TIME (For A Taste )
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“You get to the car first, Yang...” Reiji said to Malia, after the bread they chose was counted in the cash register by the bakery clerk who was visited by Reiji and Malia. Malia nodded.

Malia then walked away from Reiji with two plastic boxes filled with bread as a hand for Reiji and Malia's parents.

Malia had gotten into Reiji's car first, and had her seatbelt fastened after putting a plastic bag of bread in it in the rear passenger seat. Malia's eyes were fixed on the windshield in front of her, waiting for Reiji to come out of the bakery they were visiting.

Malia's eyes then squinted, with her body that she slightly pushed forward to confirm her vision, as Reiji exited the shop. Where Reiji seems to collide slowly with a man, then Reiji and the man are both seen apologizing to each other.

‘Ga possible!’

Malia cried out in her heart.

‘Irsyad?!’ A Malia name was uttered in her heart, with her eyes still focused on looking towards the bakery in front of her.

Malia then shook her head quickly.

‘Ga maybe if it's Irsyad! He's in London for his dream! No way he's back here!’ inner Malia.

Malia was feeling restless.

**

MALIA

Maybe I was wrong for never asking any further about Reiji's past.

I was just pivoting on my feelings of not loving Reiji, so wanting to know about the past women in Reiji's life didn't want me to match up any deeper.

Until the fact about Shirly I found out, where Reiji's feelings were involved.

Where it is, I don't know why it bothers me.

But Reiji has stressed that his feelings for Shirly are past.

And I was too suspicious, because the photos I found of Reiji and Shirly's closeness, made me think that Reiji still had a taste for her best friend.

Because the photos that seemed to be memories of the beautiful past were heavy Reiji let go, until he brought it to a place where there should only be stories about me and Reiji alone, until he brought it to a place where there should be only stories about me and Reiji, without involving each of our past, with the person who once lived in our hearts.

But when Reiji said unequivocally, that his love for Shirly was dead, I chose to believe. Shouldn't I trust my husband?. Although, there was still a wedge in my heart about Reiji's feelings for his female best friend. Girlfriend who calls Reiji ‘My man’.

My brain is still thinking about Reiji and his past with Shirly. What did Reiji feel for his best friend. How would he step with me, if his feet were still entangled in the past?. The past that Reiji brought in the photo is definitely a back-story of memories upon him. Which sometimes makes me a little emotional when I think about it.

Ah already....

What was in Reiji's heart, only he and God knew.

Just like what is in my heart, too.

But about Reiji and his past with his best friend, about what Reiji felt for him, I better not think about it.

Toh Reiji said that right now he loves me. And I choose to believe that. And I think that's what I should do. Trust Reiji.

Where I should also believe, that my past and my feelings for someone at that time no longer matter.

The gates of my past should have been shut since I married Reiji.

I have to forget it. I have to be sure I can forget it. Closing all hopes of my past love.

I promised to open the door to my heart so wide to Reiji. I love him now.

I will love Reiji someday.

Yes, I have to believe that, just as Reiji said he was right and really loved me.

That Reiji's love for his best friend had died, and now there was only love in his heart for me.

Maybe time will prove it. Showing me the earnestness of Reiji's words that he says now only love me.

I guess I just need to wait. Waiting for proof of Reiji loving me, and waiting for time to come for me to love him.

Also waiting for my own past to no longer overshadow me. Because the past does not need to be brought into my new life. And I'm gonna start letting go, everything about Irsyad.

Because it should have been like that.

Slowly, I'll make myself forget it.

Forget about Irsyad and everything about him.

My dream to be with Irsyad, who even when she was close, we never had a special relationship.

Just close, familiar, mutually dividing attention.

The things that made my heart grow for an Irsyad, which I should have forgotten, with determination.

But....

What I was saying in my heart, as if it just broke concentration.

When my eyes caught a figure very similar to Irsyad.

No, it can't be Irsyad!. Irsyad is already comfortable living in London with a job at the company of his dreams.

Dreams that beat me, until Irsyad did not even have time to just greet me via e-mail. So it's impossible.

It is impossible that the man who had collided with Reiji in front of the door of the shop we just visited was Irsyad. Who then goes into the same bakery, after apologizing to Reiji.

But I, it felt like I wanted to take off the seatbelt that had hooked my body, then get out of the car and go back inside the bakery to confirm my guess. Maybe I would, if I wasn't with Reiji.

Oh my God, I'm nervous.

Is that really Irsyad?.

Even if it's true is Irsyad, then?....

I can't answer my own questions right now.

Even if it was Irsyad, there's no way he'd be here to see me after all this time, right?.

Huh, it feels impossible.

But why would I wish that?.

**

From the day that I saw a male figure very similar to Irsyad, since then my heart that I had set out to forget everything about him, as if stuck, did not fly.

Maybe more accurately, I was the one holding him flying. Hope about Irsyad that I want to lose, so stay where it is. So unstable was I.

I should never have expected Irsyad again. It's appropriate that way, isn't it?. Given that I have the status of a wife now.

But by looking at that Irsyad-like figure, the waves of my past hit me again. Feel the thrill of love I once felt for that man before I tried to bury him.

*

‘Yes God, why do I keep thinking about Irsyad anyway?!!’

Malia was cursed in her heart.

Besides Malia, there was Reiji who was driving a car and was about to drive Malia to the office building where Malia worked.

“Eh?!” Malia gasps. When he felt a soft caress on his head.

Reiji smiled beside him. “Thinking what the hell?”

Reiji who had tilted his body and no longer focused on the wheel, then asked Malia.

Malia pulled the corner of her lips. Smiling at Reiji. “Ga think of nothing.”

Malia replied with an expression she made normal to Reiji.

“There are more problems in the office? ..” ask Reiji again.

