TIME (For A Taste )
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REIJI

I convinced myself that Lia might be on PMS, or maybe she'll get her monthly guests until she looks weird tonight.

Lia doesn't look excited. Other than her words that sounded as if she was insinuating me.

Though this morning, although there was a tightness when I drove him to the office, but before that Lia seemed mediocre.

And Lia's steadfastness to me, she admitted that there was a problem in her work. So maybe that's what makes Lia look moody today.

Or yes it is because of the PMS syndrome that is commonly experienced by women – Syndrome which is a little terrible for me.

But after that, I found a testpack in the bathroom with one red line. Negatively.

All I know is that the check line on the testpack is just one. And Lia also confirmed about the results of the pregnancy examination that she did by using the testpack was negative.

Is it possible that Lia is so moody, uninspired and moody?.

I encouraged him later. Maybe Lia had hoped to be given a baby soon, but the results of the examination on the testpack made him disappointed.

Lia listlessly said if he realized he was late for the month, so he immediately bought and checked his own condition with a testpack.

But in fact the results of the examination on the testpack are negative, and Lia is only late for the usual month.

So I took the initiative to cheer her up, by taking Lia out tonight, even though it was a bit late.

I want to make Lia feel relaxed.

And I was happy when Lia agreed to come out on this holiday night. Hope Lia's mood is good again after we spend time on Friday night, as a couple who.

But in reality Lia was more silent during the trip, even when we stopped by a food stall.

It's not usually like this.

As far as I know Lia is stuffed with snacks, and with snacks plus diajajanin that Lia's mood can be good again, in accordance with my previous experience when she was still my ade-ade-an.

Consider so.

Even if it was only once or twice I did, considering I was never too close to Lia other than as a brother for her.

The Lia I know is often chatty when dealing with me. That's just until he's in High School if I'm not wrong.

Because ever since Lia went to college, she and I have come a little far, because they rarely meet. Even if you meet only in passing. And Lia doesn't seem to be fussy with me anymore, ever since we were betrothed.

But the attitude and nature of Lia that I once knew and felt first slowly began to return, ever since we started living together as husband and wife in our apartment.

A husband and wife who are legally and religiously legitimate.

And with Lia's slightly mysterious attitude tonight, it made my head faintly dizzy from wondering for myself about Lia's attitude.

Lia's been quiet a lot, not talking if I don't ask.

Also the answers I got are only ‘hem’, ‘ya’ and ‘not’ only.

But I let it go, I don't discuss it for issue.

Yes, because I think if Lia is stressed with her work, plus the hope that she thinks if she is pregnant is extinct because the results of the examination on the testpack are negative.

I let Lia with her attitude.

Maybe Lia needs some quiet.

Until the moment we returned to the apartment, Lia still looked uninspired.

Like there was a burden in his mind.

I noticed Lia's attitude.

I'm actually uncomfortable with Lia's strange demeanor tonight, but yeah, I was thinking of giving Lia some space for a while.

Lia who went straight into the room, even without doing the routine cleaning ritual he did if it runs out from the outside I let it.

Lia simply changed her clothes in her pajamas, then immediately lay sideways, turning her back to the side where I used to sleep on our bed.

And I just let Lia, while I go to the bathroom to wash my face and clean my mouth.

Afterwards, I went straight back to the room and joined Lia onto the bed.

I also did not rebuke Lia, even though she still turned her back on me.

I wanted to give Lia a kiss on her forehead actually, as usual if we were going to sleep. But I undo my intention, because I saw Lia who was fluttering in her position when I went to the bathroom earlier, then turned off the lights in the outside area of our room.

But when I just got on the bed,

“Rei ..”

Lia.

But Lia was still unmoved in her position.

“Ya?”

I said, as I continued to climb into bed, laying myself down.

“You love Shirly?”

And the line of questions I heard came out of Lia's mouth.

Is this Lia?.

I don't know what's going on inside Lia right now, which obviously makes me stop to lie down.

I turned straight towards Malia, who I saw getting up from her position and facing me.

We looked at each other for a moment. I felt my forehead twitching spontaneously.

Is it because of Irly, Lia's mood so not because of this?. Because I drove my best friend yesterday until I got home late, so Lia was thinking about me and Irly?.

