US: The Irreconcilable Story
Chapter 39 Simulation UN

As the days passed, I began to focus on facing the UN. Visiting the national library, buying UN grid books and studying them. Almost every day I study hard, get rid of all the problems that always run through my mind.

1 week before the UN took place, the school again held a simulation of the exam while confirming again whether the laptops used for UN work properly. I get a simulation schedule in the morning, I feel a relief getting a simulation schedule in the morning because usually in the morning the brain tends to work well.

"Bismillah." I clicked on the start sign, the laptop displays the questions to be answered by each participant simulation UN.

30 Minutes early, everything went well, I could answer well. Before then, my head was heavy, my body was sweating cold when in the air-conditioned room, my eyes were blurry, I could not see clearly the laptop screen, I kept wiping my eyes.

"Arshana, what's wrong with you?" mr. Burhan asked, holding my shoulder.

I opened my face with heavy eyes to open wider.

"No, Sir. I'm okay." I'm trying to convince Mr. Bruhan that I'm okay.

"If pain tells you."

"Yes, sir."

Mr. Burhan passed, he went back around to see the students who were doing the simulation exam.

"Syan, focus!" I advised myself, hitting my own head slowly.

I felt like something was flowing from my nose, I wiped it with my finger, my eyes were wide open as soon as I saw blood on my finger, I had a nosebleed. I tried to ignore the blood on my fingers, I went back to doing the test but the blood kept flowing from my nose made my shirt's arm covered in blood because I wiped my blood there. Mr. Burhan seemed to be aware of my unusual movements, he approached me.

"Astagfirullah, Shana!" Mr. Burhan was surprised to see the blood on my shirt arm, he shouted anxiously.

Mr. Burhan helped me to stand up, but I still insisted on sitting down and taking the test.

"Syana, you're sick. Your health is more important now!" Mr. Burhan forced me to stand up.

"Suppy." I said slowly, answering.

Mr. Burhan looked at the computer monitor that was in front of me.

"Your answers are saved, don't worry. We're going to the UKS now."

"No, Sir. I have to finish this."

"Syana, this is just a simulation! You don't have to be sick anymore!"

I ignored Mr. Burhan's words, I continued to answer the remaining questions. My gaze grew increasingly cloudy, suddenly my gaze darkened but I could still hear people shouting my name.

"Syan, I'm sorry you can't take care of you." I look forward to hearing Mama's voice.

Slowly I opened my eyes, I lay with the lights that blinded my eyes. I saw Mama sitting next to the bed where I was lying down, holding my fingers and Bang Aksa massaging my feet.

"Ma." call me, slow down.

"Syan, you're finally awake. Mama's worried so much that you've been knocked unconscious at school." Mama stroked my hair.

I recalled with the simulation of the exam going on, I forced myself to get up.

"Wanna! Where you going? Don't harm yourself, you're on the infusion." Bang Aksa asked me not to move much.

I took the infusion bag, I took it with me.

“Can't you beat up someone else once?” bang Aksa asked me, who was about to leave the hospital ward.

“Syana must finish the exam, Bang.” My voice vibrates.

Bang Aksa approached me, he held my shoulder.

“Dengerin Bang Aksa, just this once.you need to rest, your body is not okay anymore. Regarding the exam, before passing out you have answered everything and have been successfully stored on the school server.” Bang Aksa smoothed her tone while explaining everything to me.

“Who said?” my question, not sure about Bang Aksa's explanation.

“Pak Burhan, when he anthers you to the hospital.”

“No, Shana don't believe.” I put away Bang Aksa's hand that was holding my shoulder, stepped back to leave the hospital ward.

“Why are you kayak gini now? Why is it so hard for you to trust others? Why does Bang Aksa feel like he doesn't know you anymore, Bang Aksa has lost the old you. Arsyana who always looked at the world with a charming perspective, bright colors that she showed always managed to amaze everyone, Arsyana who always.”.

“That art is dead after the dark color given by its confidant.” I interrupted Bang Aksa's words, I looked directly into Bang Aksa's teary eyes.

I snorted in annoyance, then laid myself back in the hospital bed.

Mama stroked my hair, her eyelids looked wet. Bang Aksa approached me, he was standing next to Mama. I tilted my body, making Mama and Bang Aksa not see my face, tears streaming past my eyes.

“Mafin Shana.” I said in my heart while wiping my tears.

April 17, 2018, one week after the UN was completed. While eating together at the dinner table, I got word from Mr. Burhan through What’s App, he sent me a screenshot.

“Syana, congratulations you managed to pass SNMPTN with a law department. Congratulations again, Arshana. I am proud of you!” mr. Burhan wrote, after sending me a screeanshoot that stated I passed the SNMPTN.

As soon as I finished reading the chat from Mr. Burhan, I immediately moved and pushed my chair back.

“Why you?” asked Bang Arsa, who was sitting next to me.

Everyone looked at me, astonished. I smiled happily at everyone at the dinner table and showed the chat I received from Mr. Burhan.

“Bacaine, Sa. You know yourself Mama is myopic.” Mama asked Bang Arsa to read a chat from Mr. Burhan.

Bang Arsa smiled to see me, it seems he had time to read the chat because Mr. Burhan wrote ‘LULUS SNMPTN’ with capital letters. Bang Arsa moved, he stood next to me, before reading the chat aloud, Bang Arsa cleared his throat first and then read the chat aloud. Mama and Bang Aksa who were sitting next to each other, were both surprised and happy to hear that I passed SNMPTN.

Bang Aksa was about to hug me but Bang Arsa instantly overtook him, Bang Aksa pulled Bang Arsa's hair to make Bang Arsa shout.

“Congratulations yes, My dear sister.” Bang Arsa said, congratulating me while hugging me.

“Gantian dong.” Bang Aksa pulled Bang Arsa's hand, making Bang Arsa let go of her hug from me.

Bang Arsa pointed her fist at Bang Arsa's head, even though it was just a snapping form from her.

“Keren, congratulations yes.” Bang Aksa stroked my hair.

My mother smiled at me.

“Mama won't congratulate me?” ask Mama, stretching my hand.

“Syan, congratulations on your achievement. Mama is proud of Syana, Shana can determine the path of Shana's life well.” Mama's voice shook, she hugged me very tightly, I stroked Mama's shoulder with a big smile.

“Still, Ma. Mama has educated Syana very well, what Shana achieved today is the fruit of do’a-do’a that Mama skilted.”