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. Rayyan was stunned to find Arisa's expression that she had never thought of in the first place. All she knows is that if Arisa leaves her life, it is most likely that Arisa loves others, not the other way around.

"Why do you think so? I should have told you that. You've always been in Rama's shadow, when you knew I'd never turn away from you."

"liks. You are the same as Rama. You said you loved me more than anything, but you left me alone."

"When did I leave you? Arghhhh why don't you ever understand Risa?" Rayyan's screams echoed filled the room. "If I don't love you, why would I endure my feelings for you being clear for these four years you're considered dead. Just so you know Risa. I'm one of those people who still believe you're alive. I'm looking for your whereabouts. I canceled my wedding, I'm crazy because of you Risa. When you said you were getting married to Fabio, my heart was breaking, my mind was falling apart, my life was not good, I tried to never marry your brother, but you asked me to do it yourself. You left by wounding me, and came back without recognizing me. Now, I'm asking what do you want?" Continue with a loud voice. Rayyan cried desperately and sat languidly in front of Arisa. He grabbed his coarse hair and continued to sob. Arisa who saw it also felt surprised, why Rayyan to cry in front of him now. Didn't Rayyan love Raisa?

"Go home." Said Arisa in a soft tone. Rayyan flinched hearing it and she looked up at Arisa who was looking down.

"Go home Aray. We're done." He continued to drip a clear circle that fell right on the back of his hand.

"What?"

"Say I came home Aray. We're done, I'm no longer your lover. Don't ever see me again. Forget about me, and throw away your feelings for me. Just find another woman who loves you and who is approved by Oma Galuh. I'm not the right choice for you." Now it was Arisa's turn to cry bitterly in front of Rayyan.

"I wouldn't go home if you didn't come. Oma blesses our relationship Risa. Mother really wants you to be her daughter-in-law. Sein also really wants you to be her brother. Dad is the same."

"But you're not." Shouted Arisa interjected quickly. "You don't want me to be your companion. You love Raisa, but you talk like you still love me. You said I was in Rama's shadow, but what are you? You are the same. You think of me as Raisa, right?" Arisa no less raised her voice in despair. "So what am I in your life for. While you never appreciate my feelings. You assured me that you were nothing like Rama who left me alone. But after I loved you, even deeper, you left me and accepted your match with Rais. And now, you're talking like you can't believe that I'm dead and happy for the living me, and then you're talking about your marriage being void with Raisa because of my passing, now you keep convincing me that you love me. But in fact all your words are lies. This time I asked, what do you really want? You want to destroy me how else? I've been pretty devastated with my family. And vou? Arghhhhhh everything makes me want to die." She cried out loudly and covered her already messy face from tears.

"What are you talking about, Risa? Why do you think I love Raisa?"

"You hugged her, and you loved her, didn't you? I saw it myself. Do you think I'm stupid? I love you not for you fool Aray. I'm sincere. I love you because I want to live with you. But what do I get? Turns right. It is only fitting that Brother Tio forbade me to recall the memories of my life. Because everything gives me a headache. Rama's death, liver cancer, my half-brother's death, then my feelings for you and our memories that I should never have remembered. But I remember everything." It was getting desperate.

"You remember everything? Risa's? You remember?" Rayyan slowly approached and she was about to grab Arisa who kept her head down. Realizing Rayyan's touch, Arisa immediately brushed off Rayyan's hand and distanced herself.

"Stay away from me. Leave me now."

"No. I'll never leave you."

"You're selfish Rayyan."

"Yes, I'm selfish. I just want you. Now, come with me home!" Rayyan pulled Arisa's hand by force and Arisa herself thrashed around trying to escape Rayyan's grasp.

"Take off me Rayyan." But Rayyan ignored Arisa's scream, she continued to pull Arisa. Arisa who tried to hold herself back from stepping out the door, immediately grabbed anything to hold on. But due to Rayyan's more powerful and domineering strength, he could no longer hold his grip so loose. A crazy idea comes to Arisa's mind despite having to hurt Rayyan. Without hesitation, Arisa pulled away in the opposite direction and Rayyan was slightly restrained making her stop. And getting that little chance, Arisa kicks Rayyan's leg and still tries to pull herself away. Due to reflexes, Rayyan released her grip due to linu due to Arisa's kick. And 'bugh' Arisa fell with a head position that hit the wall hard. There was the sound of Arisa's breath being severed before she collapsed and quietly grabbed her head. Rayyan looked up at the motionless Arisa and made a small sobbing holding her head which might continue to throb.

