
The tired body was still forced to stand by Reva, trying to block Kris who was burning with anger to meet Rafael that night. No. gabe. Reva couldn't let them meet under such circumstances, or Reva couldn't let them meet again until at any time. However, Kris is adamant about challenging him, and Reva really doesn't want anything bad to happen. Finally, he kept begging and begging Kris to stay, to forget everything and keep moving forward.
“Kris .. I beg you, please don't come there. Please ...,” urged Reva while holding Kris' hand that was already on the doorknob to open it. “Please .. I can clear everything,” he added in a clear tone.
Kris was silent for a moment, but slowly his steps began to loosen the grip from the doorknob. Reva noticed the subtle movement, and she immediately grabbed the hand and grasped it.
“Kris ...,” face Reva expectantly with teary eyes while gulping spit many times, “you want to hear me, ‘kan?”
In the meantime, Chris gave up. He began to move away from the door even though his face was still crimson full of disappointment. He had no idea it would hurt that much, knowing that Reva had lied to him. And he did not think that the man he had been looking for had been so close to him for months. Chris felt like he was being played. Sad and angry united together, which eventually gave birth to an outpouring of emotions so violent that he did not realize he had been rude to his own lover.
“What is your explanation for all this, Va? Maybe you forgot, but I can help you to remember everything again.”
“Kris, no need—”
“Why did you lose your job and leave campus? Why did you leave home?”
“You don't need to discuss—”
“You remember where the baby was buried? Why did you bleed so many times and almost die from it, Va?”
“Enough, Kris!”
“How many times do you have to operate? Faced with surgical knives? Why can't the doctor say you can't have any more children? How much of your hard work has gone into that, Va?”
“Kris ...”
“How often do you drink sertralin? The duloxetine? Just because you want to be happy like everyone else. Why do you need to see a psychiatrist every month? You remember?”
Reva's body immediately slumped to the floor when her legs were no longer strong. His head almost clashed hard with the floor if only Kris did not immediately hold back and protect him from impact.
Yes, of course Reva remembers every detail of the suffering just plainly mentioned by Kris. He remembers it well. He won't even be able to forget it until anytime. However, half of his heart was still left in the past with Rafael, and during that time he could only live with the other half. Of course he could not let some of his life taken away by Kris just like that.
“Now tell me, Va. Why did you bother to forbid me from going there? What do you expect from me? After I saw your condition for the past nine years with my own eyes and head?”
“Gosh ...”
“I don't accept seeing you treated like a gini, Va. I can't!”
“No luck having a grudge, Kris ..”
Seeing her own lover insist on blocking her, Kris had no intention of backing out. Instead, he is increasingly made to wonder where that protective attitude comes from. What kind of bond is it, which is not even faded by a million traumas and sufferings. They want to protect even when they are hurt. Kris never thought about why Reva would succumb to the black hole that almost swallowed him alive.
“I know now, Va. From the way you kept me away from him. I finally got.”
Reva didn't dare to respond. Kris's sharp gaze at that time was like she was stripping him naked, looking deep into his heart to find a definite answer. Reva realized that from the beginning he had indeed betrayed his fragile relationship with Kris. He knew that he would never be able to give his whole self. But anyway, he needed Chris. He desperately needs protection from the man, against the dark life gripping around him.
“Because you still love her, Va! The taste is still there. Still strong. And that's been her protector for years!”
In front of Reva, Kris lowered her head and began to grin despite the thin look on the tip of her lips. One more bitter pill reality that he had to swallow, although to be honest he was already very ordinary with it. Ordinary with an unfair life since he was a child. Then, he tried to re-target his focus to Reva, who had been sitting sobbing in front of him.
“For this time, especially for this one, I can not obey your request, Va. I will stay there, as promised long ago!”
“Do not, Kris ..”
“And tonight you moved from here! Bring stuff. We take care of the rest later.”
“Why? Why should I move? This is my house!”
“You're crazy to think I could leave you here! Your ex-boyfriend may be running out soon, Va. You see it later!”
There was no time left, Kris immediately went to see Rafael that night. He was determined. Whatever happens, he is determined.
Reva was still clutching Kris's legs, although the man did not waver walking towards the door while dragging his thin stature. “Kris, please stop ...” the ball constantly. “Do not, Kris .. I will do anything for you. Anything. Please ... I will always obey you ..”
Can not stand the whimper of the woman, with a loud Kris turned around without words, holding her and locking her in a closet that has not been filled with anything. The cupboard was tall and elongated without a bulkhead, fitting perfectly with Reva's petite posture. Previously, Reva intended to add some collections of new bags and shoes, so he left a little storage space in his room.
No matter how hard Reva rebelled, Kris kept walking away from her. The screams after screams he heard from inside the closet did not affect him at all. Unceasingly also the door of the closet was pounded tightly to the shakes were obvious from the outside. However, that method also did not work.
At that moment, there was a thin supply of air that could be inhaled from the thin gap between the closet doors, and Reva began to feel short of breath when she heard the sound of her bedroom door in the lock.
Kris actually went to see Rafael.
***
Mutually disheveled thunderbolts were heard again that night. It was past midnight, when the still awake Rafael heard the sound of the door being knocked. Although he felt very tired and drowsy, he still moved to open the door with an intentionless step. The sound of the knocking also did not want to stop even though he tried to ignore it. It sounded so annoying, that he decided to see who the annoying creature was standing there.
Kris' figure immediately caught his sight as soon as the door slit opened wide. The man looked cold and furious, making Rafael wonder what made him behave so rowdy in front of his house.
“Why, Kris? Anything less on the web?” Rafael immediately thought that it was just a matter of work.
“By login?” asked Kris flatly.
“Iya, please—”
One bangkar fist landed right on Rafael's left jaw before the man could even finish his sentence. His body staggered until he hit the kitchen furniture that immediately fell to the floor. The surprise was so unexpected, Rafael was completely unprepared. He could only groan pain without understanding anything.
Not yet had his body erect, the second fist drifted towards Rafael's right jaw. That time it was certain that the bones around it were cracked. There was a loud gnashing sound as Kris's knuckles hit him strongly. His body again sailed into the still remaining objects on the table, followed by an increasingly intense roar of pain.
Nadia and Kaia who were still not asleep were shocked to hear a boisterous sound from the kitchen located near the entrance. Then, the two immediately rushed out of the room, just for the sake of witnessing the scene that instantly made their hearts almost fall to the floor.
“EL!!”
“AYAH!!!”