But why did Lia know to ask like that if the problem was that I drove Irly to Om and Tante's house?. The time of friends who help their own friends is indicated because I love Irly?.

Yes, I once had feelings of love for Irly.

But that was before.

But why did Lia even ask such a question?.

Did Irly tell Lia that I once had a taste for my best friend that even expressed it?.

It doesn't feel possible.

“Or Shirly who loves you? ..”

Lia asked again, just as I was about to speak, to respond to Lia's previous question.

“Or do you both love each other, but for one reason or another, you can't be together?”

One more question Lia asked, before I had a voice to respond to Lia's two previous questions.

I don't know what Lia's thinking right now, which keeps me from thinking until Lia asks like that.

“You why the hell Yang?. Hm?”

Confused how to respond to Lia's question, I asked her back.

“Jawab my question Rei..” Lia spoke while looking at me a little sharply.

“Yes, I need to know why you suddenly asked so Yang-“

I still responded casually to Lia's attitude and frown, and I saw her tilting her body, then opening the nightstand drawer beside her.

Lia took something out of there, without closing the nightstand back.

“It..”.

I frowned again, as Lia thrust out something she had just picked up and took it out of the nightstand drawer.

A photograph.

Photos of me and Irly.

Which I even forgot if the photo ever existed. Photo of Irly's 25th birthday.

So because of this photo Lia so frantic like this?.

Ordinary photos, when I accompanied Irly who had a birthday, where she was in a difficult time at that time.

I wasn't alone with Irly at the time.

There was Abbas, and two of our other friends.

What's wrong with that photo?.

After all, it's an old photo, why should Lia be troubled right now.

I let out my breath.

“This makes you careless Which?..”

I said while asking Lia.

“Jawab my question Rei..”.

Lia spoke the same sentence as before.

“You ever had a relationship? .... have you ever dated?” cetus Lia's.

“I've told you, I've never had a relationship other than friendship with Irly-“

“She loves you?...”

Lia cut my sentence. A little irritated as well, if my sentence that wanted to explain to Lia was cut by him.

“Why think so?” tanyaku later.

“Jawab aja.”

Lia said, it's starting to sniff.

“You want to hear my explanation or do you want to?. If you're like this, I'm silent.”

I said firmly.

Lia was silent.

“Me and Irly, never had any relationship other than friendship ...” Again I confirm.

“Oh yes?...”

I saw a smile on Lia's face.

“Continue writing behind the photo, what?...”

I immediately turned over the photo that Lia had been proffering, and I still held it.

My Man, Reiji Shakeel.. Thank you for always being there for me..

Ps: If you are already a Captain, ask for a flight schedule that often to Australia so that I can often nengokin.

There are footprints, Irly's handwriting behind this photo I'm holding. What I just remembered, if Irly gave this photo as a memento when I and the other friends, will return to Indonesia, after giving a surprise on Irly's birthday, when he decided to stay in Australia.

“Does he mention all the men included in his best friend by the designation ‘My Man’?”

Lia started to pick me up.

“Kok onem?.”

Lia connected her sentence.

I was silent not to be evasive, but confused as to how to explain to Lia, where to start.

“Only to me,” I said in the end. “Only to me appellation ‘My Man’ that Irly pin---“ to be honest. But before I continued, Lia cut back on my words.

“So Shirly it does have the same special feeling you-“

“Ga!”

I cut Lia's words, broke her assumption about Shirly's feelings for me, just a matter of ‘My Man’. My guy.

There's a story, because why those two words Irly pinned on me.

“Yang, you don't need to mind the note behind this photo. It's just writing, ‘My Man’ he pinned to me, because du-lu ...”

I emphasize the word ‘dulu’ that Lia responded.

“Because I was the closest to Irly back then, I was the one who was often there when she was tough.“

I started to explain.

“Not because he has the same feeling I am..”.

I looked at Lia firmly, but without a trace of emotion on my face, even though I was a little uncomfortable with Lia's scolding towards me.

“So I emphasize once again, if I and Irly never had any relationship outside of friendship,”. And I saw Lia tilting her body again, taking something back from inside the nightstand drawer.

“So you love her?..”

Another photo of Lia thrust at me.

