Treasure, Throne, Renata
Anxiety Story Rayendra

10.30 WIB – RENTZ Office

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I was still struggling in front of the laptop while observing the progress of the application I had made for almost a year. It's not easy for me to make a dream come true for this app. A lot of scorn that I got because they thought this product was not useful at all, even many of Dirut in this group tried to drop my position because we were considered to be lazy. From the few months RENTZ stood, we have not also provided benefits for the company.

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The phone was still ringing on my desk. I don't know who called me this time, I wanted to ignore it but the sound was disturbing to break my concentration.

Nana Calling

“ Hello Na, what is it?”, I replied receiving my sister's call.

“ Hello Ray. You've reached the office?”, asked my sister with a ketus.

“ Yes, busy again. Why Na?”.

“ Lo tuh crazy ya Ray, why the heck you ngajak-ngajak nyokap to the hotel yesterday”, he snapped with a bang.

“ I have wrong what? Time can not take a walk anyway?”, answered I do not accept with Nana's words.

“ Not the streets that I do not like, but the talk lo to nyokap make him cry-nangis tau ga! I could have married again Ray!”.

“ Yes I have to be honest dong same nyokap, if indeed I have married Renata”.

“ Elo is sick what is Ray? Your business with Kak Rania has not been completed, the children have not yet found. Are you married to Siri? Lo this ain't got no brains ain't got a heart anyway Ray?”.

“ Hey, I've been Rania's talak for a long time. You know for yourself if I want to separate him long before Kian was born. You know for yourself if Rania ga becus be a wife, can not serve the husband with should. If now I met the same woman who can love me I need, did I marry her wrong?”.

“ Wrong if how you betrayed Brother Rania. Household problems you should save and fix first, not the disgrace of the same wife of everyone. Lo hope Kak Rania becomes a wife like you want, is you already the husband that Kak Rania hopes it is?”.

“ I've been all-out Rania, I love her home until the installments every month make my account eroded, I pontang-panting looking for money to nyenengin him. There is not happiness that I get, my financial problems even swell. Rania ga becus as wife, she just adds to my burden every day”.

“ Denger Ya Ray, what you give to your wife and children is your jihad. If your wife is wrong can not fault him completely, all this time you can already be the head of the family who is really ga?”.

“ Gini, I am always wrong. No one knows my position. Gimana capenya I paced Jakarta-Bandung for nyari money, how capenya stay up until diomelin client because the work is not finished. All this pressure I can't bear Na “.

“ Cape yes by the way lo Ray. Not even penitent ngeyel. Nyokap cry-nangis after returning from hotel kemaaren, could-can you already married without consent dia”.

“ I want to invite nyokap to Bandung kok wedding, but unfortunately it hurts again “.

Nana kept throwing her anger at me on our phone this afternoon. I've ignored all the meaning, it feels free to also explain all what I've been through lately. All they want is for me to keep my marriage for the sake of the children, but in this heart there is no love for Rania.

“ Shrimp hasn't nagged it Na? I'm working again briefly again want a briefing with tim”, I said so that Nana stops her chat.

“ I guarantee you will definitely be able to nerima Renata kok, I can guarantee Renata can be a daughter-in-law who can be much more affectionate with in-laws. If you disagree, nothing. This is a decision I have taken”.

“ It's up to you. Congratulations on a new life. Congratulations on building heaven on the wounds of other women who gape”.

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I slammed my phone into the table. Not finished my problem now appears again new problems. The rejection from Nana made my head throb, my brain no longer able to think clearly. No one understood that my decision to leave Rania was not because I was careless with her, I wanted to break the tangled thread of all the trouble I faced.

Ah, I just ignored my conversation with Nana just now. I had to turn my attention to something much more productive, there were a lot of projects I had to pursue to fetch my wife fortune. My responsibilities have now increased, there is Renata that I have to give a living, there is Daffa that I have to take care of his tuition fees and allowances for Kila and Kica every month.

Suddenly I remembered Om Yan, he must have gone home after a trip from London. I think it's time I follow up the project in Bogor, a fair fee from consulting services can support my new family later. I'm looking for Om Yan's contact and I'll call his number right away.

“The number you dialed is not listed, please double check your destination number”

The voice of the operator made me wonder, how could I have mistakenly contacted Om Yan. This is the number I usually call, has he not reached Jakarta yet?. My mind is still wondering where Om Yan went?. Should I call Dion?. Meanwhile, Dion is still looking at me with financial statements that I have to account for.

DION

“ Bro, Om Yan is still in London what is it in Bogor?”.

I finally sent Dion a short message. Inevitably I had to open a conversation with him, after all these weeks I avoided his pursuit.

PINGING

DION

“ Udah “.

I was surprised by Dion's short answer. What's wrong with him, he doesn't usually reply to my message with only 4 letters.

“ How is the continuation of the project, when can we start?”.

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DION

“ Project starts after we meet in Jakarta. I asked you to come quickly. Faster better “.

“ Ready Bro, tomorrow I come to the office yes. You want to nitip something ga? I have something for Sean “.

Minutes passed, no messages came in. There were only two blue dots on my WhatsApp status, a sign that Dion had read but did not reply to my message. What's wrong with her? Dion's strange gurgle started to make me anxious, Om Yan I can't call right now. There was a feeling of dread that came to my mind. Feelings of uneasiness, fear, insecure wrestle into one. Do they all know that the funds I put in are company money?. What will happen if I meet Dion in Jakarta tomorrow?.