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. Rayyan pulled Raisa's hand in a hurry to enter the car and then left the house. Along the way Rayyan ruffled her hair full of annoyance, drove away the car quickly, and did not speak a word.

Rayyan seems to be deliberately following the speed of the car that Arisa drives. Until finally, the two cars entered the yard of Yugito's house. Arisa immediately went down and ran with two boxes in her arms.

"Risa.." call Rayyan who came running after Arisa. But Arisa does not care about Rayyan and continues to run up the stairs with difficulty because his condition has not been fully healed. Rayyan stared at the door because it was impolite to chase Arisa up to her room.

"Pursue. It's okay." It's okay." Raisa said in a flat tone.

"But it's not polite Raisa."

"I'm the host. And I let you in." Again, Raisa said in a flat tone. With hesitation, Rayyan followed Arisa to the front of her room. Several times Rayyan knocked on the door and called Arisa, but there was no answer. His phone rang a sign of an incoming message, and unexpectedly it was a message from Arisa.

"Go home. I want to be alone." As soon as the contents of the message sent to Rayyan's contact.

"Risa. I'm not leaving until I make sure you don't get angry and misunderstand." Rayyan half-screamed hoping Arisa heard.

"Rayyan.." call Tio from downstairs. Rayyan rushed to Tio and tried to ask Tio for help to persuade Arisa.

"Let him alone first. You scream as loud as you can, if Aris doesn't intend to come out, it'll be worth it." Tio said seriously advising Rayyan who still feels guilty because of the words of the grandmother who could not keep her oral.

"Sister.please apologize to me and Risa. I really don't mean to make her feel sad." Rayyan said after getting tired of her staring at Arisa's room and heaved a heavy sigh several times.

"All right. You take it easy. I'll talk later." Tio patted Rayyan on the shoulder while making sure that Rayyan did not panic too much.

Rayyan rushes back to her car and leaves Yugito's residence.

"I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you." I don't know how many tens of messages Rayyan sent to Arisa with the same message. From the balcony, Arisa stared at Rayyan who had passed through the gate and through the slightly crowded street.

Arisa touched her chest strongly as the tightness and cold sweat started to pour out. His breath felt severed due to the pain in the location of his operation.

"It shouldn't have run away." Lirih Arisa who sat on the sofa outside then rolled around to endure the pain that continued to feel. As much as possible Arisa adjusts her breathing so that the pain is reduced. The ringing of her phone made her look into the room. It felt like Arisa was reluctant to move from her current place. But because of the reason 'who knows it is important' makes Arisa force her step. Judging by who called, Arisa frowned to find the name Gilang listed on her cellphone screen.

"Hallo Gilang." Greet Arisa after sliding the green button sign answering the call.

"Hallo mbak's. Not busy tomorrow?" Ask from across.

"Emmm.. don't know Lang. What's wrong?" Arisa asked back.

"Mom wants to meet mbak" replied Gilang sounding doubtful.

"Mbak doesn't know Lang either. Fear if you make an appointment with mom, there will be a sudden need here."

"Yes, I don't understand. Call if you are not busy. Later Change to pick up mbak. Or...." Gilang deliberately hangs his words and makes Arisa curious to make.

"Or what Lang?"

"Mbak want Gilang take a walk around the city, take a bus from stop to stop, take a train from the station to the nearest station and come back again, then-"

"Enough Lang. Don't nudge. I want to forget those memories." Firmly Arisa interrupted Gilang's joke.

"Want to forget about Rama's bang?"

"How do you think Lang? Do you have to wait for Rama to return?"

"Nope-no. M-not that Gilang meant mbak. But. yaaa. Forgetit. Forgive Gilang who just mbak. Miss said no meaning."

"You know Aray, right?" Asked Arisa who was responded to by a rough breathing by Gilang.

"That mbak's girlfriend?" Ketus.

Arisa sighed for a moment then exhaled slowly. "It's not Lang. It's Raisa's sister's boyfriend."

"Why can you?" His voice is now a little higher and he sounds surprised.

"Yes. He is in a relationship with Raisa. Not mbak."

"I mean mbak?"

"Do you not understand or pretend not to understand Lang?"

"Hehe.. sorry. Just ask for certainty."

"What certainty Lang?"

"If you are single, it can be the same bang Dimas mbak. Bang Dimas is also single. Waiting to be ready for the room." Hearing Gilang's speech, Arisa laughed loosely.

"What are you talking about, Lang?"

"Ihh... Is it really mbak?"

"Yes, I want to take a shower, then take medicine." Arisa still said with her laugh.