Irly post-card photo, the photo behind her there is a scratch symbol of love.

The symbol of love that is the scratch of my hand.

I don't know where Lia found the photo. The photo that I even forgot existed and still I kept like the one that Lia had previously thrust on me.

But with Lia finding this photo, I feel really bad.

“So right, if you love her?” lia cecar. He looked at me as if he wasn't blinking.

“Ya,” honestly. Lia's still staring at me. “But he past.”

I immediately connected my words, so that Lia would not get dragged by the wild currents of her mind.

“But you still love him?..”

Lia looked at me sharply.

“Ga.”

I answered steady.

“You I love now.”

I said that line of words by looking at Lia fixedly, so that she could see the radiance from my eyes, if I was honest with her about it.

“You sure you love me?” But Lia seemed to not believe my words.

I'm nodding.

“Ya!” Again, I say steady.

“Then why these photos you still save—“

“Yang—“

I cut Lia's words.

But Lia cut me off again.

“You save it and you bring it here..”

I caught the suspicion in Lia's unbroken vortex of eyes looking at me.

“You still have the same feeling, right?”

Lia's still picking me up.

“Because if you do, you will not take all this to our new abode, where we start a new life. Ki-ta, Reg..”.

Lia looks riled up.

“It should only be about us who are here, not you who bring about someone who has meant something in your past, which I think you do still have the same feelings as your girl friend, and you deliberately brought all the photos that have a story, or whether what other items related to him, that you brought here so you can remember him.”.

“He's just my past --”

“The past is too beautiful for you to forget?”

She cut my words again. I now confronted myself completely to Lia.

“Yang, horrified me..”.

I grabbed Lia's shoulder, looking at her fixedly.

“She's just someone we don't need to fuss with now, or later.”.

I confirmed my gaze, the meaning of the solemnity of my words.

“Trust me, believe that my heart is now for you, Yang.”

“....”

“About me who once loved him you don't need to think about it anymore. My love for her is the end!”

Once again I tried to convince Lia, asserting her that Lia shouldn't worry about my special feelings ever being with Irly.

“If it's the end, it's impossible for you to bring with you memories of him until here Rei..” said Lia.

Lia was still scattering, but her voice I heard began to wail.

I took my breath deep. I don't know what's going through Lia's mind right now.

“Listen to Me Who..”

I took my hand off Lia's shoulder.

“One commitment that I held dear as I accepted our matchmaking, was to love you-“

And now I'm cupping both of Lia's cheeks. I wanted to tell her what was in my heart honestly.

But again for the umpteenth time, Lia cut my words. Now, as her voice melted, Lia's gaze began to pierce me.

“I'm just your escape huh?..”

And that sentence really blew me away.

“Our matchmaking that you received without thinking long.Our marriage is not solely your devotion to parents, but also your, but it is your own self-evidence that fights with your feelings to Shirly that you still keep. And with you inviting her to our wedding, to prove either to her or to yourself, that you have won that fight by marrying me. An engineering, to cover your own feelings. Make me your victory trophy..”.

Escape...

How could Lia have such a conclusion?.

I removed my fist from Lia's cheek.

I was no longer irritated at Lia's scolding, but there was a sense of anger that started to rumble in my heart over Lia's baseless accusations against me.

“Throw away your bad thoughts, Yang,” I said, while getting out of bed. “You should not just conclude,” connect me. And now I've stood my back to Lia. Just so Lia doesn't see if my jaw has hardened.

How angry I am at Lia's accusation to me.

But I still spoke calmly, even though I no longer looked at Lia. Maybe I'll come out of the room first to neutralize this rumble of anger in my heart.

“I don't know what else to say with you, about how I feel to Irly who has not existed even from the time I was betrothed to you.”

I was about to step out of the room and let Lia herself so that she could think clearly, and also give myself time to temper this anger, so that my quarrel with Lia would not become.

Yet...

“Maybe, I, we, have stepped wrong. Too soon to agree to be matched. Too soon decided to get married.”

Lia's soft voice sounded cold.

“I realized, I was wrong, you were wrong, with the decision of our matchmaking. Matchmaking that we should never have received..” continued Lia. “This soul mate line, too forced..”.

And I froze.

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