Malia shakes. “Cock,” Reply Malia. “My work is okay ..”

“But it's like someone is troubling your mind, Yang.”

“You feel that way anyway, Rei.” Malia said. “I'm mediocre a feeling.” she continued.

Reiji cleared his throat slowly.

“I'm down huh?” malia said she realized that the car that Reiji was driving was in the basement of the office building where she worked.

Malia coded to cross Reiji's hand.

Reiji immediately thrust his right hand at Malia.

“Assalamu’alaikum.”

Malia says her greeting after kissing Reiji's back.

Malia stopped opening the car door on her left side. “What?.” ask Malia. “Cium?.” connect Malia and Reiji smile amusedly.

Cups!.

A kiss on Reiji's lips, Malia lay before Reiji made a sound in response to Malia's speech just now.

Reiji smiled shadyly after getting a kiss from Malia on his lips.

“Still,” says Reiji afterwards. And Malia responded to Reiji's thanks with a nod of her head accompanied by a smile.

“Ya I'm down now huh?” pamit Malia's.

“Hurry huh?”

Reiji asked.

Malia also nodded.

“Why?.. Ask to kiss her?.” Malia babble.

Reiji chuckles. “Later a bonus kiss, fitting me back from Monaco I billih..”

Malia grunts amusedly.

“So why?.” ask Malia. He stopped himself from getting out of the car.

The journey from her apartment and Reiji wasn't too jammed just now, so Malia had enough free time now, before the office entrance hours arrived.

“Truly again there is nothing you think, Which?” Reiji.

Malia nodded her head several times.

“Bener Reii..” Contact Malia.

Reiji pulled the corner of his lips.

“I noticed, from the moment we returned from the house of mama and papa, you are a lot of bengong because of.”

“Your feelings are Rei.”

“Humm..”

“I'm okay, Rei.”

“Thank God if you are not again why-why, Yang.”

Reiji again rubbed the top of Malia's head, where the head owner showed his smile.

“I'm just worried, if you still keep a wedge about..” Reiji hung up his sentence. “Mast time I.”

“We don't need to discuss that?”

“.....”

“Which obviously I no longer think about it also kok.” Malia dismisses Reiji's allegations of what is troubling her mind.

“Totally?”

“Bener.”

Malia says definitely.

“Thankful if so..”

There was some relief in Reiji's heart.

At least Reiji can catch Malia being honest about her past that triggered a small quarrel with Malia a few days ago.

“I will not be the same as you, Rei.” said Malia and Reiji again smiled. “Ga resists in iya-iya-in as well right?.” she continued and Reiji's smile turned into a ruckus.

“Yes too anyway. I installed the drop-in mode if it has been dig**in.”

“Ih! Rese!” Malia thaws.

Reiji smiled amusedly and squeezed Malia's nose.

Malia gets out of the car after saying goodbye to Reiji.

Reiji smiled until Malia closed the car door, then waved at Reiji who opened the window on the side of the door where Malia was sitting.

Reiji then closed the window, after Malia turned around to walk to the elevator in the basement parking area and drove her car back to the airport.

At the same time, Reiji spoke in his heart.

‘If it's not about me and my past feelings for Irly, then what's bothering you, Yang?’

Although Malia tells Reiji that she is fine, Reiji feels that there is something a little different about Malia's attitude.

‘As if there is something Lia is covering?’

Reiji.

‘But what?’

*

“Lo want to go directly back if there is a plan to go where first?.” It was Malia who spoke up to ask one of the friends in the division, when their work time was almost over and none of them had to be overtime today.

“Turn me like beibs. The guy I picked up today,” said a division friend whose desk was right next to Malia's.

Sufficient female colleagues are said to be close to Malia in one division.

“Hm,” Malia mumbles slowly while short mangosteen. “Yauds with it.”

“Laki lo again fly ya?” ask Malia's co-worker.

“Iya.” Reply Malia.

“Pantes lo ngajak road.”

Malia grinning a horse. “Rather than me joining alone in apartment.” Malia said later.

Then Malia and her female co-workers, who were close enough to her in the office, had a little chatty until their working hours were over.

Malia was ready to leave her work cubicle immediately and was about to step out of the floor where her division was heading to the elevator.

But Malia's steps paused, because she heard her phone inside the bag ringing at once vibrating.

“Continue!” Malia exclaimed in mutter when she saw the name of the caller on her phone screen.

*

MALIA

The corner of my lips automatically pulled upwards, when I saw the name Avi Bestih plastered on my phone screen when I pulled my phone out of the bag.

Like understanding aja child if his best friend again join. It just so happened that Avi was in Jakarta, so I thought I'd make an appointment to hang out with her this afternoon.

There's a lot I want to tell Avi exactly.

From the moment I saw a male figure similar to Irsyad that day.

Avi knew about Irsyad when we were in college, but Avi never met with Irsyad.

There was never a chance for that.

Because Irsyad is indeed the types of home boys, which is difficult to be invited to hang out, unless we are on a lecture schedule on the same day.

It's just a way to hangout for a while, watch and eat.

Many even spend time in the campus library, because Irsyad is very serious to pursue his goals.

It's too serious, so I don't think he's sensitive to how I feel about him.

The feeling I wanted to bury, should have been. But in fact back to wriggling, because I saw a figure similar to Irsyad a few days ago.

I used to share everything with Avi. About how I felt about Irsyad, a little Avi knew. Long ago. Where does Avi know now, if I've buried that feeling, ever since I married her brother.

And right now, I actually want to confide in Avi at length.

About my household and his brother's problems that still stuck in my heart, which triggered a sense in my own past.

But is it appropriate that now I confide in Avi?. Which is now not only a friend, but my own brother-in-law.

Moreover, now I am again disturbed by the shadow of an Irsyad.

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Seriate...

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