TIME (For A Taste )
CHAPTRE 135

Thank you for being faithful.

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MALIA

From the moment I heard Reiji issued a threat to Irsyad-though not directly, I had been in deep thought.

As far as I know, if the reset mode again ga-on used to like the chatter of me and Avi, Avi, or since getting married sometimes Reiji looks stupid to me and is busy with his hobbies on books and leaving me to join alone while he feels at home with his book, Reiji is the type of person who is calm - besides relaxed.

So if Reiji seemed to be stirred up by emotion, even then Reiji was still talking calmly, I felt Reiji's patience was on the verge of being pushed to the limit.

I don't know, I don't know about Irysad.

I don't know.

Whatever it is, I'm starting to feel uncomfortable.

What I thought was the discomfort was the fear of Irsyad being harbored by Reiji.

But that's not what makes my heart feel uncomfortable.

The discomfort of my heart is due to Reiji.

Not because Reiji wanted to do anything to Irsyad, but because there was a ring of guilt in my heart to Reiji.

Until I make a decision, I will return to my commitment, when I declare my willingness to marry Reiji.

I want to fulfill my promise to Reiji, be a good wife to him, and accept our arranged marriage with grace.

It hard.

To bury my dreams back - and to stop myself the happiness I was feeling, when I knew Irsyad had the same taste for me, as I did for him.

Although I did not say directly how I felt about Irsyad, I always agreed to meet Irsyad to spend time together.

But not spending time in a low way.

Just meet, eat together or hangout to places we trigger each or together.

It's just like that, and I feel happy. Hope it will continue like that with Irsyad.

Was.

It was like that.

Before I realized, if there's a heart hurting under my happiness.

The heart I should have taken care of, my husband's heart.

The man who was paddling me, was so patient with me.

Indeed, once, Reiji's tone of voice rose up to me.

But even that was because of my annoying attitude towards her - say it quite rudely to the husband.

Where I didn't know shame, telling the truth if I made a deal with Irsyad without me thinking about Reiji's feelings.

And for that, I'm sorry.

I was blinded by my love for Irsyad, until I deliberately ignored Reiji's outpouring of attention and affection for me, as well as his attempt to dispel my skeptical thoughts - Reiji's words about me always thought he still had a taste for a woman named Shirly. His companions.

In fact, indeed, I never found any evidence of that, other than the traces of the past that Reiji brought into our lives. Which is what Reiji said, he did not mean anything to bring a photo album of his memories, and had forgotten a photo that I found tucked in his book.

Where the photo was I looked again in the inserts of Reiji's books in our multipurpose room, but I did not find it. Including the photos of Reiji alone with Shirly, there was nothing else I saw in her memory album. (Well, when a picture of Shirly with a stroke of Reiji's symbol of love I didn't find where I found her, I looked for her in Reiji's memorable photo album with her best friends, inside the blue box where I found one hand-scratched photo of Shirly, who referred to Reiji as ‘My Man’).

That picture I never found again. Until I finally found out the fact from Avi, that Reiji had burned the photos of the trigger for my relationship and Reiji because of my trust wavering in him - including because of my skeptical mind.

And Reiji never told me that. I don't know why.

But yes, it is important that close-up photos of the woman and photos of Reiji who are just alone with her even though it is not friendly that already does not exist.

Maybe I'll ask you sometime why Reiji burned those photos.

That's if I want to.

I better just focus on my new relationship with Reiji on this second chance of us - especially me, to really accept Reiji as my born and inner husband. Love him, as he loves me.

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If I remember how I felt about Irsyad, I find it hard to take a step back, saying stay away from him.

I can not deny, there was bitter in my heart when I wrote a message for him, where the chat message I sent for him, indirectly remind Irsyad if I am a married woman.

Which also indirectly says, if in the end I choose my husband. There is no future for me and Irsyad. He came too late, until the opportunity was gone.

And again, I didn't say anything about how I felt about her.

Not giving her hope.

Sad, but I have chosen.

And Reijilah is the one I chose, not Irsyad.

With a glimmer of hope if I don't choose wrongly, even though my heart is still gambled.

However, as it turned out, my excitement over my decision whether it was wrong or right to choose to stay with Reiji only lasted for a short while.

I remember the message of my parents, to try to ask for answers to the Supreme Being for all problems.

And I did.

I try to cover everything.

My love and dreams for Irsyad.

And the Most All-Everything gave me His answer.

My heart is slobber, now I have chosen Reiji.

Sure, if my choice wasn't wrong to get back on track.

In the reality of a wife.

She should focus on her husband.

Very focused even.

