Under The Rain's
Chapter 26—A Scream from the Heart

The noise that had been created suddenly became silent for a moment, when the word was thrown from the mouth of Rafael. Kangen. Longs. What does she miss about a relationship she may never have wanted? What does he miss about the woman he left behind? The word is easily spoken, but perhaps its meaning is left out of nowhere.

Reva was silent in the corner of the kitchen. Lean behind the door to the outside. He bowed lethargic, whether what prowess suddenly pervaded his mind. Years of trauma often make the pieces of bitter pills in the past milling to swallow and master the reason. Whenever he tries hard to make peace and forgive, the blood-soaked baby's visual returns to his subconscious.

“Now, I'm asking you to go!” pinta Reva firmly.

“Yi—,”

“Please, I beg you, you must go!” insist Reva again, that time half begging.

“Yi, I also beg you. Please ... permission I speak.” Rafael began to feel restless seeing the woman before him suddenly become riled up.

“Ngak. I can't.”

“You can't keep believing, Yi. We have to talk!”

“I don't want to get involved with you anymore! Our relationship has been long over!”

“But! We're not finished yet! You have to give me a chance to explain everything! I can't keep living like this. I don't want to, Yi.”

“Your life? What's wrong with your life? You have always thought of your own life, without ever caring about the lives of others!”

“Yes, fine! I know I always make you hard. I realized that what I gave to you was never comparable to your giving to me. But, is it wrong if I want to fight for a second chance?”

“Chance to two? I've given you a chance so many times! You always make mistakes, and I always take you back. Time and time again! Until there's nothing left now. None!”

That's where Rafael really realizes that the situation between him and Reva has been very difficult to improve. He sat down on the edge of the bed, staring expectantly at the woman who stood leaning against the door not far from him. The woman was also bowed down gloomily with both hands crossed at the chest. Closely clutching his own body.

The past. Rafael began to record what his mistakes were so that his best friend in childhood was not even willing to look back at him again. The woman was always very nice to him. Always follow his wishes. And he did that without asking for anything in return. Completely selfless. After nine years of not seeing each other, Rafael realized how much he felt he had lost.

Holy hooch! The situation made Rafael very frustrated. In fact, his attempt to break through the balcony was also in vain because it did not treat any injuries at all. Now in front of him there was only a woman who looked so afraid of him, with deep sadness emblazoned real on the look of his face. The woman who used to be with him wherever he went, at that time did not even want to be in the same room again with him.

Unable to bear it, Rafael started walking towards Reva slowly. He really wanted to embrace the trembling body of the woman.

“Don't come here!” throw Reva away as soon as he saw the footsteps moving to approach him.

“Yi, I beg—,”

“Go! Please, I don't want to!” Reva increasingly shudder to pull himself back, even though at that time he was very cornered in the corner of the door. However, panic caused his body to continue pressing against the wall, as if hoping he could break through the thick wall and escape.

Unwilling to obey, Rafael still tried to reach him to give him a little calm, but obviously it did not work. Reva even more thrashed to stay away from him by shaking his hands.

“Yi, please, don't kayak gini keep.” Rafael continued to ponder while trying to hold the woman into his arms. “Please, Dear .. You calm down first, yes ...”

Far from being calm, Reva began to shout uncontrollably along with Rafael's nose which began to feel touching the trunk of his nose. He's getting hysterical, no matter if it bothers the neighbors. “I don't want you here! Please stay away .. please, don't bother me again!”

Rafael did not want to give up, he even began to release his energy to stop Reva's body from writhing frantically, with both hands clutching on both of Reva's upper arms, until finally the woman's body began to relax.

The scream that had echoed earlier immediately turned into an unbearable sobbing cry. The terrified spirit in Reva's chest slowly became a pain that made her body tremble until it sobbed, when Rafael managed to wrap his arms around her body. Reva was still rebelling and trying to break away, but Rafael was unmoved. The man insisted by clutching the body tighter like he was not willing to lose himself again.

“Quiet, yes, dear ...” hiss Rafael smoothly in Reva's right ear, with his left hand crosswise over the woman's back, and the right hand continues to caress her hair. The longer, Rafael hugged him the tighter as he continued to say “calm, yes .. don't rebel anymore. I'm here for you."

