US: The Irreconcilable Story
Chapter 34 Release Control
Mama kept urging me to tell her, without her noticing, she was clutching my arm firmly.
“Don't shut up, how can Mama know what you are feeling now if you don't tell me about Mama.”
Papa, Bang Aksa and Bang Arsa enter the house simultaneously. Bang Aksa shouted to Mama, Mama told them that we were at the dinner table, Bang Aksa and Bang Arsa approached us with worried looks.
“What is this, Where is it?” bang Aksa asked, she still wears the doctor suit she used to wear when she was in the hospital.
I glanced at Papa with a sharp glance, Bang Aksa followed the direction of my eyes that glanced at Papa.
“You why Syan? Why silence like gini?” Mama dipped in front of me.
I pulled my hand held by Mama, then pointed at Papa who was standing beside Bang Arsa, making everyone's eyes on Papa.
“The man has broken the heart of Shana, Ma.” I said, my face flat staring at Papa.
“You clear everything, don't make Abang worry more.” Bang Aksa asked me to explain the meaning of my words.
“The man was having an affair with friend Shana.” My eyes turned red while pointing at Papa's face, my neck veins tightened as soon as I poured my anger.
Bang Aksa loosened his head for a split second, Bang Arsa clasped Papa's hand which was directly on the edge by Papa, while Mama turned her gaze and cried as soon as she heard my words.
“Papa think you are big enough to understand the real life.” Papa looked into my eyes, I smiled sinisterly looking at him.
“Papa has been with your Mama for 30 years, there is no more love between us, we maintain this relationship for your sake. When you walk and Papa meets Elina, Elina has made Papa alive again, she gives you the attention you need and Papa does not get from your Mama.” Continue Papa, which makes my chest more tight.
“Observation? What kind of attention does Papa mean? Mama always prepares breakfast, lunch, dinner, ironing Papa's clothes and all Papa needs. So what kind of attention does Papa mean?!” I tried to hold back my tears even though my efforts were unsuccessful, tears kept flowing down my cheeks and I repeatedly wiped them.
“You will definitely understand when you already love someone else, you live with him for a long time and slowly your love is eroded by time.” Papa continues to defend himself.
“Wah.” I clapped my hands while smiling at Papa's face.
I walked over to Papa but Mama held my hand, Mama didn't want me to get close to Papa but I just kept moving closer to Papa.
“I just found out Papa's mind was this shallow, defending himself under the pretext of having been in a relationship for too long! Not Pa, not the wrong time.but Papa! Papa's heart is too narrow to accept the one Mama lacks, which even I myself do not know what Mama lacks.”
“Mama gave up her dream of marrying Papa, giving Papa the opportunity to lead Grandpa's company until now. But, Papa just forgot the goodness of Mama. Papa is blinded by the love of women***** that, women who are willing to sell themselves for money!”
“Syana!” Papa snapped at me right in front of my face, making both my eyes wide open.
“Look Ma, he was so angry when I insulted his affair but he did not react in the slightest when the woman hurt me, he slapped me, dragged me out even insulting me in front of the woman.”
Mama looked me in the eye, tidied up my hair, Mama hugged me, I knew that Mama wished I could calm myself down.
“Udah how long has Papa been in contact with Elina?” I looked into Papa's eyes, trying to control my emotions.
“6 months.” Bang Aksa answered the question I asked Papa.
Bang Aksa's reply surprised me, I saw Bang Aksa, he did not dare to look me in the eye.
“They've been dating for 6 months.” Bang Aksa.
“Bang.” Call me, slowly.
Bang Aksa held my hand, he looked at my face.
“Sorry Bang Aksa, Syria. We've known for a long time about Papa.”'s affair
“We?” I saw Bang Arsa and Mama, who just bowed quietly.
My body staggered back, I pulled my own hair.
“Why am I the only one who doesn't know? Why?!” my peek.
Bang Arsa holds my shoulder.
“Dengerin Brother, we are afraid..”.
“Stop!” I stopped Bang Aksa, who was about to give an explanation.
Tears flooded my eyelids, my hands shook.
Bang Aksa was about to grab my hand but I immediately brushed it off.
“You still do not think I'm family anyway?!”
“Why should everything be like gini?” I muttered in my heart, crying sobbing.
That night, Khenzie called me.
“Are you okay?” Khenzie asked as soon as I got the call.
“Ya.”
“Syan tomorrow we want a repeat, practice for UN.”
“What lessons?”
“Mathematics.”
“Sudden pocket?”
“Iya, I just got word from Mr. Burhan. I send you examples, yes.”
“Iya, thanks.”
“Sama-sama, have sent it through WA.”
I opened the WA and saw examples of what Khenzie sent.
“Udah in, blom?”
“Udah.”
“Don't forget to learn, yes. Inget we just want UN.”
“Iya.”
“Happy learning.”
“Iya, dah.” I'm ending Khenzie's call.
Although heavy, I tried to put my feet on the study table, opening the mathematical notes that I had written all along.
“Why the answer is no anyway?” I grumbled annoyedly so unsuccessfully to solve the quadratic equation with the opposite root that I got in class 10 when only the numbers changed.
I switched to the median.
“Aaak!” I threw a notebook, I still didn't get the answer.
“Why is it so easy that I can't?!”
I threw all the books that were originally neatly arranged on my study table, the books crashed onto the floor and there was even something about my bedroom window.
“Syana, why?” Bang Aksa walked into my room, wanting to be surprised to see the books strewn on the floor.
Bang Aksa calmed me who was crying out of annoyance, he patted my shoulder.
“You why again, Syan?”
I looked at Bang Aksa's eyes, softly.
“I can't focus on learning, Bang.”
“Syan, sorry Bang Aksa yes.”
I nodded, disagreeing.
“Not Wrong Bang Aksa.”
“Bang Aksa didn't tell you earlier, sorry Bang Aksa for that.”
I saw Mama, Bang Arsa and Papa standing in front of my room, they went into my room. I got up from my seat, I looked at Papa with a sharp look.
“Stop there.” I asked Papa not to go into my room, he stopped his steps under the door frame.
I walked closer to Papa.