Too focused, until I finally realized, that I actually loved Reiji.

I don't know since when I've loved Reiji.

But now, I feel, if Irsyad is my past obsession alone. Maybe I loved her in college, and I felt like I loved her all this time.

But if I remember again, I feel like I never get upset if there are women who glance at Irsyad when we are together.

Things I didn't feel when I was with Reiji, after I decided to go back to my commitment as his wife.

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I was really upset to see the women who stole a glance at Reiji while we were shopping monthly for our food supplies in the apartment.

There were even those who blatantly threw a smile at Reiji, even though there was me beside Reiji.

Blind times his eyes are female!. It was clearly a man he was smiling at not alone!. Or is it basically a gatel woman?!.

Makes me want to gouge those chick-flavored eye seeds.

And that made me realize that jealousy that was arising and felt strong, because I no longer just love Reiji.

Moreover, the empathy for Reiji that I had felt first during the family gathering held by the place where Reiji worked, and the night before that.

Reiji seemed to have his own way of touching me. However, I could clearly see the wound he felt, knowing that his skeptical wife had feelings for another man.

Somehow Reiji's heart shape.

Because even like that, even though he had time to keep his distance from me.

Which I understand, because he must be so upset with me that Reiji keeps his distance from me.

But it didn't last long, because Reiji's attitude was back to me. But Reiji was a bit of a forger, becoming someone like the Reiji I knew.

But that was not long, because then he returned to being an ordinary Reiji. But a little different.

The difference is, there are eyes hurt every time he looks at me when he is talking to me.

Which it is, disturbs the recess of my heart.

Not to mention the words of Reiji that describe if he wants to survive, but does not want to also impose.

Things, which are related to my happiness. Without Reiji caring for his own happiness. Hal, who strengthened me to decide, to let go of Irsyad, and clasped Reiji's hand.

Even so, Reiji did not necessarily look like he wanted to rule me, even though I had shown a signal if I would ‘back’ to him.

Reiji, keep thinking about my wishes, my comfort.

Hal, which makes my empathy even greater for her. Until when Reiji was floating me in the bathroom, after his vulgarity he teased me and seemed to want ‘stalked me’ in the bathtub, which is what Reiji did.

Reiji did not ask, but he seemed to be worried that I would be reluctant to make love to him.

Reiji ‘released me’, after vulgarly he teased me, even he had time to ******* my lips. Which I think will continue with a sex session in the bathtub.

Butno. Reiji ‘ let go of me’ by saying if I can get sick if later soak. Then he kissed my forehead feeling, and the sentence “I love you ..”, softly uttered from his lips after Reiji gave a soft peek full of my forehead feeling.

And the warmth was so obvious I felt in my heart. Until I no longer hesitate to say,

“Rei, I think I already love you. So, I love you too ..” while I softly say one side of Reiji's cheek while smiling at him.

But Reiji was silent.

Until I felt bad, then I protested to Reiji.

Who instead of replying to me affectionately, even he was frozen.

But then, I was coiled again with great guilt.

My heart felt bitter when I saw Reiji's reaction.

“Repeat, Which? ... repeat what you said earlier ... I'm afraid I'm just a hallucination.”

Geez Rei, until that is how you are astonished at my confession that already loves you? ...

I felt sorry for myself, because I realized that I had hurt Reiji a little.

I do deserve to grieve myself for my attitude towards Reiji all along. Sorry about Rei? ...

I stroked Reiji's face with both hands, and stared fixedly at his net.

Then I said,

“You are here, Reiji Shakeel --“

While I pointed my upper chest at the left with one of my index fingers.

“Not anymore just a pity. but love --“ I said next, sincere from my deepest heart.

Yes, love, not pity.

I really loved this man.

Reiji Shakeel, my husband.

The one who immediately scattered and hugged me so tightly.

Too tight, until I feel a little claustrophobic.

But I let.

I let my husband hold me as much as he could, even though it felt like the skin of my palm was beginning to shrink from being in the water for so long.

I smiled in Reiji's arms, hugging him back.

But then I slipped, looking at the corner of Reiji's wet eyes after I broke his embrace.

“Sorry so melow deh.” Reiji said as he chuckled smallly and rubbed the tip of his eyes.

Oh Rei, how happy are you, getting love from me?...

“Lebay huh?--“ said Reiji again while looking at me with a smile while chuckling small again. “Abis-be... I'm too happy, Yang--“

I don't think about anything else, don't want to hear Reiji talking about his expression of happiness for my confession to him that made me happy and guilty at the same time.

So, uh,

Cup.

I kissed Reiji right on his lips.

“I love you, Rei..”.

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