"Yes mbak. Sorry yes."

"Where are you going?" Tanya Yugito was standing at the end of the stairs.

"There's daddy's business." The answer is to lower the view.

"Have you made up with Raisa?"

"Dad.. Aris hastily." Arisa stepped back and did not respond to Yugito's question.

"It's Aris' afternoon."

"Just a minute, Dad."

"But ushered in Mang Ujang."

"But...."

"Don't argue. That's if you want me to let you out. If not, you go back to your room now."

"Just so." Arisa sighed for a moment then passed Yugito without saying anything more. Yugito stared at Arisa's departure and felt that the boy was too lonely because of it. Yugito walked towards the terrace, and was still monitoring the car that had now passed through the gate.

"Where is he going?" Lirih Yugito sighed heavily.

"Where are you going?" Ask Mang Ujang who focuses on the streets but still does not know where this young lady wants to go. Arisa leaned back by turning her face to the left side without showing any other expression besides a flat and cold expression.

"To the tomb of Rama mang." Answer Arisa limp.

"But it's not afternoon."

"Then? Scared mom?" Ejek Arisa who turned to Mang Ujang who was driving by changing her face to panic. The sound of a small laugh from behind made Mang Ujang embarrassed.

"Non don't laugh anymore."

"It's funny..." Arisa still chuckles mockingly at her father's personal driver.

"Non is busier now. Usually mamang pay attention, non Aris used to love to the tomb den Rama every Saturday. Now, non spend more time in the room."

"Yes mang. I think it's like that. If only it were mang..."

"What is non?"

"If Rama does not go, surely mamang also not lonely playing chess."

"Ah non Aris always reminds me of that memory. Mamang shameless non. Mamang is old but lost to Rama." This time it was Mang Ujang who laughed. Arisa smiles considering the closeness of Rama with mang Ujang and bi Ina first. Because only with them Arisa feels comfortable, as if replacing the position of a lost parent somewhere. Only her body could Arisa see, but her attention was not.

"Oh yes non. Non Aris remember no? When Rama's birthday den, non Aris pretended to faint in front of den Rama, until den Rama panicked and angry equally non."

"Yes mang Aris remembered. That also made Aris regret until now. Because of the panic that triggered Rama drop instantly and a few days after Rama died. If only Aris knew he was sick. Maybe Aris won't do anything stupid that Aris might regret for a lifetime." Arisa was staring at the windshield.

"But mamang happy to see the non who is now no longer alone. It seems like den Rayyan is really trying to make non Aris happy." Arisa just smiled faintly hearing the narration of the mang Ujang. How can Arisa be so happy with the reality that is far from happy. Love the same person as Raisa, but Rayyan prefers her, and in fact Raisa has been betrothed to Rayyan since a long time ago.

Mang Ujang pulled over the car not far from the tomb gate. Arisa rushed down and walked past several other tombs. Arisa stopped at a name she missed so much.

"Rama..if this was just a dream, I'd like to wake up and meet you immediately." Lirih Arisa who sprinkled some flowers that she picked from her small garden.

"Tomorrow my birthday, nothing special after your departure. No one's taking me around and no one's saying happy birthday to me at the end of time. Come to my dream. I really miss you." He let his tears break again.

"Lord, let him see me for a second." Do it in your heart really. Then Arisa moved and wiped her tears.

"Aamiin's." Arisa was surprised by the sudden voice of the Ujang mang.

"Mang." Arisa's squealing touched her chest. "Why are you here?" His question was astonished.

"Hehe. Mamang worried about non Aris. Not surprised, right?"

"Aris was surprised. Suddenly behind Aris. Where is this in mang's tomb." Canda Arisa who steps ahead of the Ujang mang.

"Mamang also want den Rama to come to mamang dream." Cetus mang Ujang made Arisa look astonished.

"If Rama himself came to Mamang how about mang?" Arisa asked with a small laugh making the Ujang mang creep and shudder in horror.

"Ish. non this. Do not overdo the non. If in the dream does not matter, but if den Rama directly, yes mamang afraid." Arisa increasingly laughed because of the answer of Mang Ujang.

"Aris forbade Rama to meet Mamang. Tonight special time Aris alone with Rama. Mama can't come." Canda Arisa again made the mang Ujang smile thinly.

"Mamang hope non Aris happy always non. Don't be sad anymore." Mang Ujang muttered then opened the door for Arisa.

Arisa closed her eyes by leaning back, overshadowed Rama's face with a sweet smile and dimples on her cheeks.

"Shadows only." Mumbled.

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