aja.”

And for a moment I felt relieved, after hearing Reiji's reply. And I don't know why my heart is breaking when Reiji doesn't go into more detail about my return to our apartment.

“Oh..”

I flat-footed.

“Yang --“ Reiji called me again.

I retorted again, directing my gaze at Reiji.

“Ya?”

“Tomorrow come with me to attend an event held by the airline --“

Reiji then spoke and I spontaneously frowned.

“Sort of family gathering that ..” he continued. “But for flight crew only --“

“Besok? ..”

I spontaneously asked to be sure.

“Iya --“ Reiji immediately agreed. “At the top of the show .. semalem aja kok.”

Reiji resumed his talk as he focused more on looking at me.

“Back from there we instantly stopped by our parents' house, because I was off too --“ week

“I have to come, yes? ..”

I asked slowly.

“Family gathering?” Reiji asked back.

“Iya.”

“Ya should ga should ---“

“But I'm males, Rei ---“

“Males?”

“Ya males aja ---“ I said indifferently later.

“Yang, although to join this event held every three months is not a necessity to be attended by the flight crew, but I should attend to honor the airline where I take shelter ..”

Reiji.

I breathe out slowly. “Liat tomorrow deh Rei.” I said later.

“The trick is already tomorrow Yang-“ Reiji directly snatched. “For us to leave. Because despite using their respective vehicles, the departure of the convoy ..”

Then he spoke long and got up from his seat, because the spaghetti in Reiji's plate had gone clean.

I bit my lips.

“I've got an actual event tomorrow Rei ..”

And spoke hesitantly to Reiji, while looking at him who had just put his former meal into the sink.

“What way?”

Reiji, who I thought was going to wash the dishes, turned to me and looked at me sharply.

“Events with Irsyad? ..” Shoot Reiji.

“Iya.” I answered without me covering up because I had indeed agreed to Irsyad's invitation to go to a Painting Gallery tomorrow, because the painter was Irsyad's friend and the painter invited Irsyad to come, then Irsyad invited me - who without a second thought I did.

“Ya already then---“ Reiji said flatly following his expression, then the next second he turned around and started busying himself in the sink.

“I---“ I want to tell you what I'm going to do tomorrow with Irsyad. But then ...

“I'll go with you tomorrow, on your show with Irsyad..”.

And my knees were limp, hearing Reiji say he wanted to go with me tomorrow.

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