TIME (For A Taste )
THE CHAPTER 94

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MALIA

What's going on with me and Reiji right now makes me want to go back to a time when I haven't found out about Reiji ever harboring his love for Irly.

Back to the time when Irsyad hadn't reappeared in my life.

Even I wish that I never saw Reiji's blue box and unpacked it, so that my curiosity about Reiji and Shirly I never saw.

Never wanted to read Reiji's collection, so I never found a picture of Shirly scratched by the symbol of love behind her, to make me think that Reiji would be the same as me.

Not moved on from the past.

To create a crisis in my brain, which made me refrain from reneging on my promise to Reiji to open the doors of my heart so that Reiji could enter easily.

It made me feel betrayed, even though Reiji had convinced me many times that his feelings for Shirly were completely gone.

I tried to believe it, but in fact I somehow found it hard to believe it.

Yeah, that's because I liken Reiji to me.

I find it hard to forget Irsyad and was shackled by my feelings for the man in my past. Then, in the end it made me think that Reiji was the same as me.

Reiji who he said only thought of Shirly as his friends, nothing more than that, made me hesitate even more after I found out that they were still in contact.

Well, even though it makes sense, it's exactly what Reiji told me. She and Shirly are still friends. It is only natural that they are still in contact. But somehow it became my alibi to be annoyed at Reiji.

Makes me forget my promise to be a good wife to Reiji.

And that situation, it's getting more and more protracted after I get back to Irsyad. It was getting late, with Irsyad's attitude that made me ambiguous when we met again after several years of not meeting, even losing communication.

The irsyad I felt saw a hurt look in his eyes, when he found out that I was married.

And the reason he returned to Jakarta again that makes me quite surprised, because he resigned from a job at his dream company in London.

Then about ‘kejutan’ for me that Irsyad discussed, made me undo the intention to undo my intention to bury deeply about an Irsyad in my heart.

Although until this moment, Irsyad did not say what surprise it was.

Making me think and ask in my heart, could it be that Irsyad's return to Jakarta is for me?.

Because after a long time, then he realized his feelings for me, that Irsyad loved me.

And Irsyad's return to Jakarta at this time to resign from his dream workplace, because Irsyad wants to be with me.

In the end, my conjectures about Irsyad's return caused my heart and mind to become muddled. Makes me forgetful and lazy to remember the promise to be a good wife to Reiji.

The presence of Irsyad is like a support for me who doubted the words of Reiji who said he loved me.

Which led to a rejection of me to Reiji, due to my annoyance that was present because I remembered again about the feelings that Reiji had for Shirly.

But I don't deny, if there's guilt in the recesses of my heart to Reiji.

Reiji who looks angry if I bring up Shirly, and for the first time she says in a high tone to me it seems to hold her disappointment in me, and I glimpsed her in Reiji's eyes.

But I didn't feel offended at all because Reiji spoke in such a high tone to me like that.

Maybe, because I'm ‘tau self’.

To myself, to myself this is a heart of instability.

Labil, because he's still shackled by the past.

Ah Lord, I think I want to go back to the time before Irsyad I met again after I married Reiji.

If necessary, I want Irsyad to never come back to Jakarta, or come to see me again.

Then I, do not need to feel bad to reject Irsyad's invitation to ‘chat’, which in the end ‘chat’ session that I think is just ‘saling say hello’ because it has not met for a long time, it's been my routine lately.

What I think my ‘chat’ session with Irsyad is just ‘saling say hello’ then then parting ways and living each other's lives, it turns out to be sustainable. Irsyad has invited me to meet several times.

Never considered to refuse, but in the end I could not refuse Irsyad's invitation to meet again.

And damn, my heart felt really good when I met Irsyad again..

Oh Rei, I'm upset to know that she and Shirly are still friends and on good terms.

While I'm alone?....

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The memory of the memories of Reiji swirled in my brain.

Ever since I knew Reiji, I respected him as an older brother.

Accustomed to the character of Reiji who looks calm and does not talk much. However, he often gave me and Avi advice.

Well, sometimes with a shitty attitude.

But I still respect him.

And after we became husband and wife, after Reiji's past special feelings for Shirly, then I became sentimental towards Reiji, it happens like before if he was advising me and Avi with his style that seemed indifferent.

What Reiji told me about his past and Shirly's problems, I admit I should have accepted, I can think of with logic.

Unfortunately, Irsyad has made my logic seem lost now. Makes me not want to hear or understand any more of his explanations regarding his relationship with Shirly.

