US: The Irreconcilable Story
Chapter 38 Feeling Guilty

In the cafeteria, I was repeatedly caught by Khenzie's eyes while looking at him but I always turned my face away.

“Why? Anyone want to take your sample?” Khenzie asked me with a smile.

I stared at Khenzie, who was eating her favorite instant noodles. I took the bowl of noodles and kept it away from Khenzie's face, making Khenzie's noodles dangle in her mouth and Khenzie's mouth.

“Syana!” Khenzie got pissed at me, he took back his noodle bowl.

“Gue want to talk no?” I asked Khenzie in a serious tone, making Khenzie look at me.

“Lo danger talk me with Elina?” ask me to Khenzie.

Khenzie nodded her head, Khenzie who had been staring at me since, now turned her eyes away.

“Lo angry yes same me?”

Khenzie looked me in the eye, he was silent for a moment making me flutter.

“No, I know that's how you make it last.” Khenzie smiled and went back to eating instant noodles.

“I'm sorry, Khen. Sorry for making elo a tool for revenge with Elina.” I said in my heart while looking at Khenzie.

“Gue can nasehatin elo, no?” Khenzie asked me.

I nodded my head.

“Lo can hate Elina, it's humane. I also if in the position you will do the same thing but Syan, do not let the hatred make you melt down. Do not hurt yourself by hating, do not plant the seeds of disease in the liver lo.”

My eyes trembled, as soon as I heard Khenzie's advice.

“Returned I said, if you are not alone. So, do not fill your days with hatred yes.” Khenzie continued, looking into my eyes with a sweet smile, suddenly my cheeks were hot.

I pinched my own hand, which momentarily felt a thump staring at Khenzie.

“Gue might be sorry Elina if she just hurts me but she hurts my whole family, Khen! Keep going now, you want me to forgive him?” I said emotionally, I'm sure Khenzie can tell you I'm out of control.

“No, Khen. I will never forgive him, until anytime!” I continued, with a rising voice, making the eyes of all the disciples suddenly turn to me because when I revealed my heart, the atmosphere of the canteen was silent.

“Syan, we know what kind of person Elina is. I don't want your hatred the same Elina make you lose yourself, I don't want to lose the Arsyana that I've known all this time.” Khenzie held my hand, looking at me softly.

Khenzie heaved a heavy sigh.

“Yaudah, yes. Elo calm down first, Syan.” Khenzie asked me to calm down.

I looked away, trying to catch my breath. After calming down, I asked Khenzie something that still stuck in my heart.

“Gue denger you like me, really?”

Khenzie looked at me for a split second then turned her face away while nodding her head.

“Since when?”

“Gue has only realized this feeling since the last two years, a feeling I always denied.”

“Akhirin, you are forever my best friend. Our relationship is only as friends, nothing more.” I asked Khenzie.

Khenzie smile.

“Lo can't control other people's hearts, Syan. My feelings are the same you grow so, along with our togetherness.” said Khenzie.

“Khen, I don't..”

“Gue does not demand you to reciprocate my feelings, I will still love elo even though I know the meaning of my life lo.” Khenzie interrupted my words, leaving me speechless.

I breathe heavily.

“After what happened behind this, I doubt if I still believe in equal love.” I'm budging.

As I passed Khenzie who was still sitting, Khenzie held my hand.

“Gue will still love elo, until you accept my love feeling.” Khenzie looked into my eyes while I looked straight ahead, she let go of my hand after she finished expressing her feelings.

I passed by leaving Khenzie, trying to walk firmly even though my legs felt very limp.

I became convinced now, that there was no pure friendship between a man and a woman. At first it may be like that, then one of the parties starts to hide his feelings under the guise of a friend.

I was sitting in a chair in the school corridor, near the school floor.