"Risa... Are you okay? Pardon me. If you don't kick my leg, I can't let you go either." Rayyan was surprised when she saw the blood on Arisa's nose. Immediately Arisa covered him with her hands and he moved but his body staggered and he could not hold his body that felt numb. His consciousness faded and Rayyan's voice faded away.

. Arisa grabbed her head that felt linu on the back, she blinked her eyes and tried to be fully conscious.

"Risa dear. I'm really sorry." Rayyan said as soon as possible to show herself in front of Arisa's eyes with a hand that continues to hold Arisa's hand without intending to release it even if only briefly.

"I want to be alone." Arisa turned her face to the other side and she gasped to find Daffa's flat, innocent face staring at her.

"Hi." His voice sounded weak.

"Daf Ihh. You surprised me."

"Is my face like a ghost?" Ask Daffa with a cynical glance.

"You think?"

"Hey Aris? What kind of grudge do you have against me, huh?"

"Daf... Can I ask you something?" Arisa asked and seemed to ignore Rayyan beside her.

"Can you take your friend home and don't come back looking for me?" Suddenly, Rayyan grabbed Arisa's rough shoulder and turned to her forcibly.

"When are you like this, Risa?" Rayyan asked in a soft voice but sounded firm and pressing. He was well aware of the situation at the clinic.

"Please...." Arisa begged to look hopefully at Rayyan who was getting sharper looking at her.

"No." Rayyan was convincing.

"What made you want to take me back to Jakarta?" Tanya Arisa suddenly became serious.

"Because I love you, and I want to live alone with you. We get married, and we become a family."

"But I hate you." Firmly Arisa stifled Rayyan's breath instantly. He looked into Arisa's eyes that were really serious about saying it.

"You think I believe?" Slowly Rayyan removed her hand from Arisa and she slightly moved away with a heart that felt slashed.

"Daf."

"Aris..."

"Daf. I want to calm down here."

"Rise!" Rayyan firmly stopped Arisa's babbling. "Actually what nonsense did you keep talking about earlier huh? I don't appreciate me? Where was Arisa? Since when are you like this?"

"Isn't Arisa dead? I'm Princess. Not Arisa."

"What's? Hahahaha what charade are you playing Risa? Don't act like you're forgetting our good-bye night. You started first, and now you say you hate me? Haha don't make me laugh Risa." 'Plak!'

"I say go" cried Arisa along with her loud slap that landed on Rayyan's cheek.

"You sure you want me to go?" Rayyan stared fixedly as she grabbed her hot cheek from Arisa's slap.

"Do I look like I'm kidding?" Arisa's gaze was no less serious looking at Rayyan who narrowed feeling inexhaustible with Arisa's different attitude. Rayyan sighed deeply while smiling sinisterly turning her face away.

"alright. If that's what you want. I'm gonna go. But don't you ever ask me to come back."

"Go away. You don't have to worry, I won't ask you to come back." Arisa answered with her voice.

"Arise... Aray. you're ken-"

"Shut up!!" Say the two at once and silence Daffa for a moment.

"You should understand my departure. You don't need to find me until you get here. Anyway, I already hate you."

"Ohhh so you hate me? Alright. Daffa let's go home. It's a waste of me catching up with this selfless child." Rayyan passed by without looking back. Daffa was worried about who he should side with now.

"Why are you still here?" Arisa asked a cynical glance at Daffa who was still confused turned her head out and at Arisa took turns.

"Basins ya. I'm tired, from dark days, when others are still sleeping, I have to accompany Rayyan who whines want to catch up with you as soon as possible. And once you get here, you're acting like this to me? Aishhhh you have no sympathy for me and Rayyan. You really changed Aris. Ohh wrong, I mean Princess." Say Daffa before you leave. He then passed after Rayyan who had come out and might have gone far. However, Daffa was surprised when he found Rayyan still in front of Arisa's room in hiding. And he wondered why Rayyan re-entered Arisa's room.

"sorry. My phone's left behind." Rayyan said with a flat face looking at Arisa who was wiping her tears because of Rayyan's sudden arrival.

- connected.