To be exact, I avoided. Feeling that the real mistake was with me. Until Reiji's arguments seem to scare me into realizing that I'm married, and my relationship with him should return after talking to each other from heart to heart.

But the other side of my heart refused, revolting, to not sit down to talk to Reiji to make my relationship with him good again.

I am a coward. But it seems more like, I-what I am, is being overrun by something that I feel more and more real every day since Irsyad came back into my life.

How'this?....

How should I tell Reiji, if I still love other men.

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From the advice that I have received from both my parents, that problems in the household should not be taken out of place, namely the house – places where husband and wife together.

Let the matter remain there, and it must be resolved immediately in its place.

'My 'home' and Reiji.

That is the apartment I lived with the man who had been my husband, in the space of four months.

But the thing is, what happened between me and Reiji, is not a household issue – in my opinion.

My liver.

Which Reiji then hit. My relationship with Reiji is in this.

I don't want to scapegoat Irsyad.

But the chaos of the mind, especially my heart, is indeed because of her.

Plus Irsyad who has resigned from his job in London, is now pioneering his career in Jakarta.

Irsyad's busy. I'm sure it is.

But unlike before when he was ‘sibuk’, this time he did not ‘ignore-ku’ on the sidelines of his busyness.

Irsyad often invites me to meet, just eat or drink coffee and chat.

Making it look like angels and demons are in my heart, and fighting. And well, it feels like I'm the one who made the devil win, along with my guilt who went alone with a man who wasn't my husband.

Even though Irsyad and I just met in a restaurant or a coffee shop today. And I don't know if Irsyad realized that the one he made a pact to meet was someone's wife.

Because we are always alone when arranging an appointment to meet.

Although in crowded places, still this is similar to what is called dating, right?.

And this man's wife, just accepting Irsyad's invitation to meet and meet us, almost became a routine agenda.

Until I left Reiji at the apartment, on the grounds that I wanted to be alone.

Though...

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“Hei.”

“Hei Brother Irsyad. Have you been waiting a long time?”

Malia greeted Irsyad who immediately stood up from his seat, when Malia had arrived before the man in a Japanese restaurant in East Jakarta.

Not at the Sushi Restaurant that Malia and Irsyad used to go to, when it was still very familiar.

“I am happy you still want to accept my invitation again to meet gini, Li ..” said Irsyad after Malia sat in the chair opposite him.

“Hmm... how about it? –“

Malia replied, hanging her sentence for a moment

“Ga could not.”

And Irsyad smiled widely.

‘Ga to nolak more precisely ..’

Malia spoke in her heart.

Then Malia showed a smile to Irsyad.

“Suami do you give permission?...”

Irsyad asked lightly.

‘Entah Rei give permission or not, which I obviously just left in the apartment to go see you, Irsyad ..’

Malia Monologue in her heart.

“Still ..”

Then Malia's mouth lied.

“Thank God that he gave you permission to meet me --” Malia just smiled faintly hearing Irsyad's words just now.

“I think newlyweds are usually more fun kasmaran..” Irsyad then said that it seemed that he intended to fight.

But Malia's thin smile became a wry smile, which Irsyad did not realize, because the man seemed to joke originally, because he was reading the menu book while pulling out his claws for Malia. ‘Then it's like that, yeah no way I'm here with you, Irsyad.’

Malia.

‘You yourself are aware that the one you met several times this week, is the wife of people?..’

Malia's question to Irsyad that only she had in her heart.

“Li? ..”

Irsyad's voice called out to Malia who seemed to be daydreaming.

That instantly pulled Malia from her daydream and immediately responded to Irsyad's call to her just now.

“Ya?” malia Response.

“What's up?”

Irsyad asked.

“Ga nothing kok.”

Malia answered by showing a smile, to make it look natural.

Seyogyanya, Malia's mind is now in addition to questioning Irsyad's consciousness to invite her to meet who has been several times, Malia is also questioning something to herself.

“Oh Yes Li---“

Irsyad again called Malia who immediately turned her head slightly bowed because she was looking at the menu book, to Irsyad who was about to ask her to talk again.

“Yes, Brother?” malia Response.

And after that, Irsyad immediately asked a question that made Malia confused how to answer it.

“By the way about your husband who loves your permission to meet me who incidentally met your guy, indeed you have told us about our friendship on campus first? ..”

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Greetings enjoy.

Queen's Mother.