Reva's sobs began to subside as she leaned against the man's chest, though she still did not want to return a hug from him. He could hear Rafael's heart thump, which inexplicably gave him a little peace. He just stood there for a few jokes, dropping his body into the warm arms of the man he once loved so much. Reva had been too weak to even stand up, but Rafael continued to support her tiny body, whose skin felt very soft to the touch.

For a few minutes silence was lifted. Rafael really permeated those moments, when he was finally able to stand that close to one of the most important women in his life. Once, twice, he kissed the woman's tender head that was parallel to her chest. Really, for Rafael, it felt like too long a time had passed, without him smelling the scent of the body that was in his embrace at that time. Since long ago, according to Rafael the fragrance of Reva's body is typical. There was always a slight smell of vanilla, even though the woman was not wearing perfume.

Although his heart was not willing, Rafael finally resigned. With weight he began to loosen his tight embrace that made the tiny body set. Before actually letting go, Rafael's fingers rubbed Reva's face full of tear marks. Long also the ten fingers of the hand stroked Reva's right and left cheeks, exploring every corner of his ayu face. Meanwhile, the woman continued to bow weakly.

“Yes, already, but I will definitely come again, yes,” replied Rafael wilih as he began to step back away from him. “I'll definitely come again. And you have to wait for me.”

Reva didn't answer. He kept turning his face and slit his nose that felt compressed. And finally he opened the door that was still locked, then invited Rafael to come out of his room at that time.

With gontai steps, Rafael passed through the doorway, welcoming a quiet corridor that felt terrible in the early hours of the day. Without making a word of it, Reva immediately closed the door again. And let himself cry even longer in solitude.

Holy hooch!

Rafael's door is locked from the inside!

Because of the emotionally draining drama, Rafael does not remember that he came from the balcony. He had just realized that after failing to open his own doorknob, and he did not feel like he had a key in his pocket.

Without a second thought, Rafael immediately knocked back on Reva's door, though he was not sure that she would listen to his stupidity for the umpteenth time.

The knuckles started to clench and swing slowly to give a knock after a knock on the door. He also had to stand alone in the hallway.

“Yiyi, open the door, dong,” urged Rafael who began to fret because the stubborn woman did not also pester his call. Raphael was convinced that he had not slept. “Please, Yi ...”

Over time, finally a speech was heard from inside the room, although the voice sounded very hoarse like crying. “What else, anyway?! I'm tired, want to rest!”

“Yi, I locked it outside,” replied Rafael. He continued to plead in the lowest possible voice, with the mouth that he brought close to the door to avoid disturbing his neighbors. “Please open the door, yes, please ...”

“No!”

“Yi, I told you, ‘kan, if I will come again.”

“You're crazy!”

“I'm not crazy, Yi. This is the right time for me to come again. Please, permit me to enter once again.”

“No can!”

“Aduh, Yi, not good, lah, I make a rowdy on the outside like this, please, later everyone wakes up.”

“I don't care!”

“Oke, means I'll continue here, yes. I keep tapping anyway. How else, right? I have no other choice.”

At that time, Nadia had to return to Jakarta with Kaia. That month he received so many wedding invitations from his friends, that almost every weekend he had to visit other places. Of course Rafael is very lazy to be invited to crowded events such as weddings or reunions. Moreover, Nadia will also definitely spend a lot of time with her circle and ignore the existence of her husband just like that.

“Yi, please, I want to pee. Can't stand this anymore.”

Then the door opened violently. The owner immediately snorted in annoyance when he saw the man again who appeared before him.

“Still, Yiyi!!” rafael shouted while storming inside. Shameless, he also immediately grabbed the bathroom doorknob and fulfilled his wish.

Reva was only able to stare furiously at the annoying man's behavior. Always has been so since time immemorial. Always arbitrarily. Always in the end Reva was made. Reva's life will probably always be like that, always obeying his will without him knowing it though.

Then Rafael began wearing another set of rock climbing gear to return to his balcony terrace, still with a drift like a thief.

For Reva, I don't know why the scene so tickles the heart. Seeing Rafael seriously commit such a dangerous stunt just to meet him. He could only shake in disbelief. And unintentionally, a small smile knot fell on the